January 20th will be the 1-year anniv of that terrible, sad day. I wish I could say that I'm doing well, but I am so-o not. I've spent this year just going through the motions of existence, while missing my beautiful golden girl so intensely, wishing to have her back again, trying to push down this thick lump in my throat as the tears form, and zoning out on memories of happy days with her. Some days I feel stronger than others, and those are the days I force myself to be preoccupied so I can ignore this huge void that's ever present like a dull pain. The trauma and finality of it all is hitting me hard starting this new year without her. I feel like I'm leaving her in the past now, and know that I must continue to do so, even though I feel her presence so strongly right here in my heart.

I just needed someplace to shout out to the universe that I miss you, dear Abigail Mae. And I miss the sweet girl who came before you, Roxanne Autumn. Two awesome golden retrievers who I was so lucky to know and to love.

Thanks for listening. My heart goes out to all of you who know this pain, too.

Always in our hearts, never forgotten.

Thinking of you Angelbears's Luv


Jan and my Angels xx

They will always live in our hearts no matter how much time passes. You never forget the love that they gave to us and we will NEVER forget them. They are with us each and everyday. As we go through life without them we must remember they were part of our life and will be for eternity. I know they now are watching over us they are our angels now. The bond will never be broken between us and them. All we can do is take one day at a time until we are with them again for ever and ever.

Thinking of you as you appoach your 1 year anniversary
Anna & My angel Max

I just passed my 1 year on October 30th so I know the anxiety you are having right now. Sounds like you do like me and have days when you have to work hard to not dwell on the loss. That is my best coping stratigy.

She IS present in your heart and will always be there. You are in hers also.

Thinking of you as you approach this difficult anniversary date.

I really feel for you Angelbears's Luv, I just want you to know that I am thinking of you as the anniversary of your precious baby draws near. I haven't been there yet, but I know it's going to be so difficult for me when the time comes. Hugs xx

madi xx

You will be in my thoughts as that angelversary approaches. I have already been through one and the next is getting closer. We all have to try harder on some days then others. Your pain will ease, but you wil NEVER forget them!!

Come here to shout when ever you feel like it. That is why we are here to listen to each other!!!!!!!!!!!

Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Angelbear's Luv--

I really feel for you too. Anniversaries can be SO difficult.

But...I don't know if this will bring you comfort or make you think I'm a piece of stone, but I can't even remember the anniversaries now of the deaths of my last generation of dogs (about ten years back), much less the ones before them. I remember the months, but not the days. While I loved them all madly, time HAS done its healing, I guess...

Hang in there and keep on loving your fur angel!

XXOO--Margi and Ladywolf