To all of us here on Lighting-Strike I just wanted to write us a little poem



Heaven And Earth

You are our angels from Heaven above
Oh how we all here send you our love

As we sit here on Earth each and everyday
Our love and memories of you will never stray

Our hearts are so empty and filled with greif
Its just because we miss you, and are still in disbeleive

Life here on Earth just wont be the same
Because you cant come, when we call your name

When you came into our lives and our home
We sure didn't think of how it would be without you and alone

Our hearts are so empty and filled with pain
But we all must remember that you are now heavens gain

Oh the feeling of guilt, is the hardest to except and understand
We must believe we did it out of love and with gods helping hand

You may not be here with us in body,but you are in spirit and soul
So we all must remember that and make it our goal

So as the days turn into months, and then turn to years
We must remember that you are with us and wipe away our tears

Heaven as we see it, is a beautiful place
Just because when we think of it we see your face

As to you our precious one, who has left us behind
We will see you again its just going to take a little time

To all of our sweet angels in heaven above
Your parents here on Earth send you our love

Your parting from Earth has brought us togther
We will all share your memories with each other forever

Living without you is going to be tuff
There will be a bond between Heaven And Earth
And it is called us

With ALL Our Love
Special hugs and Kisses Max
From Mommy

Dear Mommy Anna--

What a beautiful tear-jerking marvelous poem! Thank you so much for sharing it with us!

Margi and the Wolf

Dear Anna

That is a wonderful poem which says exactly what we all feel. thankyou for putting it into those beautiful words.

Love and hugs
Jan and my Angels xx

That poem says it all, it's really beautiful, I would love to have it somewhere visible for all to see.

madi xx

Thank you Jan I hope everyone here likes it. I know we all have the same thing in common and that is the loss and emptyness that we feel without our 2 and 4 legged babies. I hope they here are voices and know how much they are missed and loved. I added a few more verses to it.

Anna

HI My Precious Boy, You have brought so many feelings out that I didn't know excisted. Keep guideing me and help me make it through each day. If I could just find it in my heart to believe letting you go was the right thing. That is what I am having the hardest time doing. I just dont feel it was your time to go in my heart. I just didnt want you to suffer if the medicine didn't help you. You where in pain and I knew it I could see it in your beautiful face. It broke my heart to see you barely walking. That wasnt you. You loved to run and play so much. I was just afraid how fast you got sick that it would just get worse so quickly. All I ask is please know that my love over powered my heart. I write these little poems and I try to believe the words but it is so hard. Its just so hard to imangine the unkown when we cant see it. We have to go with faith that there is truley life after death that its not the end. Every one talks about heaven and many pictures of how we emangine it, so I can only PRAY that I will see you again.

Holding on to Faith
Mommy

Hi Anna,

You and I are having the same guilty feelings. I too wonder if I ended Callaway's life too soon. I wonder if there was other medication that I could have given him to extend his life. I am on antidepressants and going to a grief counselor to try and deal with my feelings. I pray that we both find peace soon.


HI My Precious Boy, You have brought so many feelings out that I didn't know excisted. Keep guideing me and help me make it through each day. If I could just find it in my heart to believe letting you go was the right thing. That is what I am having the hardest time doing. I just dont feel it was your time to go in my heart. I just didnt want you to suffer if the medicine didn't help you. You where in pain and I knew it I could see it in your beautiful face. It broke my heart to see you barely walking. That wasnt you. You loved to run and play so much. I was just afraid how fast you got sick that it would just get worse so quickly. All I ask is please know that my love over powered my heart. I write these little poems and I try to believe the words but it is so hard. Its just so hard to imangine the unkown when we cant see it. We have to go with faith that there is truley life after death that its not the end. Every one talks about heaven and many pictures of how we emangine it, so I can only PRAY that I will see you again.

Holding on to Faith
Mommy

Anna...that is beautiful...I love it. Guilt is a big issue with me everday...like Rhapsedy, I sometimes wonder if the timing of my decision was the right one. I sometimes feel ok about it and other times I feel awful...just a process that I hope we can all get through.

Hugs,
Brutus' Mom

Hi Sonya, I know once we find peace in our timing I know we will be ok. I think its just going to take some time for us to find peace with ourselves. I still miss him so deeply. I know we will always have that void in our homes and heart. If we can just get over the guilt, but I guess that is all part of the love that we feel for them. Gosh I wish Dottie would log on so we know she is ok.

One Day at a time
Anna

Hi Sweet Max mommy wrote you another poem and started you a poem post.

In my thoughts for ever
LOVE YOU

My Sweet Max,
Keep watch over mommy and all my friends here who's beloved pet has come to join you. I miss you more everyday,

M-MY
A- ANGEL
X- XOXO

LUV YOU

Poppers says, "hey, it's not s0 bad up here! We get to eat all the 'people food' we want, and we have fun running atound meeting all of your former beloved pets. We form a family--we're just waiting for YOU to join us! There are no leashes in heaven, nor any limit on the amount we can eat. Everyone just naturally gets along--no fighting, no "alpha" stuff.

We have rivers to swim in and lots of sticks and fish to catch. We sleep whenever we want to, eat whenever we want to, and take walks together by the holy stream. Nothing hurts anymore for us, except YOUR pain, which we wish we could erase. Life is is easy here, we wait anxiously for you to join us. Walking is way more fun when our "mom or "dad" is guiding the action!

We love you from afar, but we are never really far from you. We all wait for you to meet up with us again someday. In our case, there are nine of us, so be prepared to get smashed on the ground and LICKED from here to eternity!

I don't regret a single thing you did. It was my time, that's all. I miss you terribly, but i KNOW that we will meet again, in a timeless, easier, and more magical place!

Love and Kisses--

Poppers

Thank you poppers I needed to here that.

Anna

I hope evryone is doing ok as well as they can be. Hope we all find some comfort soon

Anna

Hi To Everyone

I know I havent been responding to alot of our new members its not that I dont care and share with everyones grief because I do. I have just been having a few set backs myself. I was really hoping the new year would bring some comfort and I am sure it will but for the moment I have not been feeling it. Please know my heart goes out to our new members here for your journey has just begun with the loss of your furbaby.It makes me very sad to see new forums for I know the loss and the pain that you are feeling. Please know that there are so many wonderful people here to lend an ear and share thier own stories.

Hugs to Everyone
May we find peace in our hearts until we see our Angels again

Godbless us All
Anna

Thinking of you Anna, and your darling Angel Boy Max


Love and hugs

Jan and my Angels xx

Hi Anna,

I'm so sorry that you aren't doing very well. It is so hard, the thoughts that envade our brains and won't seem to let go, the sadness that comes over us and can sometimes seem to debilitate, and missing our Angels and knowing there is no way to change the past. I wish I had the magic words for you to make everything all better but I have looked everywhere for those magic words and have yet to find them. I guess we need to keep trying to heal from our pain and hopefully one of these days we will find peace and remember all the good times that we shared with our babies. The thing that keeps helping me going are the notes from people that have been thru all of this and say they felt exactly the same way and that they did heal. It has been 4 months for me and I am definitely better than I was, I'm not where I want to be but it's a promising sign that I do feel a little better.

I hope we all find peace soon.

Rhapsedy

Rhasedy and everyone--

I have had nine dogs in my life (I'm almost 60), and by now, eight have died. That's unbelievable to me--eight marvelous, loving, energetic, delightful dogs, all of whom are gone now. They were all different from each other--each was unique, and I loved them in unique ways. But I'm here to testify that the pain of loss DOES eventually heal. I don't feel much pain over the loss of any of them anymore...well, a couple more than the others...but mostly I think of them with pleasure, not pain.

The reason that the impending loss of Ladywolf looms SO large is that I don't think that I will be getting another four-legged for quite some time. I want to be free to travel, and especially to live out of the country if I choose to. I want to have more living situation options (over 40 years, I've lived in some pretty bizarre circumstances because I've always had dogs...and cats.) I would like to try being animal-free for awhile, though I know that that's not me, and that I will always do the adopt-a-dog routine--you know, something like the neighbor's lonely dog who ends up spending more time with me than with the owner...that kind of stuff.

Time DOES heal--you WILL go on living, and living better and better all the time. I'm glad that I have all this experience behind me, because it helps a little bit now. I just hope that when she goes, Ladywolf goes gracefully, at home. It fits the way she's lived her life for her to go out that way, and not in Critical Care or something like that.

I'm talked out tonight, and that's unusual for me! But I spent the whole day in Tucson running errands and I'm exhausted! (I live about 45 mins. out of Tucson, in a very small rural community. I and my friends to to compress all our errands and running around in Tucson into as few days a month as possible...)

Love and big hugs to all--

Margi and Ladywolf

Thanks so much for this poem - it is absolutely beautiful.
Sharon

Sharon you are quite welcome I know all the pain that all of us here feel. I know that I am not alone that is why I wanted to write a poem for all of us. I just wish at times I could feel happy knowing that my max is truely pain free and in a better place. I couldnt let him suffer, but never expected to feel this much guilt or pain setting him free. One day I hope to except that what I did was the right thing. We are all on a slow journey but hopefully we will make it to our desination.

Looking forward to finding our on peace
Anna xoxo

Hi Anna and everyone:

You said in your last post: We are all on a slow journey but hopefully we will make it to our desination.

I totally understand what you mean, and thought you might appreciate the words I have hanging on my wall, from the days when I used to live on the road:

How long the road is.
But for all the time the journey has already taken
How you have needed every second of it
In order to learn what the road passes by...

This suggests to me that the process is what is most important, not the destination. We learn from every day that we hurt--we learn about love and loss and gain and being brave and recovering, and it's a slow gradual process with lots of twists and turns and even back-tracks along the way. I look at Ladywolf right now, thoroughly satisfied after another wonderful dinner, and I think, "It's all been a journey, and it will continue to be a journey all the way through her passing, and the time after that too...and on to the next adventure..." (I can say this now calmly, after cracking up in my counselor's office today over Ladywolf and money stress, and having to take a tranquilizer in order to be able to even continue to speak! So I don't have it all THAT together--I'm just in the aftermath period right now, I guess...But I do love the words I quoted above.)

Keep the faith, everyone. Time WILL heal.

My nine dogs, by the way, were in three different generations (and what a mixed bag they were!) I always had at least two, and often three or even four. That's why I have so many beloveds waiting for me in doggie heaven!

Margi and the Wolf

Hi Margi

Thank you that is a wonderful quote and oh how true. The only thing I wish I could have taken a couple detours along the way. Which makes me think how I missed all the signs.

Thank You
Anna

Thank you for the poem. It sure helps. ruby

Hi My Sweet Max
Mommy didnt leave you because I wanted to. I thought of you each and everyday. I will never forget about you. I love you very much.

Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi My Angels
I still cant believe that all my babies have now left me. It makes me realize how short of time we have here on this earth and how fast time goes by. Your 7 years here now seem like it was only 7 days. Oh how much I miss you.

Sending you kisses
Mommy
xoxoxo

Hi My Angels
I was just looking back and reading mommy's poem I wrote thinking how Dozer you were here sitting by my side when I wrote that poem after loosing my sweet Max. Its just still hard for me to except that you both left so close togther. I love you my Angels.

Mommy
xoxo

I just came across another poem to share with some of our new members.

Hugs to everyone who is suffering

Anna