I got Molly in my mid 20's, when she was just a couple of months old. She was born on February 22, 1995. I loved Molly so, so much. She was a little 4 1/2 pound Yorkie and the world revolved around her as far as I was concerned. She saw me through some very rough times and brought back my health by eliminating a lot of stress I was going through. I would come home and she was there for me, always happy to see me. She did funny little things that I will always remember. I cannot explain how much I know she loved me and I loved her. My parents would always say, "There is no question that she's your dog." When they would watch her for me and I'd come home, I was the only one in the room as far as she was concerned.
It is so hard right now. Molly has had problems over the years. We had a horrible fight with Cushings about 5 years ago that was totally resolved. She only had to be on medications for a few months, maybe half a year and the Cushings never came back. I nearly lost her when she reacted to the medications. I was so thankful to God that I still had her. She's had dental issues much of her life. I constantly fought her dental problems, getting her teeth cleaned regularly. She still had problems. She had a bad knee but never complained. I didn't even realize how bad the arthritis was and how bad her knee really was until we took an xray about a month ago.
Molly had been breathing a little rougher and faster the past month or two. I thought it was a rug in the room, which I replaced. Then I put an air cleaner in the room. She began limping on the bad knee, which now makes sense to me. She was getting weaker. It wasn't just the knee. She had several fainting spells about 1-2 weeks before she left us, which scared her. We comforted her as much as we could. We rushed her to the vet where they did an x-ray of her chest. She had fluid on her lungs and was diagnosed with congestive heart failure a week before she left us. I was in shock. We worked with the meds another week to help her breathe easier and try to help her heart. The Friday before she left, her lungs were clear. The vet was so excited and said everything was fine. But she was still limping and looked weak. He couldn't explain the weakness.
Without dredging up the recent bad memories too much, we rushed her to the emergency room at about 9:30pm that same day, just last Friday. The fluid was already back a little bit, but not as bad. I asked them to do everything possible. When I saw her last, she was on oxygen, up, walking around and looked really good. In the night, her heart stopped twice. They revived her once and thought she was really going to be fine. They told me she was even resting comfortably. They gave her pain meds and were with her constantly. But the 2nd time, it was just too severe. She passed away at around 3am - 3:30am on Saturday November 14, 2009. They tried 10 minutes to revive her and just could not. I had held her a long time the evening before and she seemed comfortable and happy.
I am incredibly heartbroken. I feel like I was so lucky to have her in my life almost 14 years and 9 months. The first day, I really just didn't even know what to do. It's been 2 full days and I am still incredibly sad. I will never get over this. I begged God to not take her from me yet. My dad says that's why I got the last week with her and to be thankful she was comfortable, happy, eating, drinking, and was still the Molly I loved and will remember. I am sad I wasn't there with her when she passed. But I know she was comfortable and well-taken care of. She knew I always tried to do the best I could for her.
I'm sorry this is so long. But it helps to just get it out. I am missing a piece of my life and it's nice to find a place where others understand this sort of bond.
Full Version: Molly Was Special
I am so very sorry for your loss.
It hurts very deeply to lose someone you love so much. I lost my two angels, Lily, June 24, 2008, suddenly and unexpectedly, and then Hunny, April 4th of this year to cancer. Both were only eight when they left me. Hunny was diagnosed with cancer just days after we lost Lily. It hasn't been a good year and a half! Then we lost two cats this summer, also eight.
All of us here know the pain you're feeling. And as much as it hurts right now, you will get through it - it will just take time. Everyday gets a little easier. Of course I still miss Hunny and Lily so incredibly. I still cry often, but I know they are both in a better place and they are together again.
I don't feel them around me as much as I'd like to, but I know they're watching over us. I like to think that they are just busy being happy and healthy. And that's all I ever wanted for them. I don't want them to miss me the way I miss them. They deserve happiness.
This is a great place to come. I found this a few days before we let Hunny go. I wish I had found it when we lost Lily that's for sure.
You had a good long life with Molly and no doubt some very good memories. Right now all you can think about is the end, but in time, that will fade a little, and the good memories will start to flow through the pain. She loved you with all her heart and she knows how much you loved her. She's in a better place, a place where she feels no pain. She's young again and healthy. She's playing with her new friends. And I like to believe that we'll all be together again someday. I think that Molly wouldn't want you to be sad for too long. She'd want you to move and be happy again. You'll never forget her that's one thing I know for sure, but maybe there will be other puppy loves along the way.
All you can do is take it one day at a time. Don't worry about being long-winded - we're all long-winded. There's a lot to talk about and it's good therapy.
Take care.
Lynette.
It hurts very deeply to lose someone you love so much. I lost my two angels, Lily, June 24, 2008, suddenly and unexpectedly, and then Hunny, April 4th of this year to cancer. Both were only eight when they left me. Hunny was diagnosed with cancer just days after we lost Lily. It hasn't been a good year and a half! Then we lost two cats this summer, also eight.
All of us here know the pain you're feeling. And as much as it hurts right now, you will get through it - it will just take time. Everyday gets a little easier. Of course I still miss Hunny and Lily so incredibly. I still cry often, but I know they are both in a better place and they are together again.
I don't feel them around me as much as I'd like to, but I know they're watching over us. I like to think that they are just busy being happy and healthy. And that's all I ever wanted for them. I don't want them to miss me the way I miss them. They deserve happiness.
This is a great place to come. I found this a few days before we let Hunny go. I wish I had found it when we lost Lily that's for sure.
You had a good long life with Molly and no doubt some very good memories. Right now all you can think about is the end, but in time, that will fade a little, and the good memories will start to flow through the pain. She loved you with all her heart and she knows how much you loved her. She's in a better place, a place where she feels no pain. She's young again and healthy. She's playing with her new friends. And I like to believe that we'll all be together again someday. I think that Molly wouldn't want you to be sad for too long. She'd want you to move and be happy again. You'll never forget her that's one thing I know for sure, but maybe there will be other puppy loves along the way.
All you can do is take it one day at a time. Don't worry about being long-winded - we're all long-winded. There's a lot to talk about and it's good therapy.
Take care.
Lynette.
Hi Shawn
My heart goes out to you. I can't say much to help at the moment as I know the pain and heartache is unbearable, but just to let you know that I am thinking of you.
You must take comfort that your Molly is not suffering now. You shared over 14 years together and obviously shared so much love and many happy times. Try and think of that and how she would not want you to be so sad.
I'm pleased that you have found this site. There are many really caring wonderful fellow pet lovers on here, and hopefully you will be helped by them through this dreadful time. They have certainly helped me over the last few weeks.
It really helps to know that we are not alone and that people on here really do understand and care.
Thinking of you,
Love Jan xx
My heart goes out to you. I can't say much to help at the moment as I know the pain and heartache is unbearable, but just to let you know that I am thinking of you.
You must take comfort that your Molly is not suffering now. You shared over 14 years together and obviously shared so much love and many happy times. Try and think of that and how she would not want you to be so sad.
I'm pleased that you have found this site. There are many really caring wonderful fellow pet lovers on here, and hopefully you will be helped by them through this dreadful time. They have certainly helped me over the last few weeks.
It really helps to know that we are not alone and that people on here really do understand and care.
Thinking of you,
Love Jan xx
hi shawn
im so sorry for your loss. as i read your story, i could feel the love you and molly shared for each other. the death of our family members is so hard to grasp and to understand. how can they be taken away from us so quickly? it is something that we all have to cope with eventually. i wish i could give you the answer or at least something to help ease the pain but unfortunately as everyone on this site can attest to, there isnt anything, only time. i know when i lost my riley first and a year later my fred, i am still devastated. my life will never be the same again. but if i may i would like to say to you that you already everything lynette and janika said is absolutely true. you are both so lucky to have had each other for that long (i know that may not be of any comfort right now but in time). she hung in there with you because of the love you had for her but unfortunately we all have our time. for me, im so grateful (as much as my heart aches for my babies) that they are no longer suffering, that i had a glorious 14 years with each of them and especially that they knew how much i loved them. please know that molly knows how much you love her. and in time you will realize that she will live in your heart forever. i like to think that once they leave our world, they go to a better one, you know, the one where they are reunited with their maker. and as they are welcomed back home with open arms, they are given their wings so they can look after us. dont be angry with god. he took her so she wouldnt be in pain anymore, and shes not.
your love for each other will always be there. hold on tightly to that. in time, the tears will be replaced with half smiles as you remember the happy, the funny and the wonderful times you shared with her.
keep writing out your sadness, your anger and your frustrations right here. all of us here know exactly what youre feeling. we have all felt that enormous black hole inside of us when our furbabies were taken from us. now is the time for grieving, let it all out, but remember to breathe. scream and cry all you want, but remember to take care of yourself. molly is ok now. shes happy. shes made new friends and she will be there until that wonderful day that we will all be reunited with our four-legged babies.
big hugs
patricia
im so sorry for your loss. as i read your story, i could feel the love you and molly shared for each other. the death of our family members is so hard to grasp and to understand. how can they be taken away from us so quickly? it is something that we all have to cope with eventually. i wish i could give you the answer or at least something to help ease the pain but unfortunately as everyone on this site can attest to, there isnt anything, only time. i know when i lost my riley first and a year later my fred, i am still devastated. my life will never be the same again. but if i may i would like to say to you that you already everything lynette and janika said is absolutely true. you are both so lucky to have had each other for that long (i know that may not be of any comfort right now but in time). she hung in there with you because of the love you had for her but unfortunately we all have our time. for me, im so grateful (as much as my heart aches for my babies) that they are no longer suffering, that i had a glorious 14 years with each of them and especially that they knew how much i loved them. please know that molly knows how much you love her. and in time you will realize that she will live in your heart forever. i like to think that once they leave our world, they go to a better one, you know, the one where they are reunited with their maker. and as they are welcomed back home with open arms, they are given their wings so they can look after us. dont be angry with god. he took her so she wouldnt be in pain anymore, and shes not.
your love for each other will always be there. hold on tightly to that. in time, the tears will be replaced with half smiles as you remember the happy, the funny and the wonderful times you shared with her.
keep writing out your sadness, your anger and your frustrations right here. all of us here know exactly what youre feeling. we have all felt that enormous black hole inside of us when our furbabies were taken from us. now is the time for grieving, let it all out, but remember to breathe. scream and cry all you want, but remember to take care of yourself. molly is ok now. shes happy. shes made new friends and she will be there until that wonderful day that we will all be reunited with our four-legged babies.
big hugs
patricia
I am so very, very sorry for your loss of Molly, it's devastating I know. You said Molly was always there for you, my darling Ulriich was too and that is why we miss them so. These beautiful creatures are a true gift and they give us their all without any complaint. I had a Fox Terrier called Bobbie with cushings once, it's a nasty disease. I know you feel really bad at the moment and nothing will ease you pain for a while, but I send you hugs and you know if you come to this forum, there will always be someone who understands your loss and will give you support.
madi xx
madi xx
Thank you so much. As badly as I feel and as sad as I am, it's comforting to know others understand. I have been incredibly touched by the outpouring of most of my friends and co-workers who have heard what happened, even some from high school I haven't talked to in years (I'm now 39). I almost can't believe how compassionate the majority of people can be with one another when they want to be.
I am still sad. But I am thinking of the good times. I've had to put a few things away for now that I'll bring out later. I am of course saying right now I will never ever get another dog and that no one can replace Molly. That will always be true, no matter who I may eventually bring into my life.
I'm trying to still find some understanding of why this sort of thing is so difficult. There's a reason we bond so much with our little babies. And although it may not sound it, I am in fact a guy. I thought people would see me as weak or weird for being like this. But it's been quite the opposite. Most seem to understand what it means to lose someone that's so important and have been very supportive.
I've read all of your replies and have been incredibly touched. Reading some of your stories, in a way I'm glad to hear a little sadness will still remain even in a few years. It means the bond was just that strong. I'm so thankful this sort of website is around as well as some of the on-line chat groups.
I am still sad. But I am thinking of the good times. I've had to put a few things away for now that I'll bring out later. I am of course saying right now I will never ever get another dog and that no one can replace Molly. That will always be true, no matter who I may eventually bring into my life.
I'm trying to still find some understanding of why this sort of thing is so difficult. There's a reason we bond so much with our little babies. And although it may not sound it, I am in fact a guy. I thought people would see me as weak or weird for being like this. But it's been quite the opposite. Most seem to understand what it means to lose someone that's so important and have been very supportive.
I've read all of your replies and have been incredibly touched. Reading some of your stories, in a way I'm glad to hear a little sadness will still remain even in a few years. It means the bond was just that strong. I'm so thankful this sort of website is around as well as some of the on-line chat groups.
{{{{{To Shawn from Molly}}}}}
"I Am Your Angel"
No mountain's too high for you to climb.
All you have to do is have some Climbing Faith.
No river's too wide for you to make it across.
All you have to do is Believe it when you Pray.
And then you will see the Morning will come.
And every day will be Bright as the Sun!
All of your fears cast them on me.
I just want you to see.
I'll be your cloud up in the Sky.
I'll be your shoulder when you cry.
I'll hear your voice when you call me.
I Am Your Angel!
And when all hope is gone I'm here.
No matter how far you are I'm near.
It makes no difference where you are.
I Am Your Angel! I Am Your Angel!
I saw your teardrops and I heard you cry.
All you need is time ...
Seek me and you shall find.
You have everything and you're still lonely.
It don't have to be this way.
Let me show you a better day.
And then you will see the Morning will come.
And all of your days will be Bright as the Sun!
So all of your fears just cast them on me.
How can I make you see?
I'll be your cloud up in the Sky.
I'll be your shoulder when you cry.
I'll hear your voice when you call me.
I Am Your Angel!
And when it's time to face the storm ...
I'll be there by your side.
Grace will keep us safe and warm.
And I know we will Survive!
And when it seems as if your end is drawing near ...
Don't you dare give up the fight.
Just put your Trust beyond the Sky!
I'll be your cloud up in the Sky.
I'll be your shoulder when you cry.
I'll hear your voice when you call me.
I Am Your Angel!
I Wish You Peace!!!
Always,
Dottie xoxoxox
Gees Shawn, animal lovers are animal lovers, gender doesn't enter into it. My husband Rob adores animals just as I do and cries when they die, just like I do. It's funny, I just realised that all my friends and their husbands do too and that is why they are my friends I guess. Come here and chat with us when you're sad, I could not have coped at all without these compassionate people, they gave me my life back, especially Janika and Dottie. Hugs.
madi xx
madi xx
i agree with madi. the fact is you are in deep pain because of the loss of your molly. gender doesnt even come into play. dont ever think that is wierd. you have a wonderful and big heart and thats what matters. you connected with molly because she is of a beautiful species that love unconditionally. that touches us deeply. you know now that i have little lucy in my life, sometimes i come home very tired and just want to go to bed but she on the other hand is so happy mommas home and wants to play. and even when im a little sharp with her, she continues to give kisses and that tail never stops wagging. someone here (awhile back) posted something that will stay with me forever: they said if you want to know how deep the love of your pet is for you, leave them outside for the night along with your better half. in the morning only one of the two will be happy to see you. that, to me was pretty intense and so true. and thats why we have such a deep love and bond with our furry ones.
Can i give you a little bit of advice? (take it with a grain of salt:) but dont close yourself off to another dog/cat. when i lost my kitty of 14 years not too long ago. i felt the same way. but as i have mentioned here before lucy just fell out of the sky and the lessons i have learned from her will stay with me forever. i did not go searching for another animal. in fact i was dead set upon never having another pet for the remainder of my life. it was just too painful and i too felt that my kitties could never be replaced. however lucy needed a home or she would be back in the shelter (in a nutshell; her foster family had found her laying by the side of the road after having been hit by a car or truck (i think it was a truck because to this day shes afraid of them). turns out she had been thrown out in the street at the young age of 4 mths. however after they rushed her to er and paid an enourmous bill that they generously paid out of their own pocket, they realized they couldnt keep her) let me tell you, i desperately did NOT want another pet, but her story touched my heart and i agreed. if you can believe it, all of this happened a week after freds passing. and i dont regret it one bit. im not saying go and get another one right now. you will know. but the greatest lesson i have learned is that both lucy and i know that she cannot replace fred and riley because they have one giant special place in my heart but she showed me that my heart is big enough for her too. it hasnt been easy. the trauma of it all.. there are days still that i cry for my kitties (and riley passed away a year and a half ago) and the worst thing is that even though lucy just turned one, i think forward to the day when she may leave me and that sends me into the waterworks phase. but i dont regret it. she has helped heal my very very broken heart. she makes me laugh, she makes me mad like when she grabs my yarn and runs all over the place
but i know that when its her turn (and im crying now she too (just like i believe fred had a paw in bringing lucy to me) will send me a little one to heal my heart as well. molly will live in your heart forever. she will never never be replaced. that can never happen even with a new little one. time heals all wounds...
you are in my thoughts and prayers. and since youve "met" lucy now, she and i send you big hugs
patricia
Can i give you a little bit of advice? (take it with a grain of salt:) but dont close yourself off to another dog/cat. when i lost my kitty of 14 years not too long ago. i felt the same way. but as i have mentioned here before lucy just fell out of the sky and the lessons i have learned from her will stay with me forever. i did not go searching for another animal. in fact i was dead set upon never having another pet for the remainder of my life. it was just too painful and i too felt that my kitties could never be replaced. however lucy needed a home or she would be back in the shelter (in a nutshell; her foster family had found her laying by the side of the road after having been hit by a car or truck (i think it was a truck because to this day shes afraid of them). turns out she had been thrown out in the street at the young age of 4 mths. however after they rushed her to er and paid an enourmous bill that they generously paid out of their own pocket, they realized they couldnt keep her) let me tell you, i desperately did NOT want another pet, but her story touched my heart and i agreed. if you can believe it, all of this happened a week after freds passing. and i dont regret it one bit. im not saying go and get another one right now. you will know. but the greatest lesson i have learned is that both lucy and i know that she cannot replace fred and riley because they have one giant special place in my heart but she showed me that my heart is big enough for her too. it hasnt been easy. the trauma of it all.. there are days still that i cry for my kitties (and riley passed away a year and a half ago) and the worst thing is that even though lucy just turned one, i think forward to the day when she may leave me and that sends me into the waterworks phase. but i dont regret it. she has helped heal my very very broken heart. she makes me laugh, she makes me mad like when she grabs my yarn and runs all over the place
but i know that when its her turn (and im crying now she too (just like i believe fred had a paw in bringing lucy to me) will send me a little one to heal my heart as well. molly will live in your heart forever. she will never never be replaced. that can never happen even with a new little one. time heals all wounds...you are in my thoughts and prayers. and since youve "met" lucy now, she and i send you big hugs
patricia
QUOTE (Shawn H @ Nov 16 2009, 08:10 AM) 
I got Molly in my mid 20's, when she was just a couple of months old. She was born on February 22, 1995. I loved Molly so, so much. She was a little 4 1/2 pound Yorkie and the world revolved around her as far as I was concerned. She saw me through some very rough times and brought back my health by eliminating a lot of stress I was going through. I would come home and she was there for me, always happy to see me. She did funny little things that I will always remember. I cannot explain how much I know she loved me and I loved her. My parents would always say, "There is no question that she's your dog." When they would watch her for me and I'd come home, I was the only one in the room as far as she was concerned.
It is so hard right now. Molly has had problems over the years. We had a horrible fight with Cushings about 5 years ago that was totally resolved. She only had to be on medications for a few months, maybe half a year and the Cushings never came back. I nearly lost her when she reacted to the medications. I was so thankful to God that I still had her. She's had dental issues much of her life. I constantly fought her dental problems, getting her teeth cleaned regularly. She still had problems. She had a bad knee but never complained. I didn't even realize how bad the arthritis was and how bad her knee really was until we took an xray about a month ago.
Molly had been breathing a little rougher and faster the past month or two. I thought it was a rug in the room, which I replaced. Then I put an air cleaner in the room. She began limping on the bad knee, which now makes sense to me. She was getting weaker. It wasn't just the knee. She had several fainting spells about 1-2 weeks before she left us, which scared her. We comforted her as much as we could. We rushed her to the vet where they did an x-ray of her chest. She had fluid on her lungs and was diagnosed with congestive heart failure a week before she left us. I was in shock. We worked with the meds another week to help her breathe easier and try to help her heart. The Friday before she left, her lungs were clear. The vet was so excited and said everything was fine. But she was still limping and looked weak. He couldn't explain the weakness.
Without dredging up the recent bad memories too much, we rushed her to the emergency room at about 9:30pm that same day, just last Friday. The fluid was already back a little bit, but not as bad. I asked them to do everything possible. When I saw her last, she was on oxygen, up, walking around and looked really good. In the night, her heart stopped twice. They revived her once and thought she was really going to be fine. They told me she was even resting comfortably. They gave her pain meds and were with her constantly. But the 2nd time, it was just too severe. She passed away at around 3am - 3:30am on Saturday November 14, 2009. They tried 10 minutes to revive her and just could not. I had held her a long time the evening before and she seemed comfortable and happy.
I am incredibly heartbroken. I feel like I was so lucky to have her in my life almost 14 years and 9 months. The first day, I really just didn't even know what to do. It's been 2 full days and I am still incredibly sad. I will never get over this. I begged God to not take her from me yet. My dad says that's why I got the last week with her and to be thankful she was comfortable, happy, eating, drinking, and was still the Molly I loved and will remember. I am sad I wasn't there with her when she passed. But I know she was comfortable and well-taken care of. She knew I always tried to do the best I could for her.
I'm sorry this is so long. But it helps to just get it out. I am missing a piece of my life and it's nice to find a place where others understand this sort of bond.
It is so hard right now. Molly has had problems over the years. We had a horrible fight with Cushings about 5 years ago that was totally resolved. She only had to be on medications for a few months, maybe half a year and the Cushings never came back. I nearly lost her when she reacted to the medications. I was so thankful to God that I still had her. She's had dental issues much of her life. I constantly fought her dental problems, getting her teeth cleaned regularly. She still had problems. She had a bad knee but never complained. I didn't even realize how bad the arthritis was and how bad her knee really was until we took an xray about a month ago.
Molly had been breathing a little rougher and faster the past month or two. I thought it was a rug in the room, which I replaced. Then I put an air cleaner in the room. She began limping on the bad knee, which now makes sense to me. She was getting weaker. It wasn't just the knee. She had several fainting spells about 1-2 weeks before she left us, which scared her. We comforted her as much as we could. We rushed her to the vet where they did an x-ray of her chest. She had fluid on her lungs and was diagnosed with congestive heart failure a week before she left us. I was in shock. We worked with the meds another week to help her breathe easier and try to help her heart. The Friday before she left, her lungs were clear. The vet was so excited and said everything was fine. But she was still limping and looked weak. He couldn't explain the weakness.
Without dredging up the recent bad memories too much, we rushed her to the emergency room at about 9:30pm that same day, just last Friday. The fluid was already back a little bit, but not as bad. I asked them to do everything possible. When I saw her last, she was on oxygen, up, walking around and looked really good. In the night, her heart stopped twice. They revived her once and thought she was really going to be fine. They told me she was even resting comfortably. They gave her pain meds and were with her constantly. But the 2nd time, it was just too severe. She passed away at around 3am - 3:30am on Saturday November 14, 2009. They tried 10 minutes to revive her and just could not. I had held her a long time the evening before and she seemed comfortable and happy.
I am incredibly heartbroken. I feel like I was so lucky to have her in my life almost 14 years and 9 months. The first day, I really just didn't even know what to do. It's been 2 full days and I am still incredibly sad. I will never get over this. I begged God to not take her from me yet. My dad says that's why I got the last week with her and to be thankful she was comfortable, happy, eating, drinking, and was still the Molly I loved and will remember. I am sad I wasn't there with her when she passed. But I know she was comfortable and well-taken care of. She knew I always tried to do the best I could for her.
I'm sorry this is so long. But it helps to just get it out. I am missing a piece of my life and it's nice to find a place where others understand this sort of bond.
Shawn,
My baby's name was Molly too. She was a 14 year old Jack Russell Terrier. I lost her on the morning of November 10th, 2009. 8 days without her, I definitely feel your pain. Just try to think of the good times you had and always know, she had the good life and luck of having just one owner that cared for her and gave her a warm home, yummy meals and lots of love and care. I have been looking online at the dogs up to adoption in the past couple of days and there are so many that have such horrible stories and not such a good life as our Molly's did.
I hope you find something that eases the pain, at this point it's been 8 days and I still haven't. My life is forever changed. But I am thankful that I was able to bond with her and be her momma for 14 years and try to tell myself the agonizing decision I made to put her down was made with her best interests at heart.
Remember you are not alone.. We all love animals and it's a part of loving an animal, that there comes a day we will have to say good bye.
Be well, and if there is anything I can do.. Let me know.. Attaching a pic of my Molly...
Dawn
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