It has been almost 5 months since my Ceaser died an awful death.
I wish I could say that he went peacfully but he struggled and fought in pain
Until he died in front of me. I had some painfree months where I was visited by him and felt good about where he is now...
But for some reason lately...( ijust moved to NV and am in a new place) I feel a strong longing for Ceaser and miss him very much
I feel very guilty still and wish I could have eased his suffering sooner....I feel so bad for him and It feels like it had just happened.
I do not know why this is all of the sudden...I have his urn and his scrapbook which I have been working on but stopped due to the move maybe that is why,
I also have a big frame with his pictures for his memorial frame....for some reason I am having a very hard time with his death even 5 months after the fact.
I needed to express this...thanks for reading! very very sad!
