Dear Brittany:
It was 1 month ago today that I had to say good-bye. Holding your face while I sent you to the angels was the hardest thing I ever had to do. They say time heals, but I don't think anything will repair the huge hole that in my heart....
Everywhere i go, I turn around to see if your right behind me, but you're not. I open the door & can't wait to see you standing behind it wagging your tail waiting for your morning walk, but you're not there. I wake up in the middle of the night to make sure that your ok.....but you're not there.
Mt life had meaning when you were in it. But now, it's just an ordinary day.......filled with nothing. I feel that I just do the basic things to get by......Nothing has any meaning to it anymore.
Sure I go thru the motions of daily life, but it means nothing to me anymore. You were such an important part of my life, heck, you were my life........Just you & me.

Now you're there with the angels, pain free.......But the hole in my heart will never be filled. When you licked my face on that morning, I knew you were telling me good-bye....And when you were licking my tears, it helped.....
But now all I have are pictures to comfort me. I know that it should ease my mind that you are now pain free, but my heart can't quite grasp that concept yet. I know that you're running around pain free playing with all the other animals.

Just remember how much I loved you. And I would do anything if I could have you back again. Laying beside me or begging for one of your rawhide treats.
You were the BEST!!!!!!
Thank-you for giving me the best 12 1/2 yrs. of your life. You were truly "woman's best friend"

Your forever mom
Felicia

i know exactly how you feel, since it's only been 2 days since miss lucy passed away. it's tough, to say the least. we just love our dogs SO much.

i do know though, that yes, it really does get better. i've also had 3 schnauzers in the past 30 years, and they've all been gone a while now, but i still miss them. the empty hole in my heart has been filled... probably by our dog who just died, but now she has left a void too.

you will be able to remember without all the tears and pain, it just takes alot of time. saying goodbye to our dog is one of THE hardest things in life.

i'm so sorry.

gail

by the way, my son made a beautiful tribute in this area called "RIP Miss Lucy". doing things like that in our dogs memory is very healing.

Dear Gail:
Sorry for the loss of Lucy.....I did love Brittany......She was my partner..We went everywhere..And now it's just me....I know they tell me that time will heal the pain. But the whole in my heart is so big that it's going to take a long time......There'll be times when I just sit & cry.....I have good days & then there are BAD days.
But it's so good to have support from people that understand. I'm so grateful for the people that I've met on this web site. I look forward to reading the posting your son wrote.

thanks again for your kind words of support.
Hugs
Felicia

thanks felicia. awww....here's another ((HUG)) from me.

one month is barely enough time to heal anything. grief takes alot longer than society thinks. everyone has to go at their own pace. i want to impress to you that for as much as you loved your dog, that's the grief you'll feel.

i lost a baby girl 18 years ago in my last week of pregnancy. took me a full year to feel good again... took a good five years to feel thankful for having had her in my life for the short time i did. now... i've found dog loss doesn't take nearly as long, but nevertheless, it's still there.

i was closer to my schnauzer, willie, than to the beagle who just died. willie came one month after i lost the baby, so he filled a huge void. when willie died...dang... i didn't want to even get out of bed in the mornings. it was awful. every night i'd reach out and touch his picture and cry. every day i'd go to his grave (in my yard) and feel such a great sense of loss. that was 3 weeks after the sept. 11th tragedy.

i do know that the pain DOES soften if we get it all out whenever it hits. that is called actively grieving, which is essential to healing. yea, we get tired of crying and tears and feeling so heartbroken, but there's no away around it. i still miss willie, but the pain is gone, thank God. i still miss my baby girl and what "would have been", but that pain is gone too.

my son's memorial tribute - did you manage to see it? it's five threads down from this one. you can see a pic of her, me, my son. it's all in the video he made.

i'd be more than happy to be your friend during this sad time. reminds me... i was a grief facilitator for many years (human loss) and one time i went to a pet loss support group. dang... you'd have thought they had lost a person...everyone's grief was so intense, much more so than the human loss group. i met a lady there who also lost schnauzers and we became friends. turns out we lived near each other and even got our dogs from the same breeder an hour away.

it gets better. little by little... day by day... step by step. sounds like Brittany was lucky to have had such a wonderful "mom".

god bless.