Well, it has been over a month now since my Ceaser passed.
I still have a very very hard time. I know he is in Heaven and I do feel him now and then but I still miss his physical presence on earth.
I did see him in my dream the other day for the first time since he passed and wish I saw him more often.
I am so blessed to have had him for almost a decade but still....I am very sad that he is no longer here in our physical earth form.
I think I am going to work on his scrapbook tomorrow as that always helps.
Going through his pictures and remembering what we did that moment when the pictures were taken, is nice.
Thanks for listening even though I know you don't know who I am and I don't know who you are, except for that you all love animals
and you too have lost a wonderful friend/animal child....and know the feeling of this great loss.

I understand exactly how you feel. I lost my best friend almost 8 months ago and I miss her a lot. We do have a dog and a cat that have really been a blessing to us but I do miss that little gal like crazy.

I heard her little snore one night not long after she was gone and just a few weeks ago I saw her in a dream for the first time.

Some of these angels are just special and though I've had & lost many pets over the years, Flossie was the one that took over my entire life & heart and held on tight. Maybe because she was with us so long and also had many medical challenges over the years. Of course her personality and spirit is what got me in the first place and that is the reason I knew each time she had serious problems that if any dog would make it through the surgeries, she would. I had to decide on three occassions whether surgery or put her to sleep. So that final challenge when she was tired, troubled again with walking and began to have seizures but still giving it all she had was the most difficult decision I've ever made. She would not have given up so I had to do that for her. I knew she was tired but wanted to be with us.

I haven't started a scrapbook but I read about so many doing that so may begin one someday. I do have pictures of her that are somewhat organized but a scrapbook sould be nice too.

I am so sorry about your Ceaser. Time will help but like most of us, I think it is a life altering event when we lose our friend/animal child as you said.

Hugs to both you and Ceaser!

It certainly is life altering, it will be 2 weeks this Wednesday since my Buddy went to sleep, tho I dont hve that raw grief now, it's still so sad & I miss him so much. My children & I will do a scrap book too. I was folding some clean washing inside the other day & I swear I got a whiff of Buddy's doggie smell, it was really strange. I'm now in a place where I don't cry lots & that ache in my heart isn't so painful, but as for the rest of my body well, I've got so many aches & pains & I know it's from the stress of having to make that life altering decision for our dear old doggie.

Thank you for your support. After reading my post, I realized I had lot's of typos and left out a
paragraph! Thanks for getting it anyways!

I believe that Ceaser's incident was truly an accident. It was not his time at all.
I know how strong Ceaser was and is and I know that if I had taken him in sooner he would be alive today.
It was a stupid mistake of mine to give him chinese left over food and then I should have taken him in sooner.
He was healthy and very young at heart!!! He would still be alive today had I not given him the chinese food.

hindsight, sometimes it's a good thing but it can make u harder on ya self than u shld b.
{{{HUGS}}}

Be careful with the "what if's", it's an enormous loss to have a furry friend pass away. Your emotions are raw and you want to feel like the tragedy could somehow be undone. These are some of the things in life we just do not have control over. Give yourself room to grieve and let go of something that you cannot pull back from the past.

Be easy and gentle with yourself at this time, remember the love you shared with pet and know that that continues within you and is ever a part of your life.

Beautiful words JanEeee
elaine