My little boy, Mr X, is traveling home soon. He has been such a wonderful friend for 12 years I am just hating his leaving.

This spring he has some mild seizures, when I took him in to the vet it became clear that he had been experiencing weight loss. With referals and further testing (endoscopy) there was definite evidence of cancer, biopsies confirmed this. He has both lymphoma and adenocarcinoma and it is advanced. How can my little guy be going home so soon? I am heartbroken.

It was just September that I lost my other friend, Molly Malone. These two accompanied me through many of life's ups and downs, many changes and many challenges. It is really awful to have to say good-bye again so soon after Molly's passing.

I would like to upload some photos but the ones I have are too big in file size.

I edited a photo of Mr X, so I'm going to try to add it.Click to view attachment

I am so very sorry about Mr. X. I'm glad that both he and Molly Malone were there for you to help get through some rough times. My Sammie (a 3 1/2 year old Sheltie) died 9 days ago and the grieving is horrible. Without this group of people I could possibly lose my sanity. You will find the most amazing folks on her to help you through this. Mr. X has the most beautiful, sweet eyes. What a gift he is. You will be in my thoughts and prayers that the time you have left will be wonderful and that you will have courage and strength to get through it.
Melanie

i am so sorry about mr. x. what a beautiful little boy he is. your story is similar to mine. i lost my fred about three months ago and riley , 11 months earlier. it is very difficult. they were there for me when i went thru some of lifes bigger challenges. they never left my side. my heart breaks for you! i know what you are going thru. please know that you are not alone. we understand your pain. i know that mr. x will be in such a beautiful new place where my fred and riley will be waiting for him and they will run in endless fields and sleep under the warmth of the sun.

i am praying for you and for everyone who is going thru these difficult times.!
patricia

Hi, JanEeee, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies regarding your beloved companion Mr. X. Anticipatory Grief is as devastating as the grief we go through when we no longer have the physical presence of our beloved companions with us. It was 30 months ago when my 6 year old number one kitty son, Eli, joined the angels due to end stage Lymphoma. When he made it obvious that he could no longer eat and fluid was beginning to build in his abdomen I knew it was time to make our final journey together to the vet to ease his entrance into heaven's perfect garden. How I hated taking him on our final journey, but I knew it was the best for him although my heart was breaking. And then there was the immediate grief journey not just for me but for Eli's adopted kitty siblings and his big doggie brother. The most important thing for you to know is that you are not alone in your journey, JanEeee. Each of us here do understand what you are going through, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us. Please know you and your precious Mr. X are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Mr. X is such a beauty and I know how difficult this time is for you. I faced that last October and still miss my Poodle girl Flossie............

My Mr. Jingles & I send our love and hugs................

I'm quite new here and have not even fully posted on my loss, but I saw your post and wanted to respond. I think anticipatory grief is as painful as grief after death has occurred. It's different but it's still so hurtful.

I am so very sorry that your Kitty is this ill and approaching the end of his life. I will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers. I cannot pretend to know what your sorrow and deeply personal experience of this passing is like, but I can tell you that I've faced the news that my own beloved animal friend was not going to recover, and I've had the experience of taking her home to die. My heart aches for anyone anticipating a similar event. It is wretched.

Thank you for posting the picture of your beautiful Mr. X. I can see his spirit in his eyes. What an absolutely gorgeous guy.

Please know you have my warmest thoughts and regards.

Sincerely,

Robin

So very very very sorry to read this. Having just been through something similar, I know how devastating this is. My heart is still breaking and my tears are still flowing. Hugs to you.

having just gone thru this 7 days ago, i know the pain of this anticipatory grief, it SUX!!!!!!
I am thinking of you & send you {{{HUGS}}}. Thank you so much for posting your pic of Mr X, i love it.
You are very brave to be able to post a pic, I cant bring myself to do it yet. So thank you for sharing he is special and so are you

elaine

Thank you all for the support and warm caring responses, hearing your experiences is a great help to me. This is just not an easy part of life, losing those who are so dear to us. But, somehow, we will make it through, and with the loving friendship and compassion that each of you shares it makes this all a little easier.

Many hugs in return........JClick to view attachment