I have to make the decision, my faithful dog companion of 14yrs Buddy, is not well and isn't happy. As i type this i can hear him munching on his bone, I have made the appt. with the vet for tomorrow afternoon @ 4.45pm. This is all so horrible, I'm the one who has to be brave for our 3 kids who have never lived with out Buddy. I hate this, all i can do is cry when the kids aren't around so that when I tell them after school this arvo I hope to not cry too much...l.I know this is how it is...but it just sux soo much. I am so distraught it's awful, Buddy has loved me uncondtionally and I really dont know what life will be like without him. He went to our farm for the last time this weekend with the family & wouldn't ya know it I was sick (mild concussion of all things) so I didn't go...I'm ok with that, I think it will make tomorrow somehow do-able. this just sooo sux!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont want to be a grown up right now!!!!! (i'm 45yrs) I just want my buddy to be ok, and life to go like it has......I love my faithful companion and I feel so awful having to do this to him....it's just not fair........he doesn't eat much these days, he just vomits most of his food right back, so his last meal will be very boring and small. I just dont know how I'm going to be able to bring myself to get him in the car tomorrow afternoon knowing what I'm gunna do.....it's so awful..............
Ij've written a poem for him to help me and we are going to keep his ashes @ hme with us till we decide where to put them, my eldest daughter said she didn't want to leave his ashes @ our farm cos she would feel like she was leaving him down there alone (it's a 5 hour trip from our house to the property). Buddy just loved the farm, & I wld like to scatter his ashes there, but I know I must be sensitive to how the kids feel, I JUST HATE ALL THIS STUFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's nice to hve a place to vent & know that I am normal with the intensity of my feelings & no one will laugh @ me.
I have cried over much loved guinea pigs & even shed tears for our birds but this is just so HUGE @ times I cant even get my mind round it all. Thank goodness I can cry & howl all I want when the kids r @ school & my husband is @ work.......
I cant see thru my tears to keep typing......thankyou

My heart goes out to you, stay strong as I too will have to do. {{{{hugs}}}} It does suk now being a grownup soooooo..............

I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again.

I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant.

I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks.

I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them.

I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day.

I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care.

All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset.

I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good.

I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things again.

I want to live simple again. I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones.

I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow.

So . . . here's my checkbook and my car-keys, my credit card bills and my 401K statements. I am officially resigning from adulthood.

And if you want to discuss this further, you'll have to catch me first, cause........

......"Tag! You're it."

"See ya later alligator"

When I read this it gave me a smile hope it gives you one too, will keep you in my prayers.

[quote name='Gemini's Mom' date='Jun 9 2009, 01:54 PM' post='50904']
I love the resignation form, think i'll print one off & sign it.
I just sat with the 3 kids & buddy. I just picked em up from school & told em bout tomorrow, so we all sat outside & cried & hugged buddy.
this just doesn't get easier, this is going to be a long nite & a long day tomorrow.....

PLEASE PARDON ALL CAP LETTERS. I'M TYPING WITH ONE HAND AND IT'S EASIER FOR ME. THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING ...

DEAR PETMUM, I'M TERRIBLY SORRY THIS IS HAPPENING. MY DOG'S NAME IS BUDDY, TOO. HE'S VERY SPECIAL TO ME AND IS GETTING UP THERE IN AGE. I SURE DO DREAD THE DAY I FIND MYSELF IN YOUR POSITION. LIFE WILL BE GREATLY ALTERED FOR ME WHEN MY BUDDY DOG'S TIME COMES. I CAN HEAR AND FEEL YOUR GOSH AWFUL PAIN. AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT IT IS. TREMENDOUSLY PAINFUL.
HOW I WISH I COULD WAVE A MAGIC WAND AND TAKE AWAY YOUR PAIN. TRULY, I DO.

AS FOR ME, I WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT EXPLAINING TO MY CHILDREN WHAT HAPPENED WHEN THAT DAY COMES BECAUSE I WAS NEVER BLESSED WITH CHILDREN AND I LOVE KIDS SO MUCH. HERE ARE THREE WEBSITES WHICH I HOPE AND PRAY WILL HELP YOU WHEN YOU DO TALK WITH YOUR CHILDREN ABOUT WHERE YOUR BUDDY DOG HAS GONE ...

Children and Pet Loss
http://www.aplb.org/services/children.html

Explaining Pet Loss to Children: Six Do's and Don'ts
http://www.petplace.com/dogs/explaining-pe...n-ts/page1.aspx
REMEMBER TO CLICK ON PAGE TWO AT THE BOTTOM

Helping Children Deal with the Loss of a Pet
http://vetmedicine.about.com/od/lossandgri...LossAndKids.htm
REMEMBER TO CLICK ON PAGE TWO AT THE BOTTOM

PLEASE KNOW THAT YOU, YOUR FAMILY AND BUDDY ARE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS AS I WING MANY LOVING ANGELS TO YOU FOR GENTLE GUIDANCE AT THIS MOST DIFFICULT TIME.



MANY COMFORTING HUGS!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

dear buddys mum, my heart goes out to you. im so sorry you have to go thru this. ive been thru it a number of times and it never gets any easier. it is truly one of the hardest things ive ever had to do in my lifetime. buddy is one lucky little boy to have such a wonderful family for 14 years. please know that he will go to a wonderful place where pain and discomfort do not exist and where he will meet all of our wonderful babies that have crossed. with regards to the ashes, perhaps you can scatter some in the farm and keep the rest. i know that it makes me feel better to know that my babies are with me. but whatever you decide, please know that you are not alone. keep on writing as that is something that helped me so much thru the most difficult times. we will be here for you.

you are in my prayers

patricia

thank you both so much for your understanding it really does help doesn't it, some how.
the kids went to school today, i've told the teacher.
we hve all cried so much, i've shared everything so far with the kids & answered their questions about how it will happen, which sort of helps them, but it's so hard to comfort them when I'm feeling just like them.......i feel quite sick to my stomach & i'm really scared bout having to go thru this..... sometimes I just block it all out & try & not think about it...I'm trying not to count the hours.....it's awful.....just thinking bout how my daughter got up @ 5am and went and slept in the laundry with Buddy...just cracks me up.......seeing my kids so distraught is just awful....it SUX!!!!!!!!!
It is so cold & windy I've got Buddy sleeping in the laundry here, so @ least his final hours might be warm......I am just so so so cold & i've got the heater on........
thank you for your prayers they really do help even tho @ the moment I'm not feeling much!!!! just shaking like crazy....from it all......