A few months ago I lost my Bun-Bun, and I went threw all the grief and the turmoil of loosing my pet but I learned to deal with the pain and the guilt of having to see her slip away from my life.
I don't know how to explain to anyone , even my family that I still grieve deeply everyday for my Bun-Bun. If I bring it up , I'm given looks like I'm "hanging on" to much, if I seem down someone will say"get over it" . This is ridiculous that a grown man has been effected so deeply by the lost of a pet.
I had many, many pets and have put down many of them, but this one was different. (I guess) I was just not ready, I have, since that day second guessed my decision to "let her go". It should have waited a bit. I just wasn't ready to see her go, there was another way, I think.. It's one of those choices you second guess for ever. I guess..
I have called the vet several times and was told it was the right thing to do, but I was not ready to "make that decision for her" , she trusted me in every way, I cant help think I let her trust down. SOB, I cant get over making that decision. I'm sorry Bun-Bun.
I have learned my talking to people who had similar experiences that this feeling most likely wont go away, it's always going to be one of those things that make us look older then we should.
I try and convince myself that I did the right thing, but for what ever reason I will always think I could have went down another path and things would have been different. It was a mistake !
I cant either un-do it or re-do it. I have to live with it..
I had some greatly appreciated help from many of my friends here at Lightning Strike and I would like to thank all of you very much,You know who you are.
If any one every asked me about "putting down" a pet, I would tell them to think, re-think and re-think the decision. It is the right thing to do for a animal in pain, but just think about it for a day.. then do the right thing...Your doing justice for both of you !
Full Version: I Lost My Friend, Now She's Alone.
Sorry for your loss and for your suffering. I too had to make the decision to put down my Hunny. It was an awful one and one that I hope I never have to do again. The months leading up to that final day were agonizing, because we knew that we would have to make that painful decision soon. But Hunny had cancer and there was nothing more we could do for her. I've seen a dog suffer and I did not want her to go through that. She was on painkillers for the last month and that masked her pain. I have no regrets about Hunny's life. She had a good one as I'm sure your baby did too. We were fortunate in one respect that we got another seven months with her. She was diagnosed last summer and ended up losing two toes to this dreadful disease, which at the time was a non-spreading cancer. Well, it came back just after Christmas, this time it had spread.
If you know in your heart that your baby had a good life with you and that you both knew you loved each other, making that decision was not a wrong one. Yes, a very difficult one, but at least you got to say goodbye. I know this doesn't help, but having the chance to let them know just how much you really love them is a big deal. We lost Lily last summer, just a week or so before we found out Hunny had cancer. She died suddenly and unexpectedly. That was the most awful thing, she died right before our eyes and there was nothing we could do to help her. I watched the life fade from her eyes, and that is something I will never forget as long as I live. But although I'm sure she knew how much we loved her and we knew that she loved us - it was really difficult. Losing Hunny was terribly hard too, but we had the chance to tell her everyday and every night how much we loved her. And I agonized over whether the time was right or not. I wondered if we could have held on another week or so. But it was time, lumps were popping up all over her body. And I just couldn't bear to see her suffer, because I knew the painkillers would eventually stop working. I miss her every day.
Please don't beat yourself up about having to make that decision. I know it's hard, I know it's painful. And I know we'll spend the rest of our lives wondering if it was the right thing to do or the coward's way out, but how could you let an animal suffer? How many people beg to be "put down" when they are in their final days of cancer and other diseases? I've seen that too, and to save an animal from that kind of pain has just got to be the best way. I am an animal lover all the way. I cringe at people who abuse or discard animals. It makes me sick. But Hunny had a good life, your baby did too. Just picture her running and playing in the meadows at Rainbow Bridge. I find a lot of peace in believing that Hunny is now with her sister Lily. I miss them both so very much and I will always love them, but they are together again. Maybe your baby has company up there too? If not, she's made lots of friends already. I'm not a religious person, but I choose to believe that there is something after this life and I hope with all of my being that we will all be reunited again.
Don't worry about what other people think. This pain is real. And for me, I can honestly say that I think more of my pets than I do of some people. Infact, I feel sorry for people who have never known the love of a pet. They are missing out on a great deal.
Have you considered another pet? I know it's hard to think that you could love again, but it really does help. I have three other dogs now. Hunny was fortunate enough to meet them and she loved them. But I've been so distracted with them, that time is just flying by. We lost Hunny April 4th. I will never forget her nor do I want to, but I cried so many tears when she was alive. I wish I could turn back time and maybe, somehow, we could have changed the course of things and she would never have gotten sick. But I can't and life does go on.
This is a great website, the people were here for me when I had to make that agonizing decision just a few weeks ago. And I am truly grateful to these people.
You will always wonder if you did the right thing. It is done and at the time you must have felt it was the right decision. If the vet agrees, then it was, they know best.
Please don't beat yourself up any more. Losing a loved one is hard enough without the what-if's. Remember the good times. We printed out all the photos of Hunny and Lily that we could find. I made up a little card and mailed out announcing Hunny's passing - I sent it to the vets that she had seen in the past year. It helped a lot.
Once again, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm not so good at this kind of stuff, but I hope I can help even just a little. I know it helps me because I still need to write about my babies.
Take care.
Lynette.
If you know in your heart that your baby had a good life with you and that you both knew you loved each other, making that decision was not a wrong one. Yes, a very difficult one, but at least you got to say goodbye. I know this doesn't help, but having the chance to let them know just how much you really love them is a big deal. We lost Lily last summer, just a week or so before we found out Hunny had cancer. She died suddenly and unexpectedly. That was the most awful thing, she died right before our eyes and there was nothing we could do to help her. I watched the life fade from her eyes, and that is something I will never forget as long as I live. But although I'm sure she knew how much we loved her and we knew that she loved us - it was really difficult. Losing Hunny was terribly hard too, but we had the chance to tell her everyday and every night how much we loved her. And I agonized over whether the time was right or not. I wondered if we could have held on another week or so. But it was time, lumps were popping up all over her body. And I just couldn't bear to see her suffer, because I knew the painkillers would eventually stop working. I miss her every day.
Please don't beat yourself up about having to make that decision. I know it's hard, I know it's painful. And I know we'll spend the rest of our lives wondering if it was the right thing to do or the coward's way out, but how could you let an animal suffer? How many people beg to be "put down" when they are in their final days of cancer and other diseases? I've seen that too, and to save an animal from that kind of pain has just got to be the best way. I am an animal lover all the way. I cringe at people who abuse or discard animals. It makes me sick. But Hunny had a good life, your baby did too. Just picture her running and playing in the meadows at Rainbow Bridge. I find a lot of peace in believing that Hunny is now with her sister Lily. I miss them both so very much and I will always love them, but they are together again. Maybe your baby has company up there too? If not, she's made lots of friends already. I'm not a religious person, but I choose to believe that there is something after this life and I hope with all of my being that we will all be reunited again.
Don't worry about what other people think. This pain is real. And for me, I can honestly say that I think more of my pets than I do of some people. Infact, I feel sorry for people who have never known the love of a pet. They are missing out on a great deal.
Have you considered another pet? I know it's hard to think that you could love again, but it really does help. I have three other dogs now. Hunny was fortunate enough to meet them and she loved them. But I've been so distracted with them, that time is just flying by. We lost Hunny April 4th. I will never forget her nor do I want to, but I cried so many tears when she was alive. I wish I could turn back time and maybe, somehow, we could have changed the course of things and she would never have gotten sick. But I can't and life does go on.
This is a great website, the people were here for me when I had to make that agonizing decision just a few weeks ago. And I am truly grateful to these people.
You will always wonder if you did the right thing. It is done and at the time you must have felt it was the right decision. If the vet agrees, then it was, they know best.
Please don't beat yourself up any more. Losing a loved one is hard enough without the what-if's. Remember the good times. We printed out all the photos of Hunny and Lily that we could find. I made up a little card and mailed out announcing Hunny's passing - I sent it to the vets that she had seen in the past year. It helped a lot.
Once again, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm not so good at this kind of stuff, but I hope I can help even just a little. I know it helps me because I still need to write about my babies.
Take care.
Lynette.
Dear George,
I know how you feel. On Friday January 23, 2009 I found out my best friend in the whole world had Cancer and diabetes. By Sunday I was putting her to sleep. On Friday the vet suggested I put Mouses to sleep. Her temp was 10 degrees to low, she stopped eating and drinking, was dehydrated, and she was starting to have labored breathing. I just couldn't put her to sleep yet. I thought her leg was hurt...how could I put her too sleep...nothing made sense. I left her at the vets so they could stabilize her and get her in to surgery. I didn't want to lose her. Mouses makes it through the night, but isn't stable enough for surgery. I have to pick her up to take her to an ER vets for the weekend. The vet on duty explains Mouses labs and X-rays to me more thoroughly. Mouses is in "active dying." She wants me to let her go, still I just can't. I take her home to think about all of this. Mouses is hiding, not responding to my affection, staring of into the distance, restless (pain), falling, and can't breathe. I spend one last night with her. It is an awful night. I watched Mouses not be able to breathe for 20 hours longer than she should of had to experience. Sunday I make the call, and she is put to sleep on her bed.
My point is...I didn't put Mouses to sleep right away. I could have put her to sleep on Friday and on Saturday. I finally did it on Sunday. I sit here still feeling like I did it to soon. "If only, if only, if only." If only I left her at the ER they could have helped her breathe, stabilized her diabetes...I don't know (I'll never know). I keep wishing instead of putting her to sleep on Sunday I brought her back to the ER. Mouses was dying. I couldn't accept it. She has been gone 3 months, and I still can't accept it. I spend everyday in my brain trying to figure out ways to save her. I can't bring her back. I can't change her ending and it SUCKS!!! I got to wait another day like you keep wishing you did, but your forgetting what you would have seen. I have video and horrible images in my brain of my best friend not being able to breathe, and she was in pain(awful meowing). Mouses spent Friday night away from us. I keep picturing her alone in the hospital. I know it is hard, but try and be happy you don't have to picture Bun-Bun all alone at the vets (possibly dying in the night alone). I just didn't want her to go. You didn't want Bun-Bun to go...but she was. Mouses trusted me too, now I feel like I failed her in the other direction.
What I do to ease the pain...everyday I remind myself that I loved Mouses more than anything in the world. I would NEVER, NEVER do anything to intentionally hurt her or cause her misery. I would spend any amount of money to save her. Now that it's over 3 days seems too fast, but don't forget...when we are in our most feared moment EVERY minute feels like a year. You DIDN'T make a quick decision. You spent every agonizing second making that decision. Right? You love Bun-Bun. You would never do ANYTHING to hurt her, or lose her 1 minute sooner. You HAVE to keep reminding yourself of that. Bun-Bun knows that. Mouses knows that. They know we let them go because we loved them.
I am so sorry for your loss. I know what some of your pain is about too. I think it all boils down to not expecting them to go like this. It's like they've been hit by a car. We keep them at home...we expect them to turn up ill. We expect them to get old and raggedy while we take care of them (giving us a sense of peace and closure). We hope for them to die in their sleep at an old age so we don't have to make the decision to end our favorite piece of life. The one thing I've learned from this forum is that cats hide illness very well, and when they go it is very fast.
Our cats had wonderful lives. Their 12 and 17 years of life shouldn't just be turned into a bad ending. I've been trying so hard to not focus on her week long ending. It is just a transition. We will see them again. We will hug, pet, and kiss them again. Believe that with all of your heart. Each and every day we are one day closer to seeing them again.
Take care George. If you get a moment, I'd like to hear more about Bun-Bun's life. We are all here for you. Mouses Mom (forever trying to change every sad/negative thought into a happy memory).
I know how you feel. On Friday January 23, 2009 I found out my best friend in the whole world had Cancer and diabetes. By Sunday I was putting her to sleep. On Friday the vet suggested I put Mouses to sleep. Her temp was 10 degrees to low, she stopped eating and drinking, was dehydrated, and she was starting to have labored breathing. I just couldn't put her to sleep yet. I thought her leg was hurt...how could I put her too sleep...nothing made sense. I left her at the vets so they could stabilize her and get her in to surgery. I didn't want to lose her. Mouses makes it through the night, but isn't stable enough for surgery. I have to pick her up to take her to an ER vets for the weekend. The vet on duty explains Mouses labs and X-rays to me more thoroughly. Mouses is in "active dying." She wants me to let her go, still I just can't. I take her home to think about all of this. Mouses is hiding, not responding to my affection, staring of into the distance, restless (pain), falling, and can't breathe. I spend one last night with her. It is an awful night. I watched Mouses not be able to breathe for 20 hours longer than she should of had to experience. Sunday I make the call, and she is put to sleep on her bed.
My point is...I didn't put Mouses to sleep right away. I could have put her to sleep on Friday and on Saturday. I finally did it on Sunday. I sit here still feeling like I did it to soon. "If only, if only, if only." If only I left her at the ER they could have helped her breathe, stabilized her diabetes...I don't know (I'll never know). I keep wishing instead of putting her to sleep on Sunday I brought her back to the ER. Mouses was dying. I couldn't accept it. She has been gone 3 months, and I still can't accept it. I spend everyday in my brain trying to figure out ways to save her. I can't bring her back. I can't change her ending and it SUCKS!!! I got to wait another day like you keep wishing you did, but your forgetting what you would have seen. I have video and horrible images in my brain of my best friend not being able to breathe, and she was in pain(awful meowing). Mouses spent Friday night away from us. I keep picturing her alone in the hospital. I know it is hard, but try and be happy you don't have to picture Bun-Bun all alone at the vets (possibly dying in the night alone). I just didn't want her to go. You didn't want Bun-Bun to go...but she was. Mouses trusted me too, now I feel like I failed her in the other direction.
What I do to ease the pain...everyday I remind myself that I loved Mouses more than anything in the world. I would NEVER, NEVER do anything to intentionally hurt her or cause her misery. I would spend any amount of money to save her. Now that it's over 3 days seems too fast, but don't forget...when we are in our most feared moment EVERY minute feels like a year. You DIDN'T make a quick decision. You spent every agonizing second making that decision. Right? You love Bun-Bun. You would never do ANYTHING to hurt her, or lose her 1 minute sooner. You HAVE to keep reminding yourself of that. Bun-Bun knows that. Mouses knows that. They know we let them go because we loved them.
I am so sorry for your loss. I know what some of your pain is about too. I think it all boils down to not expecting them to go like this. It's like they've been hit by a car. We keep them at home...we expect them to turn up ill. We expect them to get old and raggedy while we take care of them (giving us a sense of peace and closure). We hope for them to die in their sleep at an old age so we don't have to make the decision to end our favorite piece of life. The one thing I've learned from this forum is that cats hide illness very well, and when they go it is very fast.
Our cats had wonderful lives. Their 12 and 17 years of life shouldn't just be turned into a bad ending. I've been trying so hard to not focus on her week long ending. It is just a transition. We will see them again. We will hug, pet, and kiss them again. Believe that with all of your heart. Each and every day we are one day closer to seeing them again.
Take care George. If you get a moment, I'd like to hear more about Bun-Bun's life. We are all here for you. Mouses Mom (forever trying to change every sad/negative thought into a happy memory).
I'm sorry for your loss.i feel the same way when you say it's hard for others to understand the grief of a lost pet. you arent hanging on too much. everyone has their own pace in grief. dont let someone try and rush you. you arent rediculous. you did the best for your bun bun by letting her move on. im sure bun bun knows your decision was from the heart and it was to relieve her of pain. it was a selfless act of kindness you did for bun bun and she must love you for it. ive had to make that hard decision as well for my kitty acorn in the summer. you might have regretted it if you didnt put bun bun down and she suffered. there really is no winning in a sad situation as the passing of a loved pet. my heart goes out to you and your angel bun bun
-corina and her angels
QUOTE (george @ Apr 27 2009, 09:24 PM) 
A few months ago I lost my Bun-Bun, and I went threw all the grief and the turmoil of loosing my pet but I learned to deal with the pain and the guilt of having to see her slip away from my life.
I don't know how to explain to anyone , even my family that I still grieve deeply everyday for my Bun-Bun. If I bring it up , I'm given looks like I'm "hanging on" to much, if I seem down someone will say"get over it" . This is ridiculous that a grown man has been effected so deeply by the lost of a pet.
I had many, many pets and have put down many of them, but this one was different. (I guess) I was just not ready, I have, since that day second guessed my decision to "let her go". It should have waited a bit. I just wasn't ready to see her go, there was another way, I think.. It's one of those choices you second guess for ever. I guess..
I have called the vet several times and was told it was the right thing to do, but I was not ready to "make that decision for her" , she trusted me in every way, I cant help think I let her trust down. SOB, I cant get over making that decision. I'm sorry Bun-Bun.
I have learned my talking to people who had similar experiences that this feeling most likely wont go away, it's always going to be one of those things that make us look older then we should.
I try and convince myself that I did the right thing, but for what ever reason I will always think I could have went down another path and things would have been different. It was a mistake !
I cant either un-do it or re-do it. I have to live with it..
I had some greatly appreciated help from many of my friends here at Lightning Strike and I would like to thank all of you very much,You know who you are.
If any one every asked me about "putting down" a pet, I would tell them to think, re-think and re-think the decision. It is the right thing to do for a animal in pain, but just think about it for a day.. then do the right thing...Your doing justice for both of you !
I don't know how to explain to anyone , even my family that I still grieve deeply everyday for my Bun-Bun. If I bring it up , I'm given looks like I'm "hanging on" to much, if I seem down someone will say"get over it" . This is ridiculous that a grown man has been effected so deeply by the lost of a pet.
I had many, many pets and have put down many of them, but this one was different. (I guess) I was just not ready, I have, since that day second guessed my decision to "let her go". It should have waited a bit. I just wasn't ready to see her go, there was another way, I think.. It's one of those choices you second guess for ever. I guess..
I have called the vet several times and was told it was the right thing to do, but I was not ready to "make that decision for her" , she trusted me in every way, I cant help think I let her trust down. SOB, I cant get over making that decision. I'm sorry Bun-Bun.
I have learned my talking to people who had similar experiences that this feeling most likely wont go away, it's always going to be one of those things that make us look older then we should.
I try and convince myself that I did the right thing, but for what ever reason I will always think I could have went down another path and things would have been different. It was a mistake !
I cant either un-do it or re-do it. I have to live with it..
I had some greatly appreciated help from many of my friends here at Lightning Strike and I would like to thank all of you very much,You know who you are.
If any one every asked me about "putting down" a pet, I would tell them to think, re-think and re-think the decision. It is the right thing to do for a animal in pain, but just think about it for a day.. then do the right thing...Your doing justice for both of you !
QUOTE (lynette @ Apr 28 2009, 01:40 PM)
Sorry for your loss and for your suffering. I too had to make the decision to put down my Hunny. It was an awful one and one that I hope I never have to do again. The months leading up to that final day were agonizing, because we knew that we would have to make that painful decision soon. But Hunny had cancer and there was nothing more we could do for her. I've seen a dog suffer and I did not want her to go through that. She was on painkillers for the last month and that masked her pain. I have no regrets about Hunny's life. She had a good one as I'm sure your baby did too. We were fortunate in one respect that we got another seven months with her. She was diagnosed last summer and ended up losing two toes to this dreadful disease, which at the time was a non-spreading cancer. Well, it came back just after Christmas, this time it had spread.
If you know in your heart that your baby had a good life with you and that you both knew you loved each other, making that decision was not a wrong one. Yes, a very difficult one, but at least you got to say goodbye. I know this doesn't help, but having the chance to let them know just how much you really love them is a big deal. We lost Lily last summer, just a week or so before we found out Hunny had cancer. She died suddenly and unexpectedly. That was the most awful thing, she died right before our eyes and there was nothing we could do to help her. I watched the life fade from her eyes, and that is something I will never forget as long as I live. But although I'm sure she knew how much we loved her and we knew that she loved us - it was really difficult. Losing Hunny was terribly hard too, but we had the chance to tell her everyday and every night how much we loved her. And I agonized over whether the time was right or not. I wondered if we could have held on another week or so. But it was time, lumps were popping up all over her body. And I just couldn't bear to see her suffer, because I knew the painkillers would eventually stop working. I miss her every day.
Please don't beat yourself up about having to make that decision. I know it's hard, I know it's painful. And I know we'll spend the rest of our lives wondering if it was the right thing to do or the coward's way out, but how could you let an animal suffer? How many people beg to be "put down" when they are in their final days of cancer and other diseases? I've seen that too, and to save an animal from that kind of pain has just got to be the best way. I am an animal lover all the way. I cringe at people who abuse or discard animals. It makes me sick. But Hunny had a good life, your baby did too. Just picture her running and playing in the meadows at Rainbow Bridge. I find a lot of peace in believing that Hunny is now with her sister Lily. I miss them both so very much and I will always love them, but they are together again. Maybe your baby has company up there too? If not, she's made lots of friends already. I'm not a religious person, but I choose to believe that there is something after this life and I hope with all of my being that we will all be reunited again.
Don't worry about what other people think. This pain is real. And for me, I can honestly say that I think more of my pets than I do of some people. Infact, I feel sorry for people who have never known the love of a pet. They are missing out on a great deal.
Have you considered another pet? I know it's hard to think that you could love again, but it really does help. I have three other dogs now. Hunny was fortunate enough to meet them and she loved them. But I've been so distracted with them, that time is just flying by. We lost Hunny April 4th. I will never forget her nor do I want to, but I cried so many tears when she was alive. I wish I could turn back time and maybe, somehow, we could have changed the course of things and she would never have gotten sick. But I can't and life does go on.
This is a great website, the people were here for me when I had to make that agonizing decision just a few weeks ago. And I am truly grateful to these people.
You will always wonder if you did the right thing. It is done and at the time you must have felt it was the right decision. If the vet agrees, then it was, they know best.
Please don't beat yourself up any more. Losing a loved one is hard enough without the what-if's. Remember the good times. We printed out all the photos of Hunny and Lily that we could find. I made up a little card and mailed out announcing Hunny's passing - I sent it to the vets that she had seen in the past year. It helped a lot.
Once again, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm not so good at this kind of stuff, but I hope I can help even just a little. I know it helps me because I still need to write about my babies.
Take care.
Lynette.
If you know in your heart that your baby had a good life with you and that you both knew you loved each other, making that decision was not a wrong one. Yes, a very difficult one, but at least you got to say goodbye. I know this doesn't help, but having the chance to let them know just how much you really love them is a big deal. We lost Lily last summer, just a week or so before we found out Hunny had cancer. She died suddenly and unexpectedly. That was the most awful thing, she died right before our eyes and there was nothing we could do to help her. I watched the life fade from her eyes, and that is something I will never forget as long as I live. But although I'm sure she knew how much we loved her and we knew that she loved us - it was really difficult. Losing Hunny was terribly hard too, but we had the chance to tell her everyday and every night how much we loved her. And I agonized over whether the time was right or not. I wondered if we could have held on another week or so. But it was time, lumps were popping up all over her body. And I just couldn't bear to see her suffer, because I knew the painkillers would eventually stop working. I miss her every day.
Please don't beat yourself up about having to make that decision. I know it's hard, I know it's painful. And I know we'll spend the rest of our lives wondering if it was the right thing to do or the coward's way out, but how could you let an animal suffer? How many people beg to be "put down" when they are in their final days of cancer and other diseases? I've seen that too, and to save an animal from that kind of pain has just got to be the best way. I am an animal lover all the way. I cringe at people who abuse or discard animals. It makes me sick. But Hunny had a good life, your baby did too. Just picture her running and playing in the meadows at Rainbow Bridge. I find a lot of peace in believing that Hunny is now with her sister Lily. I miss them both so very much and I will always love them, but they are together again. Maybe your baby has company up there too? If not, she's made lots of friends already. I'm not a religious person, but I choose to believe that there is something after this life and I hope with all of my being that we will all be reunited again.
Don't worry about what other people think. This pain is real. And for me, I can honestly say that I think more of my pets than I do of some people. Infact, I feel sorry for people who have never known the love of a pet. They are missing out on a great deal.
Have you considered another pet? I know it's hard to think that you could love again, but it really does help. I have three other dogs now. Hunny was fortunate enough to meet them and she loved them. But I've been so distracted with them, that time is just flying by. We lost Hunny April 4th. I will never forget her nor do I want to, but I cried so many tears when she was alive. I wish I could turn back time and maybe, somehow, we could have changed the course of things and she would never have gotten sick. But I can't and life does go on.
This is a great website, the people were here for me when I had to make that agonizing decision just a few weeks ago. And I am truly grateful to these people.
You will always wonder if you did the right thing. It is done and at the time you must have felt it was the right decision. If the vet agrees, then it was, they know best.
Please don't beat yourself up any more. Losing a loved one is hard enough without the what-if's. Remember the good times. We printed out all the photos of Hunny and Lily that we could find. I made up a little card and mailed out announcing Hunny's passing - I sent it to the vets that she had seen in the past year. It helped a lot.
Once again, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm not so good at this kind of stuff, but I hope I can help even just a little. I know it helps me because I still need to write about my babies.
Take care.
Lynette.
Thank you Lynette
I am sorry for your lost, I hope you find peace as well. You and I know who it feels to go threw something like this. I cant help and feel helpless like she did that day. I cant shake the feeling of regret this has given me. I feel I let her down when she needed me to do the right thing. The vet has told me over and over it was the right thing to do but I was not totally sure it was the necessarily the only way to go. She was 14 and I never seen her suffer once, if would be different if I witnessed her suffering for a wile but I never did. I seen her breathing heavy and took her to the vet and she was gone. I have mixed emotions about that day. I'm no kid, I never had this turmoil in any decision I have ever made.I guess it will make it's way to the back of my brain someday but it will always be one of my most regrettable things I did in my life. Thanks for the understanding, as you have lost your love one as well. I am in the dept of some many people who know how it feels to loose a love one with a little face and four paws.. Peace be with you. George
QUOTE (I miss mouses @ Apr 28 2009, 05:33 PM)
Dear George,
I know how you feel. On Friday January 23, 2009 I found out my best friend in the whole world had Cancer and diabetes. By Sunday I was putting her to sleep. On Friday the vet suggested I put Mouses to sleep. Her temp was 10 degrees to low, she stopped eating and drinking, was dehydrated, and she was starting to have labored breathing. I just couldn't put her to sleep yet. I thought her leg was hurt...how could I put her too sleep...nothing made sense. I left her at the vets so they could stabilize her and get her in to surgery. I didn't want to lose her. Mouses makes it through the night, but isn't stable enough for surgery. I have to pick her up to take her to an ER vets for the weekend. The vet on duty explains Mouses labs and X-rays to me more thoroughly. Mouses is in "active dying." She wants me to let her go, still I just can't. I take her home to think about all of this. Mouses is hiding, not responding to my affection, staring of into the distance, restless (pain), falling, and can't breathe. I spend one last night with her. It is an awful night. I watched Mouses not be able to breathe for 20 hours longer than she should of had to experience. Sunday I make the call, and she is put to sleep on her bed.
My point is...I didn't put Mouses to sleep right away. I could have put her to sleep on Friday and on Saturday. I finally did it on Sunday. I sit here still feeling like I did it to soon. "If only, if only, if only." If only I left her at the ER they could have helped her breathe, stabilized her diabetes...I don't know (I'll never know). I keep wishing instead of putting her to sleep on Sunday I brought her back to the ER. Mouses was dying. I couldn't accept it. She has been gone 3 months, and I still can't accept it. I spend everyday in my brain trying to figure out ways to save her. I can't bring her back. I can't change her ending and it SUCKS!!! I got to wait another day like you keep wishing you did, but your forgetting what you would have seen. I have video and horrible images in my brain of my best friend not being able to breathe, and she was in pain(awful meowing). Mouses spent Friday night away from us. I keep picturing her alone in the hospital. I know it is hard, but try and be happy you don't have to picture Bun-Bun all alone at the vets (possibly dying in the night alone). I just didn't want her to go. You didn't want Bun-Bun to go...but she was. Mouses trusted me too, now I feel like I failed her in the other direction.
What I do to ease the pain...everyday I remind myself that I loved Mouses more than anything in the world. I would NEVER, NEVER do anything to intentionally hurt her or cause her misery. I would spend any amount of money to save her. Now that it's over 3 days seems too fast, but don't forget...when we are in our most feared moment EVERY minute feels like a year. You DIDN'T make a quick decision. You spent every agonizing second making that decision. Right? You love Bun-Bun. You would never do ANYTHING to hurt her, or lose her 1 minute sooner. You HAVE to keep reminding yourself of that. Bun-Bun knows that. Mouses knows that. They know we let them go because we loved them.
I am so sorry for your loss. I know what some of your pain is about too. I think it all boils down to not expecting them to go like this. It's like they've been hit by a car. We keep them at home...we expect them to turn up ill. We expect them to get old and raggedy while we take care of them (giving us a sense of peace and closure). We hope for them to die in their sleep at an old age so we don't have to make the decision to end our favorite piece of life. The one thing I've learned from this forum is that cats hide illness very well, and when they go it is very fast.
Our cats had wonderful lives. Their 12 and 17 years of life shouldn't just be turned into a bad ending. I've been trying so hard to not focus on her week long ending. It is just a transition. We will see them again. We will hug, pet, and kiss them again. Believe that with all of your heart. Each and every day we are one day closer to seeing them again.
Take care George. If you get a moment, I'd like to hear more about Bun-Bun's life. We are all here for you. Mouses Mom (forever trying to change every sad/negative thought into a happy memory).
I know how you feel. On Friday January 23, 2009 I found out my best friend in the whole world had Cancer and diabetes. By Sunday I was putting her to sleep. On Friday the vet suggested I put Mouses to sleep. Her temp was 10 degrees to low, she stopped eating and drinking, was dehydrated, and she was starting to have labored breathing. I just couldn't put her to sleep yet. I thought her leg was hurt...how could I put her too sleep...nothing made sense. I left her at the vets so they could stabilize her and get her in to surgery. I didn't want to lose her. Mouses makes it through the night, but isn't stable enough for surgery. I have to pick her up to take her to an ER vets for the weekend. The vet on duty explains Mouses labs and X-rays to me more thoroughly. Mouses is in "active dying." She wants me to let her go, still I just can't. I take her home to think about all of this. Mouses is hiding, not responding to my affection, staring of into the distance, restless (pain), falling, and can't breathe. I spend one last night with her. It is an awful night. I watched Mouses not be able to breathe for 20 hours longer than she should of had to experience. Sunday I make the call, and she is put to sleep on her bed.
My point is...I didn't put Mouses to sleep right away. I could have put her to sleep on Friday and on Saturday. I finally did it on Sunday. I sit here still feeling like I did it to soon. "If only, if only, if only." If only I left her at the ER they could have helped her breathe, stabilized her diabetes...I don't know (I'll never know). I keep wishing instead of putting her to sleep on Sunday I brought her back to the ER. Mouses was dying. I couldn't accept it. She has been gone 3 months, and I still can't accept it. I spend everyday in my brain trying to figure out ways to save her. I can't bring her back. I can't change her ending and it SUCKS!!! I got to wait another day like you keep wishing you did, but your forgetting what you would have seen. I have video and horrible images in my brain of my best friend not being able to breathe, and she was in pain(awful meowing). Mouses spent Friday night away from us. I keep picturing her alone in the hospital. I know it is hard, but try and be happy you don't have to picture Bun-Bun all alone at the vets (possibly dying in the night alone). I just didn't want her to go. You didn't want Bun-Bun to go...but she was. Mouses trusted me too, now I feel like I failed her in the other direction.
What I do to ease the pain...everyday I remind myself that I loved Mouses more than anything in the world. I would NEVER, NEVER do anything to intentionally hurt her or cause her misery. I would spend any amount of money to save her. Now that it's over 3 days seems too fast, but don't forget...when we are in our most feared moment EVERY minute feels like a year. You DIDN'T make a quick decision. You spent every agonizing second making that decision. Right? You love Bun-Bun. You would never do ANYTHING to hurt her, or lose her 1 minute sooner. You HAVE to keep reminding yourself of that. Bun-Bun knows that. Mouses knows that. They know we let them go because we loved them.
I am so sorry for your loss. I know what some of your pain is about too. I think it all boils down to not expecting them to go like this. It's like they've been hit by a car. We keep them at home...we expect them to turn up ill. We expect them to get old and raggedy while we take care of them (giving us a sense of peace and closure). We hope for them to die in their sleep at an old age so we don't have to make the decision to end our favorite piece of life. The one thing I've learned from this forum is that cats hide illness very well, and when they go it is very fast.
Our cats had wonderful lives. Their 12 and 17 years of life shouldn't just be turned into a bad ending. I've been trying so hard to not focus on her week long ending. It is just a transition. We will see them again. We will hug, pet, and kiss them again. Believe that with all of your heart. Each and every day we are one day closer to seeing them again.
Take care George. If you get a moment, I'd like to hear more about Bun-Bun's life. We are all here for you. Mouses Mom (forever trying to change every sad/negative thought into a happy memory).
Thank you Mouses Mom
It sounds like you went threw a lot before her farewell, I know how hard it is to see her suffer at the end, even for a second it is hard. I guess if we see the suffering it has some kind of validation for the "decision", I am glad you had a little wile to make sure it was "right" to do. I did not, I rushed the decision, I guess.
I had a Boston terrier (Binky) who had brain cancer and watched her suffer for a week before I "made" the decision, It was unfair to her, I am sorry I did that, but we put her in the car several times to go to the vet and she seemed to get better, sounds unreal but it happened. I was hoping that she could get a little more time, and thought maybe God was giving her a few more days. then just on day when she looked bad I took her and it was no turning back. It happened and I was upset but I felt It was necessary ! But I was also happy I gave her a few more days. The vet said it was right but I was convinced it was time. But Bun-Bun was different I had no time to give her a few more days, all of a sudden she's gone. I regret that I never had the opportunity to give her a little more time. The vet thinks I'm nuts, because I have called him several times since that day for reassurance and he has given it to me but I just cant shake that feeling. Thanks for your kind words and lets hope they are all in heaven having fun. I hope peace finds you.
George
P.S. when we got Bun-Bun she was the smallest one in the litter, my wife felt bad she never had enough food so she keep her fat and happy all her life. She was plump to say the lease, I know she loved to eat. I hope she is getting enough in heaven.
QUOTE (openhearted87 @ Apr 28 2009, 10:52 PM)
I'm sorry for your loss.i feel the same way when you say it's hard for others to understand the grief of a lost pet. you arent hanging on too much. everyone has their own pace in grief. dont let someone try and rush you. you arent rediculous. you did the best for your bun bun by letting her move on. im sure bun bun knows your decision was from the heart and it was to relieve her of pain. it was a selfless act of kindness you did for bun bun and she must love you for it. ive had to make that hard decision as well for my kitty acorn in the summer. you might have regretted it if you didnt put bun bun down and she suffered. there really is no winning in a sad situation as the passing of a loved pet. my heart goes out to you and your angel bun bun
-corina and her angels
-corina and her angels
Thank you Corina
You know how it feels, it's horrible ! If I only could have given her a little more time. I guess I am playing God with that kind of thinking but at lease I'm sure there is no other way, no other miracle, no chance. I don't want to play hero either, I just wanted to see she got all the time she was supposed to have. I never wanted her suffering to continue but I just did not have a choice. As you know with Acorn that day is like no other, your love and tenderness to them has to be put to the test and let them go. I have been told over and over by the vet that it was the right thing to do and I really relive that. But now I have to convince my memory bank that it was right. I sound selfish that "I" coudent give her more time, I only wanted to do the right thing for her. Every one in my family has moved on but me. I was the one there, I made the choice, I hope I did the right thing.
Peace be with you
George
George..you said...I feel I let her down when she needed me to do the right thing. The vet has told me over and over it was the right thing to do but I was not totally sure it was the necessarily the only way to go. She was 14 and I never seen her suffer once, if would be different if I witnessed her suffering for a wile but I never did. I seen her breathing heavy and took her to the vet and she was gone.
You did not let her down. She was having breathing problems which meant she was suffering...they try so hard to hide that from us. My Little Guy didn't seem to have problems until that horrible day he dragged himself barely conscious into our living room for help cause he could not breathe. Believe me, be glad you did not have the picture of your baby suffering to live with. She did need you to do the right thing and you did the right thing.
Remember the one saying I told you before:
I have sent you on a journey to a land free from pain, not because I did not love you but
because I loved you too much to force you to stay.
We let them go because we love them. I won't describe to you how awful that ER day was for me and my husband...helpless to save our boy. You lost your friend physically but never her soul, her spirit...that will always be with you as it is a part of your heart. She is not alone...she is with you, by your side and in your heart...forever. She is where she can never leave you.
I read a lot about breathing problems afterwards and it is truly hopeless and horrible. As my vet said to me...my boy could have suffocated and I would never want him to suffer in any way..he deserved a peaceful passing...so did your girl...and........
you gave it to her. She is now an Angel that surrounds you 24/7...no more discomfort. It is hard to make the decision but it has to be what is best for them....giving them more time...could result in a final memory we could never want regarding our best friend.
She is with you now and forever and she loves you and watches over you. It is the memories they leave us with, we should be grateful for. No matter how long they are with us..it will never be long enough. Our babies are at peace. We are in pain but I deal with my pain by being thankful my boy was a part of my life...and especially so many years. I want more..we all do..but we are not in charge of fate or whatever rules our lives.
Just think of your happy memories. Know it is okay for you to grieve...there is no time limit.
We will miss them forever and try to remember the good days with a smile to help get through the bad days when we feel the pain and the tears come again. It is natural to have this grief. It is like no other. We just take it one day at a time and kind of accept what we cannot change but we can never truly accept it because we didn't want it to happen. But if it is between our pain and their suffering....I gladly accept the pain for having my boy in my life...making the decision to let him go is never ever done lightly....but with breathing problems...well, I found out that problem demanded a quick decision....there is just no hope..only suffering we cannot imagine but we can make sure it doesn't happen.
You did the right thing, George.......a very painful but truly necessary decision. You gave her peace, knowing her peace will give you pain but loving her too much not to do what is best for her.
Hugs and tears....
Judy
You did not let her down. She was having breathing problems which meant she was suffering...they try so hard to hide that from us. My Little Guy didn't seem to have problems until that horrible day he dragged himself barely conscious into our living room for help cause he could not breathe. Believe me, be glad you did not have the picture of your baby suffering to live with. She did need you to do the right thing and you did the right thing.
Remember the one saying I told you before:
I have sent you on a journey to a land free from pain, not because I did not love you but
because I loved you too much to force you to stay.
We let them go because we love them. I won't describe to you how awful that ER day was for me and my husband...helpless to save our boy. You lost your friend physically but never her soul, her spirit...that will always be with you as it is a part of your heart. She is not alone...she is with you, by your side and in your heart...forever. She is where she can never leave you.
I read a lot about breathing problems afterwards and it is truly hopeless and horrible. As my vet said to me...my boy could have suffocated and I would never want him to suffer in any way..he deserved a peaceful passing...so did your girl...and........
you gave it to her. She is now an Angel that surrounds you 24/7...no more discomfort. It is hard to make the decision but it has to be what is best for them....giving them more time...could result in a final memory we could never want regarding our best friend.
She is with you now and forever and she loves you and watches over you. It is the memories they leave us with, we should be grateful for. No matter how long they are with us..it will never be long enough. Our babies are at peace. We are in pain but I deal with my pain by being thankful my boy was a part of my life...and especially so many years. I want more..we all do..but we are not in charge of fate or whatever rules our lives.
Just think of your happy memories. Know it is okay for you to grieve...there is no time limit.
We will miss them forever and try to remember the good days with a smile to help get through the bad days when we feel the pain and the tears come again. It is natural to have this grief. It is like no other. We just take it one day at a time and kind of accept what we cannot change but we can never truly accept it because we didn't want it to happen. But if it is between our pain and their suffering....I gladly accept the pain for having my boy in my life...making the decision to let him go is never ever done lightly....but with breathing problems...well, I found out that problem demanded a quick decision....there is just no hope..only suffering we cannot imagine but we can make sure it doesn't happen.
You did the right thing, George.......a very painful but truly necessary decision. You gave her peace, knowing her peace will give you pain but loving her too much not to do what is best for her.
Hugs and tears....
Judy
QUOTE (LoveThem @ Apr 30 2009, 05:03 PM)
George..you said...I feel I let her down when she needed me to do the right thing. The vet has told me over and over it was the right thing to do but I was not totally sure it was the necessarily the only way to go. She was 14 and I never seen her suffer once, if would be different if I witnessed her suffering for a wile but I never did. I seen her breathing heavy and took her to the vet and she was gone.
You did not let her down. She was having breathing problems which meant she was suffering...they try so hard to hide that from us. My Little Guy didn't seem to have problems until that horrible day he dragged himself barely conscious into our living room for help cause he could not breathe. Believe me, be glad you did not have the picture of your baby suffering to live with. She did need you to do the right thing and you did the right thing.
Remember the one saying I told you before:
I have sent you on a journey to a land free from pain, not because I did not love you but
because I loved you too much to force you to stay.
We let them go because we love them. I won't describe to you how awful that ER day was for me and my husband...helpless to save our boy. You lost your friend physically but never her soul, her spirit...that will always be with you as it is a part of your heart. She is not alone...she is with you, by your side and in your heart...forever. She is where she can never leave you.
I read a lot about breathing problems afterwards and it is truly hopeless and horrible. As my vet said to me...my boy could have suffocated and I would never want him to suffer in any way..he deserved a peaceful passing...so did your girl...and........
you gave it to her. She is now an Angel that surrounds you 24/7...no more discomfort. It is hard to make the decision but it has to be what is best for them....giving them more time...could result in a final memory we could never want regarding our best friend.
She is with you now and forever and she loves you and watches over you. It is the memories they leave us with, we should be grateful for. No matter how long they are with us..it will never be long enough. Our babies are at peace. We are in pain but I deal with my pain by being thankful my boy was a part of my life...and especially so many years. I want more..we all do..but we are not in charge of fate or whatever rules our lives.
Just think of your happy memories. Know it is okay for you to grieve...there is no time limit.
We will miss them forever and try to remember the good days with a smile to help get through the bad days when we feel the pain and the tears come again. It is natural to have this grief. It is like no other. We just take it one day at a time and kind of accept what we cannot change but we can never truly accept it because we didn't want it to happen. But if it is between our pain and their suffering....I gladly accept the pain for having my boy in my life...making the decision to let him go is never ever done lightly....but with breathing problems...well, I found out that problem demanded a quick decision....there is just no hope..only suffering we cannot imagine but we can make sure it doesn't happen.
You did the right thing, George.......a very painful but truly necessary decision. You gave her peace, knowing her peace will give you pain but loving her too much not to do what is best for her.
Hugs and tears....
Judy
You did not let her down. She was having breathing problems which meant she was suffering...they try so hard to hide that from us. My Little Guy didn't seem to have problems until that horrible day he dragged himself barely conscious into our living room for help cause he could not breathe. Believe me, be glad you did not have the picture of your baby suffering to live with. She did need you to do the right thing and you did the right thing.
Remember the one saying I told you before:
I have sent you on a journey to a land free from pain, not because I did not love you but
because I loved you too much to force you to stay.
We let them go because we love them. I won't describe to you how awful that ER day was for me and my husband...helpless to save our boy. You lost your friend physically but never her soul, her spirit...that will always be with you as it is a part of your heart. She is not alone...she is with you, by your side and in your heart...forever. She is where she can never leave you.
I read a lot about breathing problems afterwards and it is truly hopeless and horrible. As my vet said to me...my boy could have suffocated and I would never want him to suffer in any way..he deserved a peaceful passing...so did your girl...and........
you gave it to her. She is now an Angel that surrounds you 24/7...no more discomfort. It is hard to make the decision but it has to be what is best for them....giving them more time...could result in a final memory we could never want regarding our best friend.
She is with you now and forever and she loves you and watches over you. It is the memories they leave us with, we should be grateful for. No matter how long they are with us..it will never be long enough. Our babies are at peace. We are in pain but I deal with my pain by being thankful my boy was a part of my life...and especially so many years. I want more..we all do..but we are not in charge of fate or whatever rules our lives.
Just think of your happy memories. Know it is okay for you to grieve...there is no time limit.
We will miss them forever and try to remember the good days with a smile to help get through the bad days when we feel the pain and the tears come again. It is natural to have this grief. It is like no other. We just take it one day at a time and kind of accept what we cannot change but we can never truly accept it because we didn't want it to happen. But if it is between our pain and their suffering....I gladly accept the pain for having my boy in my life...making the decision to let him go is never ever done lightly....but with breathing problems...well, I found out that problem demanded a quick decision....there is just no hope..only suffering we cannot imagine but we can make sure it doesn't happen.
You did the right thing, George.......a very painful but truly necessary decision. You gave her peace, knowing her peace will give you pain but loving her too much not to do what is best for her.
Hugs and tears....
Judy
Hi Judy
I hope this finds you well. I know you know how I feel, you have been threw it. It is a process of getting to end of this guilt I have . I know that the decision I made was the correct one for her, and I am only selfish to think I had the power and the ability to give her more time. I am learning that she had to come first, and I was only a instrument. The vet said it was the right thing to do, I must accept that. The few extra days I could have gave her would only be full of pain. I know that.
The only real regret I have is not knowing she needed me sooner, I could have been there for her earlier. You know about loosing a loved one, your little guy was a big part of the life you made for your self and he was always there, always watching, always witnessing what you where going threw. You and I miss that carbon copy of the experience's we had, she was always my pal, nothing more, nothing less. Always there, like my right arm. I will get there, I have to keep pluging my way threw these horrible emotions of letting her down. I will get there, It's just taking time for me. Thanks Judy, It was real nice hearing from you again. Bless you
George
Hi George,
I'm so sorry for your loss of Bun-Bun. I have never had to put down a companion, yet.
I know someday it will come, and I hope I can be as strong as you, and others in here
that have been through it. Do you have pics of bun-Bun?
It really helped my grief to post them here, and on hosting sites.
Take Care
I'm so sorry for your loss of Bun-Bun. I have never had to put down a companion, yet.
I know someday it will come, and I hope I can be as strong as you, and others in here
that have been through it. Do you have pics of bun-Bun?
It really helped my grief to post them here, and on hosting sites.
Take Care
QUOTE (Bue's Mommy @ May 1 2009, 05:19 PM)
Hi George,
I'm so sorry for your loss of Bun-Bun. I have never had to put down a companion, yet.
I know someday it will come, and I hope I can be as strong as you, and others in here
that have been through it. Do you have pics of bun-Bun?
It really helped my grief to post them here, and on hosting sites.
Take Care
I'm so sorry for your loss of Bun-Bun. I have never had to put down a companion, yet.
I know someday it will come, and I hope I can be as strong as you, and others in here
that have been through it. Do you have pics of bun-Bun?
It really helped my grief to post them here, and on hosting sites.
Take Care
Thank you, I do have several pictures posted but I don't know how to pull them up.
Yes this site has helped me tremendously, many of the people who answered me in my original posting back in February where very kind and understanding to my grief. Several people knew what it was like to loose a love one and went threw it as well, they helped me a lot. The experience of the pain of loosing a pet is only learned when it happens to yourself, then you can understand the pain of others . It's not a nice feeling...
A few of my friends I have on this site are as close to me as any of my life long friends at home. They knew what to say and when to say it. It is a shoulder to cry on over the internet that is so special, it's like we have a bond of pain, and the only help is for you to dump your pain on someone else. It's helped me a lot.
And my friends on LS are special pals. I hope you never need them but when the times comes someone who don't know will give you there shoulder.. All my friends who answered me with understanding and love are very special people to me, and I hope someday I can return the kindness. I love you all.
Thanks for your kind words.. take care
George
P.S
And I know Bun-Bun is happy everybody is talking about her, she was such a ham..
Drop me a line if you want to discuss posting your pictures of Bun-Bun. I will be glad to help you.
I did have to laugh at your last line....calling Bun-Bun a "ham"
Sounds pretty precious to me.
If your pictures are on your computer...it is fairly simply to post a picture.
take care,
Judy
I did have to laugh at your last line....calling Bun-Bun a "ham"
Sounds pretty precious to me.
If your pictures are on your computer...it is fairly simply to post a picture.
take care,
Judy
George, I have to make the decision when to put down my terminally ill snow Angel....I have been grieving ever since the vet told me there was no hope. I was hoping against all odds of her recovering from this cancer.. She has lived longer than predicted.. But I guess it is now time to pay the piper....The vet actually gave her less than 3 months, but it has now been a little over 6.., with much treatment.. She had chemo for a while, then steroids and pain meds are where we are now. My heart is breaking. I just cannot do it.. I just love her so much! I will be so lonely without her..I don't know how I can live without her........Or even if I want to...She has been my lifeline for the past 12 years.. .. People just don't understand. They think Iam weird, maybe Iam, but I have never been loved as much by anyone as her.. I know people I work with are tired of hearing about my snow Angel. ...My heart is breaking and I can barely see through my tears to type...I know I will not let her suffer, I love her too much.... Iam sorry about your dog. I know how you feel. I wish I had courage to be strong. God Bless
QUOTE (scmite @ May 7 2009, 03:07 AM)
George, I have to make the decision when to put down my terminally ill snow Angel....I have been grieving ever since the vet told me there was no hope. I was hoping against all odds of her recovering from this cancer.. She has lived longer than predicted.. But I guess it is now time to pay the piper....The vet actually gave her less than 3 months, but it has now been a little over 6.., with much treatment.. She had chemo for a while, then steroids and pain meds are where we are now. My heart is breaking. I just cannot do it.. I just love her so much! I will be so lonely without her..I don't know how I can live without her........Or even if I want to...She has been my lifeline for the past 12 years.. .. People just don't understand. They think Iam weird, maybe Iam, but I have never been loved as much by anyone as her.. I know people I work with are tired of hearing about my snow Angel. ...My heart is breaking and I can barely see through my tears to type...I know I will not let her suffer, I love her too much.... Iam sorry about your dog. I know how you feel. I wish I had courage to be strong. God Bless
You are right, some people just don't understand. But many do, and there are many of people here on this website who have that first hand knowledge. They also have a shoulder to cry on if needed to.
My friends here know who they are, they know I love them..
I have learned that this most likely will not go away completely, I have had many pets in my life, this was not much different, why has it effected me so ? I cant answer that.
We must just remember that we all have a limit of time here, and my Bun-Bun's time was up, and so was your Angel's. I don't reflect on the good times to much anymore cause it makes me miss her more. I just think of her up "there" playing and running around being happy and one day we will all be together again. My Bun-Bun was a cute little over weight cat with a stubby tail that never hurt a sole in her life, I miss her everyday, she was my little partner, I love her and miss her. But I have to get the loneliness of her not being here behind me for how even tho I find myself looking for her from time to time. I don't know why, I just do. I see her in the corner of my eye once and awhile, I shake my heard and realize she is gone. I realize she has become apart of "me", I cant make it go away, I cant change it, all I can do is live with it, and you must to. It's not going to get any better crying all the time, she is in heaven, waiting for me, eating all the time like she used to, running around and having fun. I will be there with her one day. I have to wait. I cant change that.. I hope peace find you soon and you will find your way back from this horrible feeling some day, it's just takes a little more time... Bless you
George
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