Hi Rita. If ever an event can awaken one's spiritual life, losing a soulmate will certainly do it. After euthanizing my second cat (the first one was more than ready and asked me to go through with it ) I was overwhelmed with the most haunting feeling that I had cut his life short and that somehow (intuitively I felt) his soul's progress would be hampered. I needed to know where he was in the cosmos and wondered how to go about this. I understand your need to communicate with Calvin if you think that you euthanized him too soon ( my dear, all I can say is that you were that much better than I was on this). Many here have used animal communicators and are fervent believers in their talents. Being a natural skeptic

and especially not really having any funds for this

I have kept myself in check. Perhaps I am wrong and my longing for my soulmate would be eased through a communicator (can that really happen though???it's so much the physical I want back

)but so far, I have held off. Win a lottery tomorrow and I'll hire all of them
I do think our pets are still right by us though I can not give you any proof of this, only my heart tells me so.
After months and months of tears and despair, feeling so drained fom my loss , I came to a point where I became aware that
he is in me and I in him, I then became grateful for the love that unites all of life past and present and future, my soulmate's presence from within brought me to a place of spiritual wealth where time stands still, a place where we bask in gratitude for the love that has grown and in hope that it is forever in constant evolution.. There are some theories that say that we can communicate better with our soulmates through dreams/during sleep, there are some who instruct as to how to develop this communication on your own, some people are much more clairvoyant than others and may be worth listening to if only to compare to what your own heart tells you. You and Calvin are individuals, no matter what others have done, or think, or say , you will have to sift through all of this and listen to your own inner voice. Will Calvin come back as a kitten, or a child, or will he inhabit some lost soul that you come across and feel it is he?Will he just be the breeze that whispers to you how you are loved and to go on because he is with you now and forever and there will be a time where more will come but for now you must just trust in that love. Who really can tell? Tell me Rita, what does your heart tell you ? Listen to your intuition and it may be Calvin telling you what you need to hear, from within your own heart. But I hope you will come back and tell us because while we each one of us is unique, while each one of us hears a different language, we are also part of a blessed whole and our spiritual thoughts are wealths to be shared.