Well, my darling cat, Squidge, passed away on the 28th December, 2008 aged 15. What makes it worse is that she was in perfect health until someone allowed their dog to roam the neighbourhood unsupervised in March, 2008. Squidge was asleep in the garden under the window, and the alsatian came into the garden and went mad at her. I tried to get her through the window, but couldnt reach, so had to run round into the garden to get the dog away from her. The owner turned up at this point totally unfazed and with no apology. Squidge had wet herself with the fright. Also her blood pressure had gone up so high, so fast, her retinas detached and from then on she was completely blind. She was a bit up and down with coping with blindness, but was happy enough, but after the dog attack, she went downhill over the weeks and months, at one point a few months ago, shed gone so downhill, the vet almost put her to sleep, but by some miracle she got through that rough patch. Id always doted on her completely, but after she went blind, my life totally revolved around her and i did everything in my power to make her as happy as i could. At christmas she went downhill again, i thought it was only temporary and went back to syringe feeding her and liquidizing nutritional concoctions id made for her. i really did think she'd pull through again but was planning on taking her to the vets on the 29th December to see what he thought. Anyway, me and Squidge went to bed on the 27th and she was under the covers with her head poking out, cuddled up to me and i had my arm around her and was stroking her til i fell alseep, i woke up at about 2am and was gently stroking her and she was purring in her sleep. i woke up again at 7.30am, stroked her, but got no response and she didnt feel right. my baby girl had died in her sleep. i swear my heart literally broke at that moment. All everyone keeps telling me is that she was just a cat and i should be over it by now or they change the subject whenever i try to talk about her. its like noone really gets that she was not just a cat, she was by baby, best friend and kinda soul mate all rolled into one. we had been together since i was 15 when she walked into my bfs flat when i was on my own there one day, wed hardly been apart since then and since i moved out at 16, this is the first time ive been without her. I just seem to miss her more every day. and i think everyone thinks i am going crazy. i knew this would be hard, but this hurts so much more than anything else than i could possibly imagine. i do have another cat, Mitz, and i do love her to bits, but me and her arent as close as me and Squidge. my heart constantly aches and i feel like part of me is missing and my flat seems to empty and quiet. its horrible cos whenever i was upset, Squidge would come over and give me a cuddle and cheer me up, and now im upset cos i miss her i just dont know what to do x

I am so very sorry to hear about Squidge!!!

What no apology from the dog's owner?!?!?!

You have found the right place. Here you can talk about it over and over and no one cares how much you do. We have all been where you are at some point. True lots of people just don't get animals the way some do. I too had people tell me to get over it. Just like you said-soul mate-best friend-child- what ever they mean the world to us and we grieve for them just like a human. Maybe even more so.
Been a little over 7 months since I lost my sissycat and just last night I was on this site and my daughter said you still get on that dead animal place. Of course I do i told her and i will continue to do so.

If not for this place (L/S) and all the wonderful people here I just don't know what I would have done. Everyone here is so understanding.
Mitz and You need each other especially now. I have Sissy's sister still and now I am more close to her since Sissy is gone, but she will never hold that special place.
As you know it is a bumby roller coaster ride this grief thing is. Has its ups and downs.

Sometimes just to write your feelings, stories of Squidge, or post pictures will help. I come here mostly everyday, but especially every Thursday to write a special little note to my Sissycat.
Whatever makes you feel better works here.

Hugs to you and you angel Squidge!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah the dogs owner actually gives me abuse when i see her cos i got the RSPCA, the police, dog warden, local council and local MPs involved. people like her shouldnt be allowed pets. im actually taking her to court soon hopefully just to show her that i will not let her get away with killing my baby, any compensation i get will be donated to a cat charity, then at least something good can come of it all. ive had close family members and pets die before, but this hurts so much more. im starting to think my family and friends are avoiding me. my bf doesnt know what to do, in the 15 months we've been together he got really close to Squidge and i know hes more upset than he shows, but im not being easy to deal with, for the past 3 1/2 weeks ive been flitting between just being quiet (which is not normal for me), crying constantly or getting irritable and angry.
but i did give Squidge a proper little funeral at a funeral home and had her cremated. it actually took 2 people to hold me up when i had to leave the room for her to be cremated, i just knew that i wouldnt see her again after that and if i could of done id of just stayed forever!
but ive just now ended up shutting myself off from almost everyone, i know that Squidge is dead, but its so hard to accept that im never going to see her again. i was looking through old photos today and realised that the mouse toy i cremated with her was actually one that i got her 12 years ago when i first had Squidge. i cant believe she managed to keep hold of it for that many years!

Emma, I am very sorry to read of your loss of your sweet furbaby Squidge. I am glad that you found this site, to share your story. Hopefully we can offer you a bit of comfort, during this painful time.

My heart broke, as I read your story of Squidge being attacked by the dog. I know that was a very difficult time for you and Squidge. The dogs owner should have at least offered an apology. But, some people are nothing short of cruel. Many years ago, I had an older dog attacked by 2 dogs when we were on a walk. She survived, but I had to take the owners to court to have her medical bills paid. I never received an apology either. So, I understand a little of what you went through.

Squidge sounds like she was a loyal and wonderful companion for you. She was so fortunate to have found you, and I know she was grateful. You provided her with the love and care she needed for 15 years. I smiled when I read that she was snoozing under the covers with you. How cute! It's not often that you hear of furbabies passing on their own at home. But please find some comfort knowing that she was beside you at the end. She peacefully went to sleep in her own loving home. I know it's painful and that you miss her so much. Someone once told me: You never stop missing your loved one, you just learn to go on without them. This is so true.

Many of us have gone through the loss of a furbaby. We understand grief, better then anyone without a pet. I am sorry that people have said cruel comments to you. They just don't understand the unconditional love that a pet gives us. They don't know what to say to you, to make you feel better.

I am glad that you have your other baby Mitz to love. And you may just find that you two will grow closer now. I hope that the happy memories you shared with Squidge, will bring you comfort. I wish you peace during this difficult time in your life.

Good for you. Squidge should have justice!!!!

If your friends and family get tired of it, just come here. We never tire of it. My family got tired of me too. Or maybe they just didn't know how to handle the situation.

Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It made me cry - your story of your sweet Squidge and her dying.
She reminded me of my sweet and cuddly Momma-Kat - who died about 4 months after my husband died - two years ago. She was l8 years old, very tiny and delicate and the cuddliest most loving kitty I've ever known. I thought my heart would break when I lost her!
And now Saturday my 12 year old poodle-terrier Spunky died unexpectedly. My heart is breaking all over again.

It's so hard losing our sweet friends and missing their own unique ways., and I feel very sad about Squidge.
I just came on this site yesterday (I think) and the messages I've received in response to my posting about my Spunky have really comforted my heart...so 'keep coming back'...it really seems to help.

I am so, so sorry for the loss of your Squidge. You took wonderful care of her and I am sure she was so happy to have parent that loved her so much. There are plenty of people out there that don't understand a pet loss.... just don't listen to a word they say. They don't have the ability to understand, as they have never loved a pet as deeply as we have. Which is sad, really... because the love of a pet is one of the most wonderful things we experience. These pet loss websites have lots of people that understand, and can help you through your grief.

Take care,
Ren, Zorro, and Nemo's MOm

Thankyou so much everyone xx it feels good just to get it out! I decided to make a website with her pics and memories, etc, just to make me think of the good times. just a little personal one just for me to also be able to look at, remember her, and hopefully one day smile instead of break down. my flat is starting to look like a shrine to her and ive somehow managed to shut everyone out! i can prob count on my fingers the number of times ive seen my bf since she died, and i havent seen my best mate since the day she died. i cant believe ive been stupid enough to shut everyone off, but i just really cant be bothered to see anyone. luckily i think they realise that i prob just need my space at the moment. but the bf keeps trying to get me out of my flat and to put back some of the original photos i had up (on the day she died i replaced every framed photo with one of Squidge - about 20 in total) and also the shelf in my lounge got cleared and now had her ashes, more framed photos, candles and a small vase with roses. i know im probably getting obsessed, i think im scared that she'll think ive forgotten her or something. but i do actually think i am going crazy and losing the plot. its like she was always my first and main priority for 12 years and i just dont know how to stop that, she still is my main priority, but as she isnt here anymore i just dont know how to refocus myself. and when she got ill, she was always on my lap or next to me and i was at her beck and call 24/7 (even leaving work to check on her and getting up every few hours with her, etc) and cos i had to be so focused on her, my bf focused on my other cat and i think she, Mitz, now hates me, when he's here she'll spend all night on his lap, when hes not here, i'll hardly see her.

Hi Emma

So glad you came here. What I decided when I lost Jack is that people around me would have to just deal with how I was. They were not my problem for now because all I could focus on was getting through each day. When you feel immense grief like this, you have to do things your way. No one would question your actions and feelings if you had lost a person would they? Well its just as bad losing a pet.
I'm sure they will still be there when you work your way through this. You just worry about you for now.

Von (Jack)

well now i just give up!! The dog owner has been giving me grief since her dog attacked Squidge, and again this morning when i drove past her she stood there sticking her fingers up and yelling abuse! and i just thought im sick of all this now, just totally fed up of ignoring her cos shes the one in the wrong - not me! and shes a known bully who tries to intimidate people, and i just cant let her think that she can do that to me. so........i hate that i did this........i span my car round, pulled up next to her and the dog, got out my car and asked her straight what her problem was. all i got was a mouthful of abuse. i basically told her that if either of us had a reason to give hassle, then it was me - not her! and that she didnt even have the decency to apologise for her dog killing my cat! she turned round and said that my cat was fine and her dog has done nothing wrong! i told her that i have vets bills and witnesses to prove that my cat died due to the dog attack! and do you know what her response was.............she told me that her dog had obviously killed my cat, laughed, and told me that it'd get me and my other cat next!!!!!!!! but when i snapped and yelled at her, she backed off a few steps and held the dog infront of her!! typical bully, no guts when it comes down to it! i just told her that no matter how long in the future it is, if i see the dog off its lead near me or my property then i will take it as a personal threat and will make sure i have the evidence to prosecute her! Im just so angry at myself for retaliating! but also so shocked by her attitude! not only have i gotta deal with losing the one thing i love more than anything else, i gotta deal with abuse from the woman who basically murdered Squidge!

I feel your aggrivation. People like that don't even deserve to pet owners. I don't know what I would have done in that situation.

Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow Emma, what a story!.. First of all let me tell you how sorry I am for you loss. This isa tough one. I know all the hurt and anger your going thru. Should you take her threat seriouly? Don't know. But maybe lay low, ignor them as much as you can. It won't be easy, but a threat is a threat.
You said you feel like people are avoiding you. I went thru that too and in some ways they are. The more I thought about it, I put myself in their shoes. Most don't have pets, the ones that do don't seem to care about your loss. They simply don't want to hear it 'cuz they don't know what to say, expect "why don't you just get another one". Man, I hate that!.. This (LS) is the place to be and talk about it. WE are the ones that understand and sympathize and console. Mere strangers with the same grief who don't think twice about comforting a fellow member.
Memorialize Squidge all you want, it is well deserved. 15 yrs is a long time to have had together. It will never be long enough though. She was your soulmate. It will take time to heal from this. Hopefully not too long. Love to see pict's when you feel up to it. Just remember that Squidge is always with you for as long as you hold her in your heart.. Good luck with the neighborhood bully. Just be careful...Hugs.. Ann

Don't feel angry at yourself because I think you reacted in a natural way. You're at your lowest at the moment and she's making things tougher for you. Maybe you should tell the police about her threats? They might go round and give her a warning. She will take you seriously then.
What an evil woman. What goes around comes around, she will get hers one day.

Von

Thanks for your replys xx i reported her to the police - mainly just to get it on record. and yeah i know what you mean about people not knowing what to say, and im sick of people asking why i havent got another cat yet! its 4 weeks today since she passed away and i think everyone just thinks i should 'be over it' by now and just cant deal with me! I have my bf trying to get me out of my flat, but within half hour of being at his tonight, i just had to come home (so hes prob not happy with me right now) I have a go at him for hardly seeing me since Squidge died, but as soon as im with him, i just want to be alone. i just wish i could stabilize my emotions instead of being all over the place 24/7, unable to sleep or eat properly and just being miserable. its weird cos i dont like being on my own at the moment, but i cant stand to not be on my own at the same time. when i finish work and im driving home, its horrible cos for a split second i'l get excited cos i think i'll be home with both my cats soon, and then i remember that Squidge isn't there. i still wake up in the night and reach over to stroke her. its like my mind actually tries to refuse to believe that she has actually gone. and i know that everyone i know thinks im being a bit OTT with all this and thats prob why i prefer to be by myself, its hard work pretending to be ok and acting like im not falling apart, and when im by myself i can just let it all out and just act how i feel. i dont think any of my friends, family or bf realise just how badly im dealing with Squidge dying, and a few have told me that they are impressed at how well im doing! it just makes me think that they cant pay much attention to me, i have looked terrible since it happened, lost interest in everything, and i was already slim at 7 stone and have lost half a stone since Squidge died. and it annoys me that they think im doing well. everyone knew that she meant literally everything to me and was my whole world, and over the years they have all said that they know that when she dies i'll be destroyed - so why have they just left me on my own to deal with it? as soon as i try to talk about her, people change the subject. i got a good mind to get new friends and a new bf and just ditch half my family! x

Oh I wouldn't do that. You need your family and bf. I know it is hard, but I think we have to realize some people just are not animal lovers. (i don't see how anyone could not love a cuddley creature that can give us so much unconditional love in return) Guess that is just like some people like pizza and some don't. (bad example lol) Also as another said. They just don't know how to act when we are grieving. They don't know to say or do for us.

Just part of this cruel world we live in.

It will get better I promise. I know you are probably tired of hearing that one too, but it will.

I am glad you reported it. What kind of response did you get from the police? Can they talk to her?

Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah i know what you mean, but only a few people in my life understand that she was just like my baby - the only difference being that i didnt give birth to her! and the police have their hands tied, but they are guna speak to her! but to be able to get anything done i may have to change the law. but campaigning for stricter dog control laws will at least give me something to focus on! i just hate that woman so much, i didnt think it was possible to hate someone that much! she killed my baby girl, she can make all the threats she likes, she cant do worse than she already has done! bit i will spend the rest of my life getting some legal action taken against her, even if i do have to get the laws amended. Squidge deserves to get some justice for what happened, and as her mummy, i'm guna make sure she does. Squidge was my life for so many years and she always will be. i just wish i could work out how to stop crying and obsessing. but my main focus was always her and i just cant stop her being my focus. i even broke up with really nice guys in the past cos Squidge didnt take to them or they were allergic to cats or something. I gave up on getting the career i wanted cos it would of meant moving far away and Squidge hated being in a car, so instead of putting her under that stress, i just stayed where i was. and i hate that im dealing with this so badly and i just cant see an end to it. im still as bad 4 weeks on as what i was when it first happened. the only difference is that i have now shut everyone out and cut myself off from everyone and everything. i look at her casket with her ashes in and i just still cant believe she's gone, its like its so bad it cant possibly be true.

Emma, I cry every time I read your post. I know all to well what you are going thru. Believe me, I do. Again, it's getting close to 8mo for me. I still cry uncontrollably at times. I still weld up everyday. But, like Sissycat said, it does get better. It has to, we have to let it get better. That, by no means, means we are forgetting them. We never will. Someone here once said their pet controlled them. Sounds like Squidge did the same for you. Just like my Arthur. All my contentmentment and happiness was because I had him in my life and when it's gone, we feel like hope is gone. I too, shut everything and everyone out. I still do from time to time. But less now, however I don't think I will be the same person I was for a long time. Yes, we walk around pretending everything is o.k., and only we/ourselves know how shattered we truely are. Someone here told me I needed to open up to my bf who I shared Arthur with, 'cuz everytime he'd mention him I'd clam up to keep from crying. So, I took her advice, opened up, cried my eyes out and he couldn't handle it. Telling me to stop already, etc. I think it's 'cuz he's hurting too, and men (most men) don't like to show thier emotions. It's done, ok, move on, forget about it. So, I spend a lot of time alone, I spend a lot of time crying, croping pictures of him, thinking of things he did (even the ones that pissed me off). I'll keep thinking of him until I can smile without crying. Someone neglected thier responsibilities which was a result of your loss. This is truely the worst. Perhaps getting some kind of justice will bring you peace. I think you have found out how great LS is right now. For myself, it's the only place I can come to to vent, get advice, read some very helpful articles. So, forget everyone else who doesn't want to hear it. You've found people who do.
Best of luck on your mission. Something good has to come from this, I'm sure you'll find it. Keep us up to date..Hugs..Ann

Thankyou hun x and i know what you mean, i know my bf is more upset than he makes out, i can just see it in his eyes, we dont live together, but he got very close to Squidge x But i know that im no longer the woman he fell in love with and dont think i ever will be again. Im glad i found this place, cos getting everything out helps so much, im just a very private person and dont like people in my life to know how totally destroyed i am, i dont know why, i think its just who i am. But im so relieved that im not going crazy, and that people here understand how much our pets mean to us and how hard it is when they are no longer here. and that you cant put a timeframe on grieving xx and i feel for everyone who is going through the same as me, cos the pain is soooo bad.

I am so sorry to hear about Squidge. It hasn't been that long ago that you lost her. One thing I thought of reading your story was that when it was her time to go, she was in a place she would want to be...right next to you. It must have been peaceful else she would have awaken you.
You sound as though you are still in a state of shock at all that happened. And seeing that neighbor doesn't help you any ..to try and forget the sad memories.

As far as her dog..I don't know how it is where you are but everywhere I have lived there is a leash law for dogs just so something like that doesn't happen. If my town had someone like that and I had that law...whenever I saw the dog loose I would call Animal Control. I have seen them come out right away and then it cost the owner every time to get the dog back. And, if the dog attacks at all, a lot of cities will say it is dangerous and it is put down. I would call my local County or City Animal Control and ask them about a leash law and also about reporting a dangerous animal. Maybe you don't have to change the law....but instead if it is there...try to use it.

I'm sure Mitz misses Squidge too. She may be looking to you for signals on how to act. I have read they sense our grief. She is without her companion too. This is a good time for you two to do a lot of hugging and being together. My worst time was losing my boy Little Guy after over 16 years and coming home to an empty home. There is something special about having a furbaby to hug when we come home. Mitz is there for you. You can talk to her about Squidge anytime and she would love the attention I think.

When I came home to an empty house I did a lot of crying for days and my husband was getting upset that I was so miserable. He grieved in his own way but to him ...he did not want to think of it all everyday. I couldn't stop thinking about my boy. I also put his pictures in all the rooms so when I walk into one I can still look at him. I kept some of his fur so if I want to touch him, the fur is still soft and it belonged to him. I made him my wallpaper on my computer so I see him everyday when I turn it on and say goodnight when I turn it off, knowing that he will never leave there and will always be waiting for me to see him lying on the top of a couch looking directly into the camera.

I didn't want to do anything or go anywhere either and I certainly would never be around anyone who felt I should get over something before I was ready. But I cried and called for my boy for days, hoping he would magically appear from another room, knowing inside he would not. Then that became depressing too. I cried until I felt exhausted and I felt the crying did not make me feel any better so one day I started asking myself ..what would make ME feel better if I could not have my boy anymore. My answer was to adopt a shelter cat that looks like my boy but who needed a home and someone to purr around and play with and to love. My home is not the same as it was and it will never be the same but it no longer feels completely empty.

It takes time to heal. I always think that grief comes to us so quickly but healing seems to take forever. Whatever makes you feel better to do is the right thing to do. I think it takes time for us deep inside to truly "accept" they are gone physically. But I do believe they are watching over us and are in our hearts where they can never leave....our heart is their forever home.

Take a deep breath...maybe lots of them. Give Mitz some hugs and cry and tell her you know both of you miss Squidge but you have each other...which is so much better than being alone with no furbaby to hold.

15 years is a wonderful time to have had your baby. Of my 3 sibling kitties, I lost my Little Guy's twin brother at age 10, his sister at 15 and him at 16 1/2. No matter how much time it is never long enough and never could be.

But all we can do is be grateful they were a part of our lives. We know we will never forget them and many times in the future, we will have a time of tears again. The pain never truly goes away because it is caused by our missing them and since we do love them and will miss them forever....the pain will not go away 100%. In time, it becomes bearable.

There is nothing wrong with your tributes to Squidge. She is a part of you and always will be..forever. One "Mom" member here said long ago: The pain of losing her will never ever be greater than the joy of knowing her. I remember that statement many times and it can help ease the pain. It reminds me when I am sad to think of the times all was well and be glad my boy was a part of my life.

Try and think about what you think would make you feel better and do it. When crying becomes exhausting, we can try and force ourselves to look around and see what just might make us feel somewhat better.....even just a little bit. Many times it is baby steps that lead to healing.

In the meantime, come here and talk about your thoughts and feelings. You are talking here with people who know exactly how you feel and they know and will tell you...it is okay to grieve.
There are no time limits.

When you are here, you are never alone.

Peace and healing are what I wish for you.

Judy

Thankyou Lovethem, yeah i have Squidge as my laptop screensaver too, of her fast asleep snuggled under the duvet x and yeah, id rather go through this pain than never of had Squidge, and i am glad that she passed peacefully in her sleep. Me and my bf had a chat last night (but his way of helping is to just get me out of my flat, cheer me up and take my mind off it all - which only helps temporarily) but last night i told him how i feel, he said he'd get me a kitten and i told him i couldnt get another cat - itd kill me, so he's been looking out for Chihuahua puppies cos thats one of my fav dogs and i wouldnt have a big dog around Mitz, and he keeps saying that if he find some locally then we should 'just go and look at them' but i know his plan is for me to see a tiny little puppy, fall in love and we'll get one and i think he thinks that will cheer me up, he has also started talking about us trying for a baby later in the year (after Squidge went blind i told him i wouldnt have children while Squidge needs me as much as she did). but i dont think we're ready for that!
Tomorrow morning will be one month since she died! i cant believe a whole month has passed x its such a long time and its just guna get longer! i just wish i could see her just one more time! i think im guna book into see this spiritualist guy ive seen a few times - normally hes spot on, and at least i know that if i see him and he doesnt mention my baby girl then he's rubbish, and if he does mention her then i'll know she's ok x

Emma,

You lost your lovely Squidge on the same day I lost BK.

Squidge's story breaks my heart, and makes me so angry I can't put it into words. So much so that I have had a hard time even posting on her thread. I'm so terribly sorry for what the two of you endured.


Thinking of you and Squidge today,
Dayna

Emma

Just remember to do what feels right to you. Look inside yourself asking....what could make me feel better right now....and if any one of what you are thinking about...sounds particularly right...do it.

Take everything one step at a time. There is no hurry...you have Mitz right now so you know every day you have a furbaby to hug.

Whether it is kittens or puppies....do what interests you right now..you have many options here.
What is important is at sometime you will make a connection with a new baby and if you do, then it will feel right to take her/him home.

When I started looking...I saw many cats but I wasn't making a connection right away and I wondered if I would but I persisted and went to places where adoptions were held and wound up back at my local SPCA and was determined this time to look in every room and at every cat and when I walked up to one who was sleeping and he looked like my Little Guy physically...well, he opened his eyes and looked into mine and I feel a little shock at how beautiful his eyes were and they too reminded me of my boy who had the same color big eyes. I tested him out to see how friendly he was and came home and told my husband I found a cat I wanted to bring home.
I was there the next morning they were open and brought him home.

I read in New Beginnings here how others found their connections...sometimes they were picked out by the furbaby instead of vice versa. So you never know what can happen unless you make the effort and when it feels right to you to make the effort...that's the time to see what happens.

Whatever you decide...I know whatever you bring home someday....kitty or doggie...they will be lucky to have you as their caregiver. I always think of it as a win-win situation. Someone needs love and a home and I need to give a home and love to one.

Hugs and good thoughts,
Judy

Thankyou for your messages and support x My other cat keeps staring up at Squidges ashes which is strange! x But Ive been doing a bit better, been trying to keep myself busy xx Ive created a petition to change the dog laws that gets sent straight to Government at http://petitions.number10.gov.uk/controlofdogs/
I just want to do something to enable me to get justice for my baby girl and do my best to make sure noone else has to go through what I am right now. I still miss her like crazy and still expect her to walk into the room, it was horrible the other night when my bf came up to me with Mitz in his arms and we had a kinda group cuddle and he said something like 'our little family all cuddling up together' and it felt like id been stabbed in the heart, and i said to him that no, this is not all our family cos my baby wasnt there. But Mitz has been coming out of herself more, but I just struggle to get used to it just being me and her, its still so strange! x

Emma,

I went to your link for a petition but it did say one had to be a British citizen. I am posting a link here to someone who had an awful thing happen like you did.

His name is Foggy's Dad and it is a story about his dog Foggy. He also was setting up a petition.

The reason I remember is he also lives in the UK so maybe after reading his post, you can reply there or send him a PM and ask him to sign your petition.

I would have signed if I lived in the UK.

Here is the link in this Section of D&D to Foggy's Dad's story and his petition idea.

Hugs and justice.
Judy

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.php?showtopic=4915

Thankyou x and yeah you have to be a british citizen for mine cos its done through parliment x Ive just read about Foggy! That is horrendous!! x There are some sick people out there! The dog owner seems to be avoiding me at the moment, cos i was seeing her all the time and i think she got a kick out of screaming abuse and sticking her fingers up as i drove past, but since i got out of my car and went mad at her, i havent seen her at all! x i think she may be realising that im not an easy target and will not back down from this as I will get some kinda action taken, her negligence and nastiness killed my baby girl and it still shocks me that i have not even had an apology or anything.

Emma
My heart went out to you when I read about Squidge. Like Squidge, my baby girl, Nicole, died while I slept beside her in the early morning of Dec. 7th. Please accept my sincere sympathies, I feel for you in this painful time.
Lynda

thankyou Lynda, its getting a bit easier - ive been keeping myself busy! x i just still miss my Baby Girl sooooo much! I've got a new little cat now, Braith (I found her) and although it distracts me a bit, she harrasses my other cat, Mitzi, and Mitzi basically just lets her get away with it and just growls a lot, and i keep thinking that if Squidge was here then she'd of shown the kitten who is boss by now and wouldnt of stood for being stalked and pounced on 24/7 by Braith. and im never guna have the closeness i had with Squidge with either Mitz of Braith, no matter how much I do love them both, I love Squidge more and it makes me feel bad! Squidge has become a kind of legend to me and my partner now, we still talk about her all the time and laugh about her little quirks, etc. Also i went to a spiritualist the other week and he mentioned Squidge and said she was with my nan, that helped a lot i think. just the thought of my nan looking after Squidge for me until i can makes me smile a little. And im so sorry for your loss too hun, i cant think of anything harder than losing a loved pet, i actually dealt with losing family members easier (strange i know), i hope youre ok hun ***

Thanks Emma. I know how you feel about Squidge. Just reading your post now took me right back to the time I first wrote to you. My throat just started to close as all the pain I was feeling when I wrote to you then came right back full force. Squidge dying beside you, like Nicole had beside me, i know the anguish you went through when you woke up to that painful reality. All the best to you, Emma, always.