Does anybody think that some things happen for a reason??? I miss my baby chihuahua Hendrix so much! I've never dealt with loss like this before and its so painful. I feel so much guilt and sadness. He was only almost 4 years old! While i was gone christmas shopping the other day I came back and there were messages on the phone from my little brother's best friends mother. She said to come over right away because they had Hendrix and he was not doing well. I didnt realize the message was a couple hours old and when we got o their home nobody was there. Later when they got home from church they said that they had been driving by when they saw a neighbor dog with something in its mouth, that looked like a rabbit, but it was realy my Hendrix. They told me this big dog acted as though it didnt know Hendrix was a real dog but a toy, because he is so fluffy and small. They said they got him away from the big dog and he was fine at first, that they couldnt find any puncture wounds, but when they went to take him home to my empty house Hendrix would not move and he looked frozen like in shock and his legs wouldnt work. They took him to their home and there he started having great trouble breathing. They thought he might have punctured a lung. He struggled for two or three hours before he died, and this was only about an hour before i got home! I wish so badly i hadnt gone shopping. i dont need clothes or stupid objects i just need my baby! My brother hadnt brought his phone either so they werent able to contact us. I was just wondering if anyone beleives that things happen for a reason because i cant deal with this guilt. I know that if i had been there this wuldnt of happened and he would have held on longer because he loves me so much and he wouldnt have been so scared if he was with someone he knew. I can imagine how scared and hurt he was i wasnt even there.

Im so depressed and everything i do reminds me of him. I have two other chihuahuas, Hendrix's son and the mama. and they seem so sad all the time too. I went to get Hendrix cremated and it was so hard to say goodbye to his body. Its realy hard for me to realize that he's not with his body anymore, hes somewhere better. I love hima nd miss him and i cant get out of the house now. He realy was like my baby, not like a pet. What can i do to feel better? I dont want to try and forget him because thats impossible and he will always be my baby but i need suggestions for helping me not feel like this it just hurts way too bad and im so tired of crying.

OMG!!!
What a terrible thing to happen to Hendrix. By the way I love the picture.
At least he had someone with him for his passing to the Rainbow Bridge.

Yes, to answer. I do believe EVERYTHING that happens is for a reason and he must have had a special calling. He must have been chosen for a special purpose. I believe that is what happened to my Sissycat. Why else would a health, happy, full of life cat only 2 years old be chosen?

Maybe posting here and talking with everyone, you can talk about how you feel, stories of Hendrix, rant, rave, whatever you choose. That usually helps some. Crying---yes alot of crying!!!!

I was curious was the attack in your yard? If so was the other dog off the leash?

Talk more when you feel up to it.

Hugs to and you angel Hendrix!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hendrix must have run off out of the yard because it happened in our behind neighbors yard. Their dogs were off their leash and their owner was talking with my neighbor who found him in the road. I realy do hope he is in a great place now. He was so happy and playful and silly. Its only been 2 days since this happened and i am so crushed i just feel like i need someone to talk to who can relate. Hendrix was the sweetest little guy. He would sleep with me and cuddle on my neck. He loved to be outside. Im so glad a still have one of his babies, even though they look nothing alike he still reminds me of Hendrix and it makes me sad, but happy at the same time.

Can dogs cry? My two other dogs' eyes have been so watery and they have been moping. I feel like a lot of the people around me dont understand that he wasnt 'just a dog'. he was my baby, like my own child. I loved and will always love him unconditionaly like the way he loved me and would jump up and down like 2 feet in the air when i got home. I miss how he would take every treat and put them in a pile under the table and guard them. I miss how he played with my other dogs and his noises that were so cute. I miss how he would automatically roll onto him back so i could rub his belly when i picked him up and the look on his face when he was about to fall asleep.

I felt so terrible taking him to the place to get cremated. It was like i was abandoning him there even though it was just his body, the way he looked he still looked completely alive and i could swear i kept seeing his eyes move though i realy didnt. I just worry about them treating his body with respect and not like just an object. The guy at the cremation place seemed sympathetic, but barely spoke anything but business and it only took 5 or 10 minutes. I didnt feel like i waanted to leave my baby there. I had to go back and see him one more time but it hurt so bad and i cried so much. I just dont understand why his life was so short. I hope so badly i will get to be with him again someday.

This is Hendrix in the summer when he went and played in the mud and him with a big bunch of his puppies curled up. he was so sweet

You have come to the right place. The people here are so wonderful. If it were not for this place I just don't know what I would have done. Been little over 6 months for me. I am not healed, but well on my way. Thanks to everyone. Listening to us rant, rave, ramble, and cry. That is what LS is for.
Some of your words match mine exactly. I know what you mean by some people not understanding. Like people at my work. While I was grieving they would say that is just a cat get over it or just get a new one. WHAT????
You don't just replace a person!! My pets are like my kids. Especially Sissycat. I have her 2 sisters and mother, but I had that special bond with her. Some people just do not understand that. I don't know how but that is just the way it is.

I am sure Hendrix is at the Rainbow Bridge with all our furbabies. Have you read the Rainbow Bridge poem?

For me I post a note to my Sissycat every Thursday. Even if it is just a quick Ilove you and miss you. It gives me satisfaction.

When you are ready to share stories would love to hear them.

Those pics are so beautiful. Very hundsome young man!!!!!!!!!

Hugs to you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would like to offer my deepest sympathy, in the loss of your baby Hendrix. What happened to Hendrix was a horrific accident. And often times in life, we will never understand what or why it happened. But maybe something can be done, so there aren't loose dogs running around in your area. This is a dangerous situation for other animals and humans as well. It's up to you now to protect your other dogs from harm. Possibly contacting animal control in your area, can prevent another innocent animal from losing their life.

Thank goodness Hendrix was found by some very caring people.

There have been several posters here that have lost their pets in a traumatic manner. Hopefully, they will be able to offer you some words of advice, and comfort you.

I lost my little girl, Chica on Sunday. She was also a Chihuahua. She was only 1 1/2 years old. I have cried and cried and cried. I've been asking the Why? question a lot in the last few days, but sadly there's no answer for that question. I have the guilt that your talking about. I keep wondering, Maybe I should have taken her for a second opinion, maybe if we had taken her straight to the ER instead of listening to the vet, there are a whole lot of what if's. I think that's probably normal. We can't predict the future and you had no way of knowing that your baby was going to be taken away that day. You going shopping did not cause it and even if you were home, you may not have been able to prevent it. Life is cruel that way.

It seems you and I are going through very similar tragedies at the same time, we both have lost beautiful little Chihuahua's that meant the world to us. Maybe we can help each other get through this? You have 2 other Chi baby's that need you. I also have another Chi, her name is Tequila. I saw the pictures you posted of your little guy, he was very cute. I would love to see pic's of your other babies, whenever you feel like posting some.

Take care and know that your not alone.

Hugs,
Helen

I am so sorry to read about Hendrix. From your description and also from the precious pictures you posted, I can see he is definitely a real sweetheart. Does anything happen for a reason?
I don't know that answer ...all I can think of to say is I don't think I could ever think of a reason why things like this happen to a baby who wants nothing more than to give out unconditional love and is full of love and life and shares it with all around him. That's the cruel part of life I do not understand.

I am sure your other dogs are missing Hendrix...they know something is going on. But in time I am sure they will be okay.

As far as you crying....that is a natural reaction and we cry a lot when it is a recent loss and then we cry some more until we are exhausted. The pain comes from missing him and everything you mentioned remembering about him. That is why it takes a lot of time for the pain to not be so overwhelming. Maybe that's the time we kind of "accept" what happened instead of being in such shock we are in disbelief it did happen.

I am glad you have your other babies...that helps so very much..their just being there and not having the home completely empty.

You take one day at a time..and get through each day that way. Writing here helps, posting pictures as you have done helps...you do what makes you feel better to do...even if it is just a little better.

One favorite Mom's saying I have helps me....she said: The pain of losing him will never ever be greater than the joy of knowing him. I find strength in that thought and I agree with it completely and when the pain comes....I try to push it away with a good memory. In time, we just become so thankful for the good memories...it is easier to not think of the sad ones. It does us no good to only think sad thoughts. We do a lot at first but then in time they become less intense.

I wish you peace and healing. Remember....one day at a time.....

Judy

Earlier today a dear friend of mine, here at LS, emailed me to let me know what happened to your sweet baby Hendrix. I was horrified after reading what had happened. My heart goes out to you because I know how deeply traumitized you are. As my tears fall down my cheeks, I am fighting the image of what must have gone on. You can't blame yourself for what you did not know. How were you to know that if you went shopping that this would ever happen?

Each of us here have felt guilty after a furry or feathered love dies. All of here have said, "I shoulda or coulda or what if this or that." We want it not to hurt so bad and after thinking through all of this we become guilt ridden because we just can't make sense of it. Your world has been turned completely upside down. This journey of healing that you have just begun is long one. All the tears you are shedding right now are necessary. Let them flow and don't hold back.

I didn't find LS until two months after my Goliath passed away. It's been just over a year since Goliath passed away so suddenly in my arms. I thought my life and reason for living died right along with Goliath. For two months all I could do was cry and I felt numb, only existing and in some kind of haze. It was here at LS that I found acceptance of Goliath's death. I found that I was able to start taking baby steps toward healing and picking up the pieces of my broken heart.
It was here I found the hope I needed to find courage and move on. I also found inspiration and a will to love and live again. You too will find all of this as you walk the road to healing and recovering. The missing never stops. Over time though the painful part of your grief will lessen as the happy memories you made with Hendrix begin to surface more and more.

May you be blessed with peace and comfort during this ever so sad time of your life.

Hugs of comfort and love from my heart to yours,
Beth