Today marks the second bridgeday anniversary of Leibchen's passing . I don't see how it could be so...but it is. I am kinda numb and don't have anything to say that I haven't already said. I have never been in a place like this emotionally and hope she understands that I wrote this dedication to her with as much effort and emotion that I could fathom. I don't seem to have anything left. I love you Leibchen. You are always on my mind, in my prayers and not far from my dreams. This is for you my "little daughter".

Two Years Without You.....

Two years without you
It seems like only yesterday...
When I think about the day we met
Of treasured memories through the years
Up until your last moment on earth and yet
My last image of you so hazy, just a blur
...my hands feeling what I could not see, blinded by my tears

Two years without you
Nothing seems the same...
Your memory lingers everywhere, though I know you are now free
Wishing just to see you once
In the places you used to be
I suppose I owe you an apology
The time I called the new puppy and she came to me
...when I called your name

Two years without you
Love may come and love may go...
But, your love stayed so true
My years filled with disappointments and trials
I could not have braved it all as well
If it had not been for you
That love now lives within my heart, forever it will dwell
...time will never fade my love, surely you must know

Two years without you
Things have surely changed...
Life goes on in spite of pain
I have learned and passed this test
Day by day I venture on, without you by my side
I don't think I could love again, my heart just needs a rest
With my world and emotions lost and time just here to bide
...chaos and confusion constantly re-arranged

Two years without you
Oh, how could that be true...
I thought you would never leave
Well, at least not for a few more years
I wasn't ready to let you go, now left alone to grieve
Was it really your time to go, could that be why I failed
While I fought so hard to keep you here, lost inside my fears
...you sailed on despite it all, I wonder if you knew

Two years without you
I'll love you forever and a day...
The could have been's, should be's and the why's
All over now and gone, with a sadness I won't disguise
But, a spark, somehow rekindled, by another so much like you
She carries on your testament, as only you would do
I am reassured of your immortal love when I gaze into her eyes
...my days now, not as lonely...'twas you that sent her my way

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Not goodbye.....just until
Marmy always comes back for you
Leibchen March 12,1994 - November 15,2006

Thank YOu for giving me hope that I can continue coming here after it reaches 2 years.

The pain never goes away completely, neither does the happy memories. A beautiful tribute to Lei Lei. There's a lot of us here that can feel everything you wrote as if it were our own words. Thanks for sharing. You are very lucky to have had eachother in your lives. .Ann

I know what you mean by 'not having anything left', concurrent with a lot of numbness. And yet you wrote a beautiful poem for your girl, one that you can be proud of, in order to share more 'pieces' of her with the world (here on LS anyway). I wish I could have done the same on my Nissa's 2 Year mark, but I was also so full of, as you said, wondering how it could even be so......

Two years is both no more than a few instants since, and yet also a nightmarish eternity, I know. Wishing you healing from within, somehow....

If ANYTHING good can come from my pain and misery...than so be it. If my words or thoughts can help someone, anyone, out there going through this, then I do feel better knowing that. Sometimes I think I just say these things to make myself feel better. But, more and more they actually do. So, thank you for all of your kind remarks and sentiments...they do help. As, I hope mine can, in any way, help you with yours. Just knowing that others feel and experience the same things I do, well, it does matter to me and I can have some relief just acknowledging that. Thank you all again and I hope you know that, I too, feel for each of you and also understand. Peace

Sometimes I think I just say these things to make myself feel better.

It may seem like that but when we read what others also say, we realize a very important thing..that we are not alone.

What helps us...we learn.....does help others too.

Thanks for sharing......it shows us all we never stand alone. And that what we share is amazingly similar.

Judy

HI I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL. I LOST SAMSON 8 YEAR'S AGO AND I NEVER HAVE FELT THE SAME AGAIN. I MISS HIM SO VERY MUCH. I WISH HE COULD COME BACK TO ME. HE WAS THE BEST COMPANION I EVER HAD. 24/7 HE WAS NEAR ME AND BY MY SIDE. WE WENT EVERYWHERE TOGETHER. I WILL NEVER FORGET ALL THE MEMORIES AND FUN TIMES WE HAD THRU ALL THE YEARS.HE WAS 16 YEAR'S OLD WHEN HE LEFT. THOSE 16 YEAR'S WENT BY WAY TO FAST. I WISH HE COULD HAVE LIVED ANOTHER 16 YEARS. I WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER MISS HIM AND LOVE HIM...