Within a period of two years, I lost both my dogs and a cat. It's important to know I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. This was not the case when I lost my animals. Charlie Brown was a typical sweet, goofy lab who loved swimming, chasing sticks, being with kids, overly friendly. If someone yelled "hey Charlie...wanna go for a ride" he would jump into anyone's car. But he was 16, had gone blind, partially deaf could no longer go out without great difficulty. This was a relatively easier decision. My cat, Mr. Ange was essentially killed by my now ( thank God ) ex-hiusband's dog who attacked him when he jumped off his food shelf, breaking his jaw. His mouh had to be wired closed, he wouldn't/couldn't eat. My vet said that the only thing that could be done would be to have a feeding tube inserted, which I just couldn't do. But my dog Jazzie, that is another story entirely.I got Jazz when she was a pup because my ex somehow got it in his head that he needed a German Shepherd. She was my dog from the start. Everyone should be so fortunate as to have a "once in a lifetime" dog, and she was mine. She NEVER took her eyes off me; would never have gone willingly with anyone else. But I was still drinking then, and the more I drank the sadder she became. I could see it both in her eyes and on her face. I put her life in jeopardy every time she was in the car with me because I either had been drinking ( most of the time ) or had a drink in my cup holder. She was only 7 yrs old but had already developed severe back degeneration, then acquired peri-&%^ fistula a genetic trait which shepards are predisposed to. I had her put to sleep. The main point in all this, besides of course the loss of my beloved animals, is that I COULD NOT

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hi , auntielinnie
i want to offer my sympathy for your losses
i am feeling with you
you are so right
everybody should have the fortunate of having a "once in a lifetime dog"
my dog was Freya, a boxer-girl, (1965-1975)
imagine, such a very long time ago
i still miss her so much
i want to hug her just one more time
keep posting, maybe you have a photo of your beloved pets
i would love to see them
all my best wishes
Eva

Dear (((((((AuntieLinnie))))))):

I am very sorry to hear about the losses of your precious furkids, Charlie Brown , Mr. Ange & Jazzie .
I can only imagine that losing your 3 beloved kids in two short years was extremely devastating, and my heart goes out to you.

Always remember that your babies will live on in your heart forever, and that they love YOU!

I would love to hear the rest of your story, whenever you feel you want to post it. There are a lot of wonderful people here who understand how you are feeling - I know that I do.

God Bless you for having the strength to have your furkids put to sleep when you saw that their quality of life was not good anymore.
As someone here once said to me, "You took on their pain so that they could finally be without pain" As much as it is heartbreaking for us, it really is the most loving thing that we can do for them when they are suffering.

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

God bless you and those you love,

Denise

Auntilinnie,I feel yor pain and loniness. A few years ago I had to release 2 dogs and a kitty from a life of pain within a few months. My house felt like a tomb. Death was everywhere. No one seemed to understand how devistated I was. It was before I had a computer and didn't know about how deeply pet loss affected so many people. I thought I was alone in my grief. This year on July25 I had to let my lab, Athena, go. She had cancer. It was the same kind of cancer one of my dogs had in 2003. I totally lost it. It brought back all the feelings during that time. I was so sad I didn't feel like I could go on. I had a computer and began to search pet loss and found I was not alone. It is helping me to learn how to deal with the loss. Just knowing other people care and feel the same love for pets as I do has helped me more than anything. I have found that writing about my feelings is theraputic. I have a journal I keep my thoughts and feelings in. If and when you feel like talking about it there are people who listen and care. I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful Jazzie, and your other fur babies. I am hoping you feel stronger soon. Hugs, Ava

I am so sorry for all the losses you have suffered in the past 2 yrs. I loved how you refered to your friend as a "once in a lifetime". You were truly blessed to have had that. They're all so special to us, but there's always that one, who touches us so deeply, we wonder how we could have lived without them, and how we will now have to carry on without them.. It's so very hard.. Many hugs to you.. Ann