I'm new to your Forum and I need supportive folks like you.
I've felt silly, that I've been able to accept deaths in my elderly family better than losing my dog. His name was "Wally Baxter". The full name had nothing to do with my last name or my fiancée's. He had to be euthanized after 2 years of Phenobarbital pills and tests. He was not the typical pure breed, hyperactive Bichon Frise. One day, he had the most violent Grand Mal seizure. I knew that's what it was immediately. Then, he'd be well for a long time. Sometimes, dogs have a few episodes and this brain storm never occurs again.
Wally's life was so special because I could not have any children. He was loved by children, he made the meanest old man happy. He just had that zest for life. When we were sick, he knew it, and comforted me. He listened, and he enjoyed learning. I miss him. People say, "Well, I would never have a pure breed dog because they are susceptible", but he's really not high on the list. I looked on sites of animals having seizures and none of them compared to the violence he experienced. Well, after nights without sleep, because he was so scared of what was happening to him, lost time from work...we saw him just not respond to all the medications. Wally needed so much good care, that we lost our own abilities to follow-up with dental appointments, doctor appointments, so they'd help us by putting him in "day care for dogs" right at the Vet's office.
It hurts. He had 12 Grand Mal seizures in less than 24 hours, he just was suffering too much and went straight to heaven with our help.
More another time. I am sorry if I have "Triggered" old wounds for any of you. I'm new here. My name is Michele.
Thanks for the space.
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Hey Michele---------Just lost my beloved pal on 9-3-08.This is one of the few places I know of where people understand your grief.We are all hurting here.Wally is still around in that next dimension.Google 'The Rainbow Bridge' for some comfort.Wally is there waiting patiently for you.Desire creates attachment which creates universe.God bless Wally.C U at the party on the BRIDGE................BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peace and Light..............Bubba..................
Peace and Light..............Bubba..................
QUOTE (Bubba @ Sep 22 2008, 09:42 PM) 
Hey Michele---------Just lost my beloved pal on 9-3-08.This is one of the few places I know of where people understand your grief.We are all hurting here.Wally is still around in that next dimension.Google 'The Rainbow Bridge' for some comfort.Wally is there waiting patiently for you.Desire creates attachment which creates universe.God bless Wally.C U at the party on the BRIDGE................BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peace and Light..............Bubba..................
Peace and Light..............Bubba..................
Hi Michele..I am so deeply sorry for your loss. You did the right thing. Wally is thanking you. Sounds like you found a special friend. He will be forever in your hearts. Please post more stories and pictures when you are ready. Just remember he is in a pain free and safe place now.. Hugs. Ann
QUOTE (pogo_pdx @ Sep 22 2008, 08:03 PM)
I'm new to your Forum and I need supportive folks like you.
I've felt silly, that I've been able to accept deaths in my elderly family better than losing my dog. His name was "Wally Baxter". The full name had nothing to do with my last name or my fiancée's. He had to be euthanized after 2 years of Phenobarbital pills and tests. He was not the typical pure breed, hyperactive Bichon Frise. One day, he had the most violent Grand Mal seizure. I knew that's what it was immediately. Then, he'd be well for a long time. Sometimes, dogs have a few episodes and this brain storm never occurs again.
Wally's life was so special because I could not have any children. He was loved by children, he made the meanest old man happy. He just had that zest for life. When we were sick, he knew it, and comforted me. He listened, and he enjoyed learning. I miss him. People say, "Well, I would never have a pure breed dog because they are susceptible", but he's really not high on the list. I looked on sites of animals having seizures and none of them compared to the violence he experienced. Well, after nights without sleep, because he was so scared of what was happening to him, lost time from work...we saw him just not respond to all the medications. Wally needed so much good care, that we lost our own abilities to follow-up with dental appointments, doctor appointments, so they'd help us by putting him in "day care for dogs" right at the Vet's office.
It hurts. He had 12 Grand Mal seizures in less than 24 hours, he just was suffering too much and went straight to heaven with our help.
More another time. I am sorry if I have "Triggered" old wounds for any of you. I'm new here. My name is Michele.
Thanks for the space.
I've felt silly, that I've been able to accept deaths in my elderly family better than losing my dog. His name was "Wally Baxter". The full name had nothing to do with my last name or my fiancée's. He had to be euthanized after 2 years of Phenobarbital pills and tests. He was not the typical pure breed, hyperactive Bichon Frise. One day, he had the most violent Grand Mal seizure. I knew that's what it was immediately. Then, he'd be well for a long time. Sometimes, dogs have a few episodes and this brain storm never occurs again.
Wally's life was so special because I could not have any children. He was loved by children, he made the meanest old man happy. He just had that zest for life. When we were sick, he knew it, and comforted me. He listened, and he enjoyed learning. I miss him. People say, "Well, I would never have a pure breed dog because they are susceptible", but he's really not high on the list. I looked on sites of animals having seizures and none of them compared to the violence he experienced. Well, after nights without sleep, because he was so scared of what was happening to him, lost time from work...we saw him just not respond to all the medications. Wally needed so much good care, that we lost our own abilities to follow-up with dental appointments, doctor appointments, so they'd help us by putting him in "day care for dogs" right at the Vet's office.
It hurts. He had 12 Grand Mal seizures in less than 24 hours, he just was suffering too much and went straight to heaven with our help.
More another time. I am sorry if I have "Triggered" old wounds for any of you. I'm new here. My name is Michele.
Thanks for the space.
Dearest Michelle, you have come to the right place. We had to euthanize one of kitties, our wild-child 'Elliott Bin Laden". It's been 9 days now and I don't think I could have gotten through it without this site, without the lovely, kind people on this site. I too, am without children, so my husband and I tend to place all our nurturing, affectionate behavior on our animals (they don't seem to mind
I'm truly sorry for your loss. Animals I think are one of the greatest gifts that our creator gave to us. Life would be far less interesting and enjoyable without them.
keep coming here and venting---I promise you, you will receive much needed support.
Warmly,
Mikki
It hurts. He had 12 Grand Mal seizures in less than 24 hours, he just was suffering too much and went straight to heaven with our help.
I am so sorry about Wally. I had a 3 year old Boxer/Shepherd many years ago who developed epilepsy. There was no medications, no cure and when the seizures became multiple per week instead of one a month, I let her go. She was fine other than her seizures. It is heartbreaking.
I see by the 12 Grand Mal you described..there is no doubt you did the right thing for Wally.
And..just because it is the right decision really never makes it any easier.
You did all you could for him and he knew that. That is all we can do and our final gift to them is to make sure they pass peacefully..if we are given the opportunity.
Of course the pain is terrible when we lose them but that is cause we do miss them so much. They are a part of us and our lives and all of a sudden there is an emptiness we don't know how to fill.
Healing takes time and starts with baby steps. At first, we just grieve and cry until we are exhausted..and then sometimes...do it all over again.
Eventually, we may find that does not make us feel better and so we try to push the grief aside and concentrate on the happy, healthy days...using photos helps... In time, the pain will become bearable but it really takes time.
When it gets really bad....remember why he had to go...what he was going through...that will help somewhat.
And know, that being here, you are never alone. Come here anytime and post your feelings, your thoughts, your questions...anything that helps you. We are always listening.
Hugs to your family and a special Hug for that special new Boy Angel..named Wally
I am so sorry about Wally. I had a 3 year old Boxer/Shepherd many years ago who developed epilepsy. There was no medications, no cure and when the seizures became multiple per week instead of one a month, I let her go. She was fine other than her seizures. It is heartbreaking.
I see by the 12 Grand Mal you described..there is no doubt you did the right thing for Wally.
And..just because it is the right decision really never makes it any easier.
You did all you could for him and he knew that. That is all we can do and our final gift to them is to make sure they pass peacefully..if we are given the opportunity.
Of course the pain is terrible when we lose them but that is cause we do miss them so much. They are a part of us and our lives and all of a sudden there is an emptiness we don't know how to fill.
Healing takes time and starts with baby steps. At first, we just grieve and cry until we are exhausted..and then sometimes...do it all over again.
Eventually, we may find that does not make us feel better and so we try to push the grief aside and concentrate on the happy, healthy days...using photos helps... In time, the pain will become bearable but it really takes time.
When it gets really bad....remember why he had to go...what he was going through...that will help somewhat.
And know, that being here, you are never alone. Come here anytime and post your feelings, your thoughts, your questions...anything that helps you. We are always listening.
Hugs to your family and a special Hug for that special new Boy Angel..named Wally
Hi, Michelle, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the loss of your precious Wally. Losing a beloved companion is never easy no matter what the cir%%stances are or how long we have been blessed with the privilege of their company. This grief journey is one of the most painful experiences we can have on this side of eternity - - both physically and emotionally. But it is one that you do not have to travel alone. Each of us here knows first hand the loss of a beloved companion, and we are here for you for as long and as often as you need us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Michelle, and please let us know how you're doing.
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Peace and blessings,
moon_beam
Michelle Welcome to our group. There are so many people here willing to help us heal. Most all of us have been there at least once.
I makes me sad to hear you have lost your much loved pet Wally, but on the other hand I am so glad you could help him go in peace. He is in a place where there is no more worries, suffering, old bodies. He is new again, happy, and healthy.
I can relate with what you said about the pain you feel for loosing a pet and the pain from a human loss. My furbaby Sissycat went to the Rainbow Bridge on June 5th of this year and my step-dad passed on June 25 this year. The pain was so different. I felt guilty for feeling more pain for my cat than for the loss of my stap dad. Some people on here say it was because I was with Sissycat everyday. (she was like my kid). I don't know.
Anyway we are here for you as everyone has been here for us.
Hugs to you and your Angel Wally
I makes me sad to hear you have lost your much loved pet Wally, but on the other hand I am so glad you could help him go in peace. He is in a place where there is no more worries, suffering, old bodies. He is new again, happy, and healthy.
I can relate with what you said about the pain you feel for loosing a pet and the pain from a human loss. My furbaby Sissycat went to the Rainbow Bridge on June 5th of this year and my step-dad passed on June 25 this year. The pain was so different. I felt guilty for feeling more pain for my cat than for the loss of my stap dad. Some people on here say it was because I was with Sissycat everyday. (she was like my kid). I don't know.
Anyway we are here for you as everyone has been here for us.
Hugs to you and your Angel Wally
Michele-----We are all here for ya pal.Your babys' name is Wally and my kids' name is Willy.A Happy go-lucky 70+ lb. British Bulldog.Like you We were not blessed with any human babies.We have had 4 Bullies and We loved them all.Willy was our first and is my 'Heart Dog'.His passing is harder to deal with than the passing of my parents whom I dearly loved as well.Lily our 16 month old is the only one left now.She's a real firecracker.Love her bunches.Hard to think about parenting any more babies at the moment but our breeder(a real earth mother) is thinking after her 3rd 'season'( she is in her 2nd now) it may be time for her to be a mommy.The emotions are flyin' like kites in the wind around here.God bless your beautiful Wally.Every day that passes is one day closer to you and Wally being together forever.This life is a mere blip on the cosmic radar screen......Eternity is a pretty long stretch according to the rumors.
Peace and light buddy---------------Bubba................
Peace and light buddy---------------Bubba................
Thanks for the Warm Welcome.
I posted a new Subject and didn't get a chance to reply to some of the Wisdom some of you replied to. I believe there is a special place for him, our Wally, who was so bright. I know he is running somewhere without a care in the world. Perhaps all of our pets our "babies", "kids" are there. That helps me. I just know God has a place where all of our lost ones are...and I'll see all my lost pets. A special "thanks" to Bubba understanding what it is when you can't have children of your own and a pet takes on those same feelings....I think there is a glint of something special about that but I know each person here from the posts I've read love there pets like children too.
Thank you,
Pogo_pdx
I posted a new Subject and didn't get a chance to reply to some of the Wisdom some of you replied to. I believe there is a special place for him, our Wally, who was so bright. I know he is running somewhere without a care in the world. Perhaps all of our pets our "babies", "kids" are there. That helps me. I just know God has a place where all of our lost ones are...and I'll see all my lost pets. A special "thanks" to Bubba understanding what it is when you can't have children of your own and a pet takes on those same feelings....I think there is a glint of something special about that but I know each person here from the posts I've read love there pets like children too.
Thank you,
Pogo_pdx
Michele,
I am happy you found this place of solace but very sorry that cir%%stances led you here. Wally sounds like a very special furkid who was much loved. You were very kind to put his welfare ahead of your own feelings. It is always so hard to say goodbye even in cases where there is no hope of a cure or successful treatment. It sounds as if you did all you could do to help Wally live a normal life but some things are just not in our hands to control. My deepest sympathy goes out to you all on your loss. May Wally run free and happy at Rainbow Bridge until you meet again.
Ken Albin
I am happy you found this place of solace but very sorry that cir%%stances led you here. Wally sounds like a very special furkid who was much loved. You were very kind to put his welfare ahead of your own feelings. It is always so hard to say goodbye even in cases where there is no hope of a cure or successful treatment. It sounds as if you did all you could do to help Wally live a normal life but some things are just not in our hands to control. My deepest sympathy goes out to you all on your loss. May Wally run free and happy at Rainbow Bridge until you meet again.
Ken Albin
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