This is my senior year in college. My kitty Joshua was in my life and passed during my 2nd year of college. i just cremated him this summer. Acorn was living during my junior year and passed this summer. i cremated him beside joshua. its hard to keep myself together and breath right just writing it. on top of that my sister's kitty sebastian who was my shoulder to cry on when acorn passed went to meet acorn at the bridge not long after. there has been so much pet loss around me this sad summer. 4 of my rats went to the rainbow bridge this summer. i lost so much this summer. im going back to college sun. just realizing how much this summer has taken from me, how much its taken from others. i dont know how to come back this thurs for the weekend and to visit for the rest of the year and not be greeted by acorn's face lighting up and him being all over me while dodging spike the dog jumping on the bed happily lol(they were so funny making me feel welcome). just thinking of it hurts and i dont know how to prepare myself for it. all through the school year i missed acorn more than anyone or anything else. sometimes i came home just to see him.i never fell that hard. i looked at his pic on my wall and he was in my prayers every night. just when i come home to him finally he has to go to rainbow bridge. fate can be so terrible. he was only 1 year old and i was planning to move him into an apartment with me after college. now i feel like so much in life that would have brought such joy is just empty now. i shook his urn to just know he was with me in some way, joshua's too. i am at such a low point right now. all i have to greet me when i come home is urns with rattling contents. i am greatful for the pets and loved ones that do greet me but they arent acorn. its so hard to move on.

with love corina and her angles

Hi Corina and her angels, tears are flowing reading your post. I just don't know if there is anything I can say to bring you even the smallest of comfort. I know all too well that "emptiness". I hope you can concentrate on your school work best you can to create a little distance from your thoughts. Try to train your mind that when you come home and are greeted by happy furry faces, that you feel happy furry spirits around you to warm your heart. If love hurts so much then why do we love at all?? Why does life have to throw us curve balls so many at a time. There's reasons for this, there just has to be. I know you'll be busy, but please visit from time to time and let us know how you are doing. Even if you feel like falling apart or just saying hello to your angels. take care.. BIG HUG.. Ann

thank you ann. it touches me that you can feel my words to the point of tears. i will try to concentrate on my work and try to be more social like i was before. its just hard to get back to that. i dont feel like being like my old self like everyone expects me to be. i have a single room so its easier to keep to myself. this weekend i will bring some of my pets up from home. i will try to open myself to feel the furry spirits welcoming me home. thank you for that advice. i feel there has to be reasons why we love and lose too. i just hope we get to see all those we've lost when its our time. i will make time to visit. this place and everyone here gets me through. thank you so much for being the only one to respond to my posting. that means so much

with love corina and her angels

I am so sorry for all of your losses this year. Losing one kitty is bad enough but losing several little ones precious to you is unimaginable to me.

They are never far from your thoughts and that the best tribute to them.

Take care,
Janet

I am very sorry that you have had to endure such loss in such a small time. All of my cats are the same age and it is an everyday battle for me not to mire in the what if's...other solid regular posters here have endured the same and have exhibited a great deal of strength. I hope that you can find some solace in the everyday hustle and bustle of college life during your time of grief. After the initial shock, I got in alot of overtime at work. It never completely takes it from your mind, but it makes the day bearable. I hope you find peace...

Sarah

thank you janet. that is such a sweet thing to say. thank you for caring. that means alot to me

with love corina and her angels

thank you sarah. your kitty pic is so adorable. i jus fall in love with that face. i did fall into the busy with hw and being busy with a stomach virus(ugh) at school but now that im home for the weekend, i feel all of the intense sadness rushing back. i hope you and your kitties spend lots of happy years together. thank you so much for caring.

with love corina and her angels

i'm home now. i knew it would be hard. i felt that my angel acorn sent me a reminder that he was with me as i almost got home. i was changing the stations on the radio as i was driving and the song i sang to him as he passed was on. it was 8:21pm. he passed on the 21st. with him 12 and 21 have been significant. i knew he was sending me a sign. that made me smile and tear up. i thanked him. that helped alot. tonight though i was in the garage searching for a carrier to take my kitty flower back to school in. i picked up a carrier and looked in at the towels. immediately i smelled the scent on the towels and realized it was the carrier acorn used to go to the vet and my sis's house his last day alive. it still smelled like he did when he was sick. the lil branch of pine tree i'd put in it for luck was still in it. oh gosh i have been crying since.i played his songs. i broke down. i miss him so much.all your support is very comforting. thank you.

Dearest Openhearted, I had signed off my PC for the night and something told me to sign back on and get over here. Now I know why. Oh My Gosh, my eyes and my heart both are crying for you and your fur baby Acorn. It's hard and it hurts so bad. Oh, how I know that. I can feel you on the other side of the screen filled with so much pain and sorrow. Hon, is there anything I can do for you? A song? Poem? Make some lovely and loving images? Those things I can do and feel they may give you some comfort. God Bless You!

In the meantime, please know that you and your cherished fur baby Acorn remain in my thoughts and prayers. Winging many Angels to comfort and guide you at this gosh awful difficult time, Dear One.

Many Comforting Hugs to You and Your Fur Baby Angels!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

More Comforting Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

thank you so much dottie. you are already doing alot to help me feel better just by showing you care. that means alot to me. thank you for the picture and the song which im listening to right now. it makes me teary that you can feel me and that is comforting. thank you for your kindness.

with love corina and her angels