Hello Everyone,

I've continued to read everyones stories about your losses, and I always feel your pain, and know exactly what you are going through. Reading about your losses,, always brings me back to losing Scooter two years ago today to kidney disease.

I feel kind of lost and numb at the same time today. I can't believe that two years have gone by so fast. I never thought that I would survive the pain and loss of our Scooter. Every morning when I get up, I say good morning to Scooter as I turn off his nightlight in our bathroom. Every morning, he used to come charging into the bathroom to drink from the sink as I turned the water on to brush my teeth. Without fail he was always there. He is always in our hearts, and some of you may remember that my husband and I built a memorial garden in one of our flower beds, complete with a bridge and various creatures from garden centers and angels were placed there. Kind of our own Rainbow Bridge. We completed it exactly one year ago. It's flowers change from year to year, depending on what we find or want to plant. That garden is our reminder as we look out on it all year long, that our Scooter is always with us. On the days when I feel as though he has left us completely, there will be a rainbow, or there will be a cat on TV that looks exactly like Scooter used to.

The other day, we dropped off some extra pet bowls and beds that we ha to our local animal shelter, and saw a kitten that looked so much like Scooter, that my husband had to drag me away before we adopted a 7th kittie.

Today has been difficult, and the week leading up to the second anniversary of our losing him. This morning, I had the most awful dreams before I woke up and I was crying in these dreams. I could not wake up, as much as I wanted to. I would kind of wake, then fall back to sleep, and into the same awful dream about loss and death of a loved one. It seemed so real, and my tears were real when I finally was able to wake up from my awful dream. I forced myself up out of bed, and eventually just started crying, a continuation from my awful dream. I've no idea where the dream came from, but it has stuck with me, and I will have to tell my husband about it when he gets home, or else, I will dream it again.

I guess I'm just rambling on and not making much sense, but today just doesn't feel normal at all, everything is out of sync and I am lost and alone. That's why I came here. When we lost Scooter, I found this site, and it helped me through so much of the pain, and helped me to vent at the indifference of those that thought I should be over Scooters loss. There was such sadness, that I didn't even want to get up, eat, or even function. I just wanted to pull the covers up over my head, and not exist anymore. Without this site, and the comfort and understanding of everyone here, I'd have probably gone crazy.

I have posted in new beginnings before, about the new additions to our family. Little Marel, and Astro and Dante all came along, and there is love enough for all of them. They get us through our days, and seem to know just when I need a cuddle from one of them (which is often).

Our two grandsons have been an added blessing that have added to our joy and keep us going. I guess what I am trying to say, is that, things do get better with time. You can expect setbacks from time to time, and that is normal. Today I have relived every moment of that awful day two years ago, not by choice, but by what choice we had to make for Scooter. He was only 5 years old, not quite 6.

We remember him with our pictures, and the video that we had unexpectedly found of him, on tape, a true treasure.

To all of you, I send you my hugs and best thoughts and prayers, that you get through one day at a time. This site will help you, as it help me.

Love to all of you,

Scooters Mom, Trish

Click to view attachmentHi Trish, how are you tonight? how are you feeling? I know that even though it has been a bit while since you have lost Scooters and completly understand what you and your husband went thru. I too went thru very difficult and sad times and at the end we couldn't fight anymore and that is I think 'cause God had other plans for him and desired to take him up to Heaven where there's no more pain just love, Blessins from Buster uo above and from down here Trixie, BJ and I Jorge Here are my two new angels, Trixie and BJ.

Your Scooter was a beautiful cat. Looks very similar to my Boogie Cat I have now.
My loss was about 5 1/2 weeks ago and I just can't imagine making it to the 2 year anniversary. It makes me feel better to know that we all will eventually make it there. Even with all the set backs.

It is good that you can open your heart to so many kitties. I still have four, but when the time is right and I find just the right kitten I will adopt another.

Once again Scooter was very beautiful!!!!!!!!

I think Joanne said everything so well, I can't add much to that.

Just to say I understand how you are feeling. Even though my Little Guy left in September of 2007, there were many before him and I remember and miss each one. And so, I can understand about years going by but the memory is still alive.

We will love them forever and miss them forever and no matter how much time has passed, we never know when that pain we thought we buried just jumps up and bites us. But as we know
from before, we are allowed to grieve whenever we feel we need to. Because the love is always there, the pain of losing them will also be there. We do go on and if we can heal to the point that we remember the good happy times they were with us and the things they did...as your story about the bathroom sink....then again..we have done the best we can and as you show by your other ones...there is enough room in our hearts for others....but each one has a special place in our hearts that belongs to only them alone.

Take care. I hope your dreams become only of the sweet times.

Judy

Oh, I almost forgot...you wouldn't have a picture of your Rainbow Bridge around that you could post here, would you? It just sounds so beautiful....flowers..angels.... do you have one you can share?

As you remember Shortrish on this 2nd Angelversary, I wish you comfort and peace as you rejoice in the memories the two of you shared together. The choice you made for Shortrish 2 years ago was one that was the very best for him. You showed the most ultimate kind of love in putting his needs first and yours last. He knew that you would always take care of all his needs, including sparing his pain. You were willing to take his pain for him. What a magificent and loving Mom you are.

Much love,
Beth

Thank you to all who replied to my post. Today has been better than yesterday. It seems that both my husband and I couldn't just get anything straight, including our walking. We both were out of sync yesterday and ended up both walking to the same spot at the same time. Needless to say, two people cannot occupy the same space at the same time, without dire cir%%stances. We were both thinking of Scooters 2ns anniversary. In a way, it was kind of comical the way we both went crashing in opposite directions. Thankfully we both landed on somthing soft, but my little toe paid the price.. They I tried to go to bed later that night, and wrecked my other little toe. So, I was pretty preocuppied yesterday.

I remember Scooter everyday, and my husband and I talk about the silly things that our little guy used to do. When my husband would hold Scooter, Scooter would always, and I mean always, bury his head into my husbands armpit. His little head would completely disappear into his armpit, and was completely obsessed with it. I wish I'd taken a picture of it, because it surely would have made all of you laugh. We have never forgotten that though, and the picture of him doing that is forever in our hearts.

It is true, that our animals seem to find us, or there are our four footed angels looking out for us from above, guiding these new pets into our lives, because they know we need them, and they need us, and will find all the love and care that they will need from us.

I will try and find the picture of my memorial rainbow bridge and post it here. Hope it is the right picture.

Remember, the pain will lessen eventually, and what will remain is the love an happy times that you and I shared with our beloved pets.

Love and hugs to all,

Scooters Mom

Hi,
I think I chose the wrong picture to download of Scooters Memorial Garden. I will search and post the right picture.

Scooters Mom

I hope you are doing better and I still think about seeing that picture of Scooter's Memorial Garden.

Take care and let us know how you are.