my gosh where do i begin? i didnt ever think i would find myself back here again posting about losing another memebr of my furkids...ive posted to offer to support for others..but now i find myself here again for support...god help me i need it..

we lost our beloved tee bone on friday may 23,2008 due to kidney faliure as a direct result from lyme disease that settled in her kidneys unbeknownst to us. she was treated for it back in january and her titer came back negative after spending 6 weeks on an anitbiotic.

this was a positive titer for lyme in january even with frontline 12 months a year . we never stopped the frontline on either doggie. goes to prove that even forntline is not 100%.


i am so lonely without her..she was my world, my everything. i can hardly breathe..i loved her so much and now shes gone. she passed in our arms.
i was so blessed to have her in my life.
i was blessed to call her my pet soul mate.
she was tailor made to fit my soul.
she completed me.

now i am in pieces trying to pick them up. i cant. i cant comfort anyone in my home. we are all a mess..

gosh this is so hard.....i just want to go to a mountian and sceam my head off...i want my pup pup back...

Michelle, I am so sorry about your loss of Tee Bone. There is nothing so painful as losing a treasured member of our family. I wish there was an easy way to get around all the pain and grief we feel...........but there is no where to go except through it. You've been through alot in having lost two furkids. Sometimes I have said "no more........I can't take another heartbreak". Then I realize I can't say no more because I would then be depriving myself of all the joy and happiness they bring into my heart and home. My joy and happiness far outweighs the grief. The memories are mine and will stay with me forever.

As you know, it takes alot of time to work through the grief and pain we feel after a furkid has passed away. I don't think I'll ever get over losing Goliath so suddenly. The memories he and I made together over the years dwell in my heart. His spirit is all around me and in me.

May you be blessed with comfort and joy in having known such a special love of your life and give thanks. You and Tee Bone have a love connection that binds you forever. Nothing can ever take your sweet times away that you and she shared together.

Hugs of comfort to you Michelle from my heart to yours.

i am so very sorry, i am thinking of tee bone and you.
i can only offer my sympathy
sincerely
Eva

PS.: i remember you
i have been wondering a lot about the photo, your avatar.
please let me know the name of this very special cat, when you are ready.
that cat is looking at me, i don`t know, looking through me, like knowing just everything about me,
this cat is fascinating me.

Your furbaby is beautiful. They stay in your hearts forever and you never forget them. I wish your baby so much peace and happiness at rainbow bridge, and one day you will both be together soon. I know that I wwill see my William again when my time is up in this world and I will look forward to that.

I'm so sorry for your loss at this time and understand how you feel right now. My pain is also very raw at this time too.


Peace to you and your family at this great time of sorry.


Williams Mummy ***

Michelle, I know how painful this is for you and I am very sorry for your loss. What it really hurts me is that after so much love and support we give to our Kid's Pets someday they have to live us for short time until we meet again, I am also going thru tough time with my son Buster he is very sick and I am trying to save his life, God Bless you for giving so much love to the special tee bone and am sure he knew how much you loved him too, you can count on us for anything at anytime because we all be here for you, Jorge.

I am so sorry about tbone. Do you have a picture of him to post? Your avatar kitty is beautiful but I believe from your post that tbone is a doggie furbaby. Can you tell us some sweet stories of him? You have been here before and also helped others and you know it helps to talk.

Hugs to you at this time and please tell us about your baby boy.

her name was kitten, i know.. but it stuck when i called her that from the first day i got her. she lived 18 long years with us.a queens life...yes and you are right she had the ability to look straight thru to your soul...almost as if she absorbing everything about you... she was one to do that...and she knew just what you were thinking...she had an amazing abilty to kow just what you were feeling....thanks for remembering me...

tee bone was my baby girl pup. she was the most amazing dog, my first dog i ever had. we got her when she was 10 wks old. she fit in the palm of my hand. grew up to be around 60 pds. not so small when she grew. she was a doberman and german shephard mix. beautiful coloring and markings. we originally named her t for tiny..but then it became tee bone,,,and several nicknames names later...it was amazing that she knew what her name was...alot of times we called her bonzie o'doggie...not that we are irsih,,,well some parts irish,,,lol!!.

she was just amazing.. she would sucker anyone into loving her at first meeting... you couldnt help it...she did nothing to make people love her they just did...sweet sweet girl.

my sil found her wandering around a street with no houses to be had... so we know she probaly traveled a great distance and whoever set her out there or dropped her off had no idea just how wonderful a dog they let go.
she was great with my dtr when she was born. she loved her right from the start, never waivered far from her her whole life..11 yrs of it. she was almost 3 when she was born. she even protected my dtr from a kick that another girl was trying to do to my dtr( the other girl was a menace) and tee put her self between the other girl and my dtr .and took a full kick to the ribs and never once flinched or raised a lip to the other girl, instead she lay down between the two to protect my dtr... would never have belived it if i hadnt witnessed the whole thing. the girl and her mother were asked to leave.. i did not tolerate that kind of behavior in my home..

i miss her so much.. its so lonely here..

about three years ago she went blind for no reason and adapted very well to it, in fact my other dog became her seeing eyes...that was amazing. she developed retinal atrophy which is common in dobies the vet said. but she did wonderful..

gosh i was so blessed to have her in my life...

Michelle, dearest,

You know how incredibly sorry I am about sweet Tee ......I just wanted to add my sincere condolences here, too. When you're more able and only when you're ready, yes, more pics of your dear girl would be so very welcome.

Tee, little darling, you will never, ever be forgotten, always be missed, and will be completely treasured for the beautiful soul that you always were and still are.....

Michelle: Tee Bone was your BABY GIRL...what a wonderful story you just posted. I had 3 sweet girls that had shepherd in them and they were the loves of my life when I had them. I'll bet you have a gorgeous picture of her. Sounds like she was a good mix. And the personality ...I can relate to that.

Please continue to tell us more about her and do find a picture so we can see the beautiful face and expressive eyes of the sweet soul you just described. And, I can believe that story without seeing it because I have seen such selflessness and protection in these babies.

Hugs to you, Michelle......keep talking, please.

here is a recent picture of her..


and then before she went into the hospital..

OOOOOOOOOOOOh ....what a beautiful face. Just makes one want to hug her. So absolutely precious. Thank you so much for posting a picture so each time I check your thread here ...I can see her.

I see the shepherd in her and I also see the dobie in her. Please continue to post any stories about her that come to mind and any more pictures. Each picture of our babies tells its own story, capturing that particular moment in time. I can see in her the personality and love of she would do anything for you out of that love. We are so privileged to have had these babies as part of our lives and I never ever will really understand why they do have to go but I would rather have them for their allotted time than to never have known them at all.

Keep talking.....it does help....even if only for that moment right now..with everything so fresh.

I think of the old saying that "A picture is worth a thousand words". Isn't that so true? Pictures say so much more than words can express. Thanks again for these pictures. I am so sorry abput what has happened. If I could work miracles this would be a much happier forum..I can tell you that.

Hugs, Michelle.....I love seeing your baby girl (and your kitty's picture is beautiful also...makes one want to scoop that furbaby up for a big hug.)

Michelle ~ Tee Bone looks so special.
I am so sorry for your loss. I just lost my Sierra on Monday, so I understand what you are feeling.
Just take it one day at a time and allow yourself to feel whatever you are feeling - there are no wrong feelings.
My thoughts are with you!
Jill

thank you all so much for the kind words. it has been really hard the last two weeks. we discovered that we had gotten tee on the 30th of may 1995...(which she was 10 wks old when we got her so she was already 13 when she passed)we got her cremated and her date of cremation was on the 30th of may, that spooked me a bit..as it happened with kitten too... i had a dream about kitten on the 16th of november as i took a much needed nap and her date of cremation was the 16th. this happens with me alot...
i dont know whether to take it as a sign or its just a coincidence..?


i just miss her so much...she was a really great doggie...i couldnt have ask for a better friend or family member than her.. she had such a sweet soul...

Good morning michelles kitty,
First and foremost my condolences for losing another member of the family. Its tough, really tough as all of us here know. All we can do is grieve to relieve the pain and eventually get back to some kind of normalcy in our life once again.

Now for Frontline.
Plain and simple, in my experience, it doesn't work! I've used the stuff religiously on my dogs over the years and they still get loaded with ticks. Last year i had Dolly my long-haired groomed for hygiene concerns, easier to find ticks and also the Summer heat. When i went to pick her up the groomer presented my with a jar full of 13 ticks that she removed from Dolly. Just yesterday i took Jessie my black lab in for her shots and a checkup. While examining her ears, the vet found a tick feasting inside her ear and another on her chest. Over the last couple weeks i've found 3 or 4 bloated ticks that dropped off the dogs in the house and basement in addition to plucking a couple dozen more from both dogs.

I myself will no longer waste my money on that stuff. While at the vet yesterday i ran all this by him and he suggested i try Pemaris, another tick ointment.
Its pricey, but i bought some to try out. We'll see!

Take care,
-Ken

let me know how the pemaris works for your doggies....i have coco and he still gets ticks..i knock on wood never had a flea issue with any of my furkids..but ticks are a big issue.. he's a blonde doggie so they are easier to spot...but still i want something that works ya know...keep me posted...

CORRECTION! and possible ProMeris warning!

I typed that last post from memory. The stuff is actually called ProMeris.
I just did some Googling on this suff and apparently some dogs have had a bad allergic reaction to it. Interesting also, the manufacturer is Fort Dodge a division of Wyeth Pharmecuticals and nowhere can i find Promeris on their site. This is getting curiouser and curiouser. Maybe the stuff was recalled?

Here's the manufacturer's website:

http://www.wyeth.com/divisions/fort_dodge.asp

If anyone out there knows anything about Promeris or can find it on their website, please comment!
All this is really strange as i've heard a lot of commercials recently on the radio for "the next generation in tick control - ProMeris".
Not sure now if i want to try it, maybe i'll return it next time i see the vet depending on further research.
Thanks,
-Ken

YIKES!!! i'll be sure to question our vet also..coco has a bldwrk appt on tuesday for his epilepsy...i dont want to use something that will interfere with his meds and seizure control...thanks for the update..

I did a Google on "Dog tick treatment" and got lots of sites. Then I did a search on Promeris and read about the problems
a woman had..she and her dogs had problems. Here is the site where her story is and it talks about Promeris..


http://www.truthorfiction.com/rumors/p/promeris.htm

Hope this helps everyone. Other than that, I would Google like I did and see what treatment are out there. I read where
lavender, lemongrass and geranium repels ticks and I understand one should dab an oil between the dog's shoulder blades,
apparently because they can't lick back there. Searching Google may help..add any key words to the search you are
interested in.

But I sure would stay away from promeris from what I read.

It would be nice if there were safe natural things that repelled these little beasts. Like for cats, I have read that baby powder
will suffocate fleas. Now why can't there be something like that for ticks?

Good evening LoveThem,
yep, i've also read plenty articles on the internet with dogs having adverse reactions to ProMeris to the point i'm not going to use it. Hopefully my vet will give me a refund on the stuff i bought as it was real expensive to boot. That leaves me back where i started because Frontline just don't seem to work! Maybe i've got 'industrial' ticks or something in my woods!
I'm also on a search for natural homeopathic alternatives. Since my dogs are mostly outside dogs in the Summer months, they're also subjected to fly repellent and the last thing they need is another poison smeared on their bodies.
Fortunately, the worst of the tick season, early Spring is waning. Calling them ticks 'little beasts' is mild compared to what i call 'em - %&*@
-Ken

industrial ticks!! that made me chuckle... cause i swear they have armor on their bodies. i heard of brewers yeast mixed in with dog food to repel ticks.. or was it fleas? might have been fleas...

we live in a heavily wooded area ourselves..funny though tee only went out on a lead/runner as she was blind so she couldnt be off on her own...she went out did her business and then came in. coco on the other hand likes to lay in the grass and soak up the sun..never venturing far from the front yard...at 144lbs he just doesnt bother to go into the woods and doesnt move fast. i think the tic's see him as an easy target and are like...booyah when they see him.. a free meal...he had lyme about 4 years ago and has recovered. but still i need to look for something really safe for him.

as for tee it still kills me to know that she got lyme even though she didnt spend hardly anytime out side only to do her thing. and she still got it. and even thoughwe treated the lyme, it went to her kidneys and harbored there and casue her kidneys to shut down. i hate this disease i really do. it took the best dog in the world away from me.

its so raw. i miss her so much. i made a memory book of her. and all the time doing it i kept having to stop cause i couldnt see the pages clearly..but i got it done. and i am not crafty by any means but it came out so sweet...so sweet that when i showed my husband he actually broke down and sobbed. something i had to do to keep her in our hearts forever,,

Good evening michelle,
Based on what you've described, i'm wondering if there was a misdiagnosis as to the root cause of the kidney failure. Have you ever found ticks on her?
With the sheer amount of ticks Dolly has had over the years, i'm surprised and lucky maybe she hasn't contracted lyme disease, knock on wood!! I share with you also that i hate that disease and especially them #^&% ticks also! Then come the black biting flies and then the mosquitoes with their heart worm concerns.

While sweeping the basement today i found another three bloated ticks on the floor as Dolly and Jessie have been recently sleeping in the house with all these storms lately. I forgot to mention, i also on occassion find ticks on myself probably from messing with the dogs. What i do is to brush the dogs down good after their daily walk in the woods and sometimes if i'm lucky i'll find a tick or two in the brush before they have a chance to nestle in. Then i check myself. When i find em, they're usually crawling up my socks, shoes or pants. If that fails, i'll the find em usually in my hair!

On one hand i problably shouldn't run my dogs in my deer infested woods this time of year. But they look so forward to it i hate to deprive them of that one joy in their lives. Though in hot weather i won't take em into the woods.
And Jessie my black lab has to, i repeat has to burn off her seemingly endless energy somehow. I wish i had 1/10th of her energy!

I'm taking Dolly in for her grooming, shots and checkup tomorrow and will run all this by the vet and see what he says. I'll probably end up exchanging that Premeris for Frontline even though i know it doesn't work. I will say this Jessie has much less ticks than Dolly a long haired collie-chow-retriever, etc. mix. She also has that thick cottony under coat which might not be optimum for Frontline to work. I'll report back what the vet has to say.

That memory book you created is a cool idea! For me though, i just have Duncan's picture as my Windows wallpaper background! Maybe i'll take some of his old pics and make a monthly calendar with them out of PhotShop or something! As i mentioned in another thread, i don't ever want to forget about the best friend i've ever had.

By the way tell your husband its OK to sob once in a while, just once in a while and preferably not in public!!
After all, your husband and I are supposed to be emotionally 'challenged' and be 'real' men you know!
Just kidding....well maybe kinda sorta!

Take care michelle, time is the prime healer for all this mourning and grieving we feel after our pet's passing.
-Ken

I am so sorry! I am in the same spot as you right now, I feel like a constant lump in my throat, my doggie was my furry soul mate too, we were a great match, your kitty looks so sweet and lovely, it is so hard to lose our furbaby's and I feel like I am the only one that feel this way. But this forum, reading the posts, makes me feel so much better because I am not alone.

(((hugs)))

For anyone still interested in the Promeris/tick thing.
First of all when i went to pick Dolly up from her vet visit and grooming, the vet indicated they stopped counting at 30 ticks. He said some were dead and some were at their bloated-drop off stage! Apparently the Frontline worked a little.

Now for Promeris. The vet got on his computer when i mentioned i could not find Promeris anywhere on the Wyeth/Fort Dodge website and had concerns regarding its adverse reaction with some dogs. He went to another website:

http://www.promeris.com/consumer/

Duhh! Although i couldn't find this link on the Wyeth website!

The vet indicated most of the negative posts on the internet were traced by Fort Dodge to one e-mail address.
Here's their article regarding the subject from the Promeris website:

http://www.promeris.com/ProMeris_com_Response.pdf

Still, i exchanged the Promeris for Frontline. Promeris just might be better than Frontline but since its relatively new, i'm going to wait til next year maybe when the smoke settles before i try it.
-Ken

well its been two months and i am still grieving really hard. i miss her so much.
i decided to memorialize her in a way i dont know if others could do it. but for me i had to have her with me all the time..so with the help of an artist and her inked paw prints that the vet did for me after she passed.. i shrunk them down and had them put on me.. forever.

Two months is not very long, Michelle. Keep posting here and talking about your thoughts and feelings. Whatever makes you feel better is the best thing for you to do.

I have to tell you that your picture of your baby with her front paws crossed is absolutely darling. She is a beautiful girl. I hope you have lots of pictures of her cause she is so gorgeous. Maybe you could post more here in your topic. We would love to see them.
Pictures can bring smiles and we all need to smile as often as we can.

Hugs

aww thanks, the picture above of my kitty her name is kitten she passed almost two years ago this november, her pal passed two months and 7 days before her he rname was pooh-bear.. she was a tortie kitty. i miss them dearly.

the tattoo is of my dog tee-bone who passed away two months ago. and frankly i thought i died when my kitty girls passed,,,,,but....


i cant get past losing tee...this is a picute of her a couple of weeks before she passed,.i my heart is broken like it has never been broken before if that make any sense? the hurt is incrediable sometimes i feel as if i am losing my mind over the grief. its just the saddness of it all and the loniness of her not being here that is just paralzing .

I'm glad you posted that picture of T-Bone...she looks like a perfect sweetheart. I read back where you have had since she was born in 1995.....and she was part shepherd (my special dogs were either part shepherd or all shepherd). I had to smile when you got a mix like this and thought to name her T for "tiny".....Kind of like when we read tiny poodles are named Killer. I know you wound up not calling her Tiny but that is cute to picture you calling that out in front of someone and them looking down at the floor to watch for this teeny tiny one to appear and in comes T-Bone. Love the thought.

My dogs were both girls too, one was 10 with cancer and one was 12 with her spinal cord going haywire. I'm glad to hear you had those years with your baby. It is never long enough and oh, how we wish we could keep them for real...forever.

It sounds like when Kitten went..you still had a kitty and T-Bone. When the kitty left...you had T-Bone. It sounds like T-Bone was
your last baby? That's what happened to me with my 3 kitties. When I lost Little Guy (my avatar) last September, he was the last of 3 siblings and wow....did my home feel empty. When we lost our last dog we were planning on moving and decided to wait until we did to get a new dog..so we would be settled. Well, my empty backyard attracted a feral mom cat who had her kittens there in 1991 and so we wound up with 3 kittens. So that's how we got our kitties.

After losing my last one, Little Guy...after a while I couldn't take the emptiness. It seemed to reinforce my missing my babies and that kind of pain does no good. I wound up adopting a kitty from my local SPCA...who looks similar to my boy and for me, the distraction of him living in the moment...has been a tremendous help. I have pictures all over of my babies but I don't feel paralyzed anymore. I can look at their photos and smile at the memory of taking the photo at a time of health.

We never ever forget these special ones or what they brought into our lives. That's why we will miss them forever for what they gave us was always unique to each one and so we can never forget them. Each one added something special to our lives.

I know how hard it is to think they are really gone...physically. I still have all my dogs and cats dishes and toys and someone who has my things after I am gone can be the one to get rid of them for I never will. It is a link to them..something they enjoyed and I was there when they did and so I will keep those items for their memories.

Take Care and update on how you are doing when you can. Maybe you can find some puppy pictures of T-Bone. Those are definitely pictures one can smile at. My first shepherd I got as a puppy as soon as she could leave her mom and dad and I took pictures of her a month or so apart for quite a while and wow do they grow up fast. Such beautiful babies!

Remember to post anytime......we are always here listening....

Hugs, Michelle and special hugs to all your Angels.

Oh, Michelle....I'm so glad you posted this pic of dear, 'little' T.....what a sweetheart she looks to be! (and JUST as I'd imagined, too, before I even knew what she looked like! ) Those lips of hers were surely made for smooching, as I noticed she's got a sort of fur pattern there that looks so much like a pair of human lips! I also noticed the rainbow resting on her back leg, and one above her body, too. Do you think maybe this was a sign for you that she'd be in the heavenly realms, safe and whole once again (and waiting for you), soon after you took this picture? I like to think so....

I agree -- "paralyzing" and "losing (one's) mind over (it)" are good descriptions of it. But don't forget, you spent a lot of time tending to her many and particular conditions and needs, so that love bond probably became especially strong with your dear T....and that always means not only an even closer connection but hence more pain afterwards, when we invest that much more, emotionally, in their precious lives and our blessed time with them.

I also love your tattoo. Not that I'd ever get one for myself, but if you're gonna get one, what BETTER type than this?! Putting your permanent feelings on, if not your sleeve but on your 'pant leg', so to speak, is a wonderful way to honour your girl and I'm sure this made her spirit heart swell with gratitude and EXTRA love for her mommy!

I'm just so sorry for your pain, too, and I know how hard it must be for you every day.

I found your last topic and its replies of comfort. I thought maybe it might help you feel not so alone at this time. These topics never really go away..they just move to a different page and sometimes they are hard to find but you can always find all the topics you started by clicking on your name and choosing find topics.

This is your first Christmas without TeeBone (and by looking here I see her sweet pictures).
May is not that long ago. It is very hard missing them so much. Last year was my first Holiday season without my boy. It just made what was depressing more so.

But by coming here to LS, you see you are not alone and it might help you to reread the replies in this topic. Every word written by everyone I know is still meant and meant to help.

I'm sorry your girl is not here physically but remember she is in your heart forever and can never leave or be taken away from there. I know grief is hard...it is very hard.

The best we can do is take everything one day at a time and try and think of something that might make us feel better and then do that. We truly will love and miss them forever and missing is what causes the pain.

Take care...I wish you peace and healing...it does take time. Grief descends upon us quickly.
Healing takes time.

Your kitty looks like a sweetheart too. She and TeeBone are 2 Angels sitting side by side and looking down at you...sending their love...and knowing someday you will all be together.
If that didn't happen...then there couldn't be a Heaven.

Hugs,
Judy

thank you judy for your kind words and thoughts. i was really feeling down and out. i made it thru xmas..i dont know how but i did. its just the aftermath of it all. its been 7 months and i am still nursing a broken heart and even with a new fur kid in our house its still hard y/k? i mean the new doggie is great and he is every thing i hoped for in a doggie, my dh gave him to me as a b-day present and xmas gift all rolled into one but for some inane reason he's attached himself to my husband, they always do. my husband seems to be an animal magnant.

but tee was mine hook line and sinker. so was my kitty in the picture in my sig and my avatar...i
miss them all so much.

but thank you for taking the time to think of me it mean s alot.

I just looked back and saw your tatoo. I have one of a previous cat I had back in 1997. I have a tatoo artist who is gonna draw one of the pictures of my Sissycat I have posted and put on my other leg. I think it is great!!!

Glad you made it through the holidays. I didn't think I could either. Yea I have a new edition too, but it is not nor ever will be the same. Sigh----

Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!