I am so sad, I don't know how I even take my next breath. My beautiful Simi, an 11 month old French Mastiff was at the end of our driveway when a speeding car hit her, killed her instantly, stopped their car, turned and looked and SPED AWAY. It couldn't have been 10 seconds that I called my husband to go to her(I was too afraid). I ran in my house to keep my 3 small children from running outside. I kept screaming "is Simi ok?" Finally, he came inside and said "No, she's not ok." My body felt a sensation I have never felt before, I couldn't cry, couldn't catch my breath. I just kept insisting he help her. My neighbor, Simi's breeder, came out and I knew she could help her. No-one could help her. Simi was taken to the local Humane Society and was created. It has now been 3 days, I can't cope with this. I cry all day. Everything makes me cry. Today happens to be my birthday, which I told everyone to completely forget. There is no room for celebration.

When will this intense pain subside? I can feel her body, I need to touch her scrunchy face. I need my baby back.
Am I going insane?
I need to hear from people that have been through the same thing.

Thans

you said: I need to hear from people that have been through the same thing.

If you mean the devastating pain you feel.....you are talking about just about everyone here. How we lost our special ones may vary as to what occurred but how we feel afterwards is all the same intense, heart-wrenching pain.

This happened Monday.....your baby was only 11 months old. That pain will be with you always...the intensity over time will become less. I am so very sorry for your loss. But everything you are feeling is perfectly normal.

All you can do is cry, is vent...whatever it takes to feel any relief because it really takes time and effort to overcome being overwhelmed everyday with such intense pain. You are not going insane. You are screaming inside for your baby.

By coming here and posting is a start to get help. You are not alone in what you are going through. We have been there, and/or are in the middle of just what you are going through and some here are close to losing their special one and they know more pain is coming to them. But we do try and reach out to each other...just to give a hug..and say we understand exactly how you feel. We all do share the same horrible pain of loss and we try to answer questions or give suggestions that have helped us deal with our loss.

Yours was sudden, unexpected and a terrible shock and all of that makes it twice as hard to believe it actually happened.

Our prayers are with you and we wish you peace and a start on healing but remember it is so soon.....this hurt will continue until you are exhausted by it and eventually will try to start remember the good memories of your puppy..for she really was just a small one in age. I panic if any of my animals ever get in an area that could be dangerous. I over react and can't wait until they are back safe.
In our community I heard the exact same thing happened here by a driver who never stopped and a puppy died. Drivers nowadays are too busy with their cell phones and other distractions and obviously to that driver an animal meant nothing. That makes it hurt twice as much.

So come back and post more and maybe find a picture to post of Simi. We take comfort in looking at pictures...it does help our healing. Right now it is probably hard for you to get past a lot of crying and feeling as though your insides have been turned inside out. We love these babies so much and they give us so much love...to have it feel as though it is ripped away...is truly
devastating.

Take Care and know many times we all type through tears..that is normal.. Some of us write a note to our special one, just sharing our thoughts and telling them how much we miss and love them...that is normal.. In fact, when it comes to grieving there is more things normal than not...I can't think of a "not". I can think of lots of "normal". What helps you feel better to do...that is the right thing to do.

I wish you peace in this time of really extreme sorrow...but we are here with you....we feel the same pain about our babies and can understand exactly how you are hurting. You will have less pain but it takes time. We never get over the pain completely but in time we can face the day again and feel somehwhat normal.

Be well and hugs from the friends here you didn't even know you had. We are bonded together as no other family can be.

I am so sorry to hear about such a tragic ending of a life so young. Twice in my life I have witnessed a dog being hit by a car. Both times I fell apart and carried them to the shoulder of the road and held them and cried. One of them survived and recovered over time. As for the other..................it was instant death. When a tragedy such as yours comes so unexpectedly there's no place for the mind to go except into complete and utter shock. We know what our eyes have seen but the mind just can't comprehend it.

None of us here have been able to work around the grief.............we've all had to work through it. In this forum that's what we do. By helping each other through our deepest pain and sorrows over having lost one so loved, gradually we begin to heal. This takes alot of time as well as tears. At times the pain is unbearable, especially when the anxiety sets in. The intense pain you speak of does lessen in time, but each person's time is different.

By coming here regularly over the last 4 1/2 months I have found the way to recovery. When my Goliath passed away so suddenly and unexpectedly my world came to a screeching halt and turned upside down. I couldn't imagine living a happy life ever again without him in my arms. Over time I realized Goliath left me with far more than tears and sadness when the angels took him to Heaven. The memories he and I made together over the years are forever in my heart. Those belong to me and nobody can take them away from me.

The times you and Simi shared together can never be taken from you either. Hold those cherished memories close to your heart. The love you and Simi shared together will live on til the end of eternity. There is no greater love than what one has for a beloved furry member of their family. These unique little loves give all they have in them without any expectations whatsoever. Where else can anybody ever find another kind of love like this?

I send you hugs of comfort as you struggle to find your way through this distraughtful and painful time of your life. We all understand and know just how difficult this is for you right now. Keep coming back where we love and support each other through the worst of times as well as the best of times.

Much love to you
Beth

i am so sorry to hear of your grief. I too can sympathize with u as our Nollie was taken from us on Memorial Day, it is so hard and so devestating. How are u doing today? I know we have to work thru our grief and cry when we need, I have looked at pics of Nollie and have also spent alot of time with my daughter as it was her puppy and she needs me now too. Iunderstand her pain and can share itwith her and also don't feel bad talking about Nollie when she needs to. I hope and pray u can find some comfort too. We love them so much and they are taken from us way too fast. We are so fortunate for the joy they brought to our lives as I know that joy and love far outweighs the pain we are feeling now. We are lucky and blessed to have had them in our lives.
My prayers are with u

I am so sorry for your loss. Allow yourself to feel your pain and express any emotion you are feeling.
My thoughts are with you.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your lovely scrunchy-faced baby. My heart is breaking for you. Did anyone get the license plate number? Most places have laws about leaving the scene of an accident. It won't bring Simi back to you, but the callous idiot who killed her should be made accountable in some way.

Sending you thoughts and prayers,
Dayna

Bernall,

I have felt your presence around me and know just how much you are missing Simi right now. It has been just over a month since the angels came and carried Simi to Heaven.

May you soon feel the warmth of her sunshine that radiates in your heart.

Many hugs to you filled with love,
Beth

It's hard enough to loose them because of an illness--but when something like this happens--I think it is more devestating--a year ago last July--I lost my Missy thru an accident--and it was one of the most devestating things I have ever gone thru--Things do get better with time--and the pain will lessen--you just have to know that it will take time--

I am so sorry and I know what you felt----and what you are feeling---