Hi again! Someone very nice had suggested that I write a letter to my dearly departed Kitty Jinx. So here I go, maybe it will help.

Dear Jinxies,

I'm not really sure where you are but I wish you would come home. The FIP took over so suddenly that I never really got to spend the time with you that I thought I would have. I know that the night before you passed away I wasnt there and I am not sure that I can ever forgive myself for that. Pantages misses you too, and the rest of the family. I feel lost and confused that you are not here to comfort me when i get home from having a bad day, or your not here to lay down with abby until she falls asleep at night. Things have been so different and I'm not sure how to stop crying or wishing you were back in my arms again. I still get up every night and think if i break out the cheeze-its you'll come running beggin me for them. I still feel you jump on the bed at night and I can still see you sometimes out of the corner of my eye. I havent put any of your stuff away yet, I guess I was hoping that you would come back to me someday. Oh the things that you have shown me were possible and the love I never knew that I could feel twards and animal has overwhelmed me to the fullest. I spend everyday looking for a cure for FIP in hopes that it will bring you back, but i guess knowing that you are gone, maybe really in hopes to pass along the info so that no one else has to go through this.

Darnit, they told me I had a couple of weeks! I only had 2 days!!! It wasnt enough time! Come Back to me Jinx! Please!!!! Baby of Mine, how I wish you were here in my arms for just one more minute, oh if only I had one more day, hour, minute or secound with you. If only I could have done something more, if only I would have noticed the signs sooner, maybe we could have had more time. IT'S NOT FAIR!!!! I love you and loved you more than I can express! I wish, I wish, I wish!!! Please save a spot for me in that place that they took you, I will come when my time is up. I still see us up on Sunday mornings with Pantages running through a field of clovers, drinking coffee and watching the sun come up. More to come my dear.. until then please think of me and hold me in your heart as I do you....

Sweet Dreams Dear,

Mommy

Hi,
I just read your other post and I am so sorry for your loss of little Jinx. Your pictures of him are beautiful. I know how hard it is, especially at first. I have found that writing directly to my Duffy does help. Your tribute to him is beautiful and it is clear how much he was loved and how much you have lost. I hope that you will always know that a bit of him will live on in you forever.
Take care,
Stephanie

Your letter to Jinx is just beautiful...the love shines out from every word. I know he knows what you have said because he is a part of your heart and all these words came from your heart.


Your wishes for "sweet dreams" and the precious photo of him sleeping just made me cry..the sentiment and picture are so real and priceless.

I wish you peace and healing and many hugs from here..

You are here among those that care. Write anytime. Whatever helps you is the right thing to do. Remember one thing...that even though we may think there are things we could have done, I am convinced that when it is their time to go...it is all out of our control..in other words, there is nothing more we could have done than what was done at the moment. It is the only explanation that ever made sense to me. It is not a comforting thought but it helps us to accept the inevitable, as so very hard that is to do.

you have written a wonderful letter to your baby......and that picture makes one just want to give him a gentle kiss right on the top of his gorgeous head.

Take Care and visit and write whenever you can.

P.S. I just read your post in my topic on Little Guy and I responded there to you. Please stop by when you can and see my post to you there.

It's true-I really just want to give him a big kiss on the top of his sweet little head!