I have good days and bad. Today's been very, very bad. I can't stop thinking about Hailey. I miss her so much. I "see" her everywhere...her favorite play or rest spots, out in the snow, etc. There are times, for a brief second, when I really think I see her, out of the corner of my eye. I don't know which hurts worst... the constant knowledge that's she's gone or that instant when I "forget"...only to remember reality.

I don't know if I'm making any sence. I only know that my heart is no longer whole and I wonder if it ever will be. I feel broken...from the inside out.

I know I've survived this heartbreak before (with Comet) and I know I'll survive again...but knowlegde is a cold condolence.

Hi Kelly,
I know how you feel my heart goes out to you, the constant reminders get me everyday. In your own time you will learn to deal with the reminders, I can't say I have found how to deal with them yet either. Try to think about all the great times you had together, everybody grieves in there own way it's still very close since you lost her, go slowly take your time, as you said you have been thru this before not that it makes it any easier. Time I hope, does heal (when I hear this I still can't comprehend it). It's ok to have bad days, they hopefully will get futher apart. Please don't think you are ever alone with your feelings as you know there are so many beautiful people on this web site.
Take care,
Warren- Freddie's dad with a big HUG for you

Kelly, I am sorry to hear that you are having a difficult time. Hailey had a very special place in your life. I think many of us experience the feelings that you are having. I can relate to what you wrote about seeing Hailey in her fav spot. When I first lost my Lizzy I pictured her running for her ball in the yard. I didn't think I'd ever be able to be in the yard without crying. But then I began to think of all of the fun we had in the yard. Liz loved to run, play, swim in her kiddie pool back there. So every time I think of the cancer that took her from me....I replace that thought with the joy she brought into my life.

After 3 months of losing Liz I decided to adopt an 8 week old white lab. I must tell you that Mandy has brought me much happiness. The minute I saw her I fell in love. Elly my other lab is happy again, as she was miserable without her pal Liz. I still miss Liz and always will. I keep her memory alive by talking about her with people that knew her.

I hope that my story will give you hope that you too will feel better. Just try and think of the happy times with Hailey.

Peace and comfort to you Kelly as well as heart sent warm condolences. As you remember your precious Hailey and Comet I wish you lots of love and comfort.

I know and feel only all too well how you feel when those bad days hit. The only thing I can say on those kinds of days is that now the good days out weigh the bad ones.

I started out in a complete shutdown at first and then flew right into a rollercoaster of ups and downs. All of the emotion is still with me but the ride has gotten a little less rocky.

Your precious memories are yours to keep forever in your heart and soul. Those memories you built with Hailey and Comet are a permanent part of who you are.

Hugs.........Beth