Aspen was laying on my bed when I got home this morning, just as she always is, only this time the life has left her suffering little body. I layed beside her and rubbed her one last time and began to cry and haven't stopped.

When I left for work last night I knew I probably wouldn't hear her purr or lay on her back to have her belly rubbed, again.

I just wish I had been able to be with her when she went.

The person sitting with her said she died about 5:15AM. I don't know what to do right now because she has been my obsession for quite some time.

She is with Pepe now and I hope to be with them again.

This is the anniversary of my father's death and the birthday of my late godfather. I somehow knew that Feb 6 would be the day.

I miss Aspen and Pepe. I think the worst pain is knowing that they were the only unconditional love I have ever known. We went through so many trying times in our lives and were always there for each other. They gave me a reason so many times to get out of bed.

Aspen just turned 18 and Pepe was 23. I truely cannot believe how those years have passed. It seems like yesterday that I brought each of them home. I guess the time until we are together again will be quick as well.

My heart breaks continually and again for my children.

Pepe and Aspen's dad
Adam

Dear Adam,
I am so sorry for the loss of your dear Aspen. I am a bit "jelous" of her peaceful crossing to the Bridge. I had to help both of my Angels with the transition. I was able to be with them at the end, as I always promised I would be, but it's been hard as well. I second guess if I did it too soon or waited too long. And their little faces...after...I wish I could stop seeing them. Your Aspen went on her time, in her way. The most natural of transitions.
I know what you mean about our furbabies being the only unconditional love we've known. I believe that only animals and babies are capable of such perfection. But that's why we continue to dance this dance. It's why we have other furbabies now and in the future. Because even though we've felt the pain of having our best friends leave this life, it pales in comparison to the love we felt when they were here.
I'm sending healing hugs through the miles.

I'm so sorry that Aspen is gone. The only thing I can say is to try to concentrate on the life she lived, rather than her passing. My thoughts are with you at this difficult time Pepeinmyhrt4evr.

Adam.

I am so sorry you lost Aspen. Our furkid's lives mark memories in our lives. They also bring a sense of honesty and love to our homes. My sympathy is with you.

Ken Albin

Adam,
I am so sorry that Aspen is gone. My thoughts are with you.

I'm sorry for your loss. I know how painful it is. I am glad you did have your Christmas with her as you wished for. No matter how long we have them, it is never long enough and if we had the choice we would keep them with us forever..happy and healthy.
It is not our choice to make..I lost my twin boys Little Guy and Keeper to cancer and I lost a beautiful dog to it also. It just does not go away no matter how hard we pray.

You are not in pain alone. You had your two babies for many years...that time gives you lots of good memories of happy times and healthy times and that is where you should go when the darkness of grief tries to overwhelm you. They are a part of you and that can never be taken away by anything.

Aspen and Pepe...to have them 18 and 23 years...what a wonderful tribute to you as their caregiver. That's a long precious time to receive their unconditional love. I know it is not long enough but the time you had was truly a gift.

Take Care...and post as you feel..and maybe put some pictures up of happier times of both of them...that will help you start the healing process.

Dear Adam,
I am so sorry to hear about Aspen. You and yours are in my thoughts and prayers.
though she is gone from this world, she will never leave, she is in your heart, The light and love she gave will never fade within you.
Hugs and Love,
Prayers, and tears,
Cheesy

It's been 24 hours since youre little body left the house, I can still feel you. The house is quiet and somber. Amoco is laying beside me, Chevis is laying in the kitchen window, and the dogies are laying quietly on the couch.

I'm so glad I let them say goodbye to you...I dont think they ever understood why Pepe left with me and didn't come back. I think they understand now after saying good-bye to you.

We all ache to touch you, hear your purr. Dinner time last night was weird for all. The dogies wouldn't eat. You always liked to steal the gravy off their food. I think they were waiting on that before they ate.

Amoco visited the spot where you left last night, she must have smelled you because she began digging and sniffing, as if she were trying to find you.

We all miss, and yearn for you pretty Aspen.

hers a beautiful girrrrl.

love, Daddy, Chevis, Amoco, Belvedere and Molly

Poor babies. They know and miss her. You will all miss her greatly for a long time.

Dear Adam,

I've been prayng for you and Aspen ever since you posted about her illness. I'm so sorry the two of you have lost your long battle to stay together. But, it's so wonderful that she had a peaceful transition at home. I know how you hated not to be there...but God was there, and when you and Aspen are reunited, you'll never be parted again.

Thinking of you,
Dayna

Adam,

I'm so very sorry to hear about the loss of Aspen. It's so hard to lose a good friend. My cat Toby who recently passed away was probably the best friend I ever had compared to all the broken relationships that I've gone through over the years; I know the terrible pain that you are feeling. Please know that my thoughts are with you.

-Marissa