Aspen is 17 years old, house mate of Pepe who died last year. Yesterday, her rear right leg suddenly went numb and I rushed her to the vet. They just told me that she has a large lung tumer that caused a blood clot in her rear leg.

I'm going to bring her home for a day or two so we can have one last christmas together.

I need everyones prayers that she wont be in any pain while she is here with me. I just need a couple of days to say goodbye.

Aspen and Pepe's dad
Adam

the last christmas together with Aspen
i am so verry sorry and my thoughts are with you
you will take care of Aspen and you will know when Aspen is ready for leaving
sincerely
Eva

My prayers are with you and sweet Aspen. I hope your Christmas lasts forever.

Annie's mommy

My prayers are with you and Aspen. This is a special Christmas for all of you and having her with you at this time is something you will always remember. Mine had to leave in September and I wished he could have been here for these Holidays but it was not meant to happen. He was 16 1/2 and you mentioned Aspen is 17 and I would be willing to bet that you've had the same thoughts as I did......when I used to hear about cats being over 20 I always hoped mine would do that and I would have them that extra time that I could never achieve with other animals. I used to look at my neighbor's cat who was 22 and tell my babies...I want you to be here and with a decent quality of life at that age. I had Little Guy's twin brother until age 10 when a tumor was found in his lungs and we had to let him go. I am thankful for the extra 6 1/2 years I had with Little Guy but I am selfish enough to have wanted more..and I 'm sure you do too.

Bless you for the home and love you have provided and you are all in my prayers for Aspen at this time.

I have gotten Aspen home. She drank a little bit of water but no food yet. She is on meds for pain and blood thinner. I layed in the floor with her and she softly put her paw on my hand. She seems comfortable. I'm very thankful for the additional time we have together.

Pepe, who's picture is in the profile, was 23 when he died last August. I was hoping Aspen would live as long too. I actually saw her borne from her mother and it was love at first sight. I simply cannot imagine life without them. they have been my only friends for many years and I feel so alone.

I decorated a christmas tree so we could have one last Christmas together. I will post some picutes of her. My beautiful aspen. The only comfort that I have is knowing that she and Pepe will be together again.

Please pray that Aspen is not in pain and that we can spend an enjoyable last holiday together. Pray for me that I may have the strength not to watch her in pain if it comes to that.

When my Pepe went to sleep last year in my arms....it was the hardest thing I had ever gone through....And now my little girl.

I am so lonely already.

I love you aspey girl.

Our best wishes for Aspen. May her last days with you be filled with love.

Ken Albin

I'm sorry for what you are going through. I know how you feel - I just lost my Babe on 9/29/07. She was almost 18. I always hoped and prayed she would make it into her 20's like I hear so many other cats do. You and your kitty baby are both in my thoughts and prayers.

Sheri

I wrote this post to my Pepe over a year ago:
"Hi Baby,
I know Its been a couble weeks since I've written to you. I pray to you every day. I'm so worried about Aspen ... shes lost weight since you left us and only mopes around....I've let her sleep with me and she only wants to be with me now like you were.....I'm so worried about her, Please do what you can from where you are to take care of her....I'm so afraid of losing her the way I did you. I know you would like to have here with you but I'm not ready to lose her so soon after you.....

I love you so much Pepe,

Huggies, Huggies, Huggies
Lovel,
Daddy "

I guess I should be thankful to have had the time given to me...It's just that they were all I had at many times in my life.

When Pepe was 3 years old I walked him to the vet in the snow because I couldn't get the car out. He woke me every day at the same time for years....he was the leader....I am so thankful to have had over a year with aspen since Pepe died but I hope for more. Pepe was 6 years older than aspen when he died. I guess I expected a few more from the others.

I still have Aspen although she is very Ill. The vet says that if she throws another blood clot it could be bad. I have 2 other kitties named Chevis and Amoco....All of them adopted me. Chevis is around 13 and amoco 12. I pray for years of health for them.

I'm just rambling now...but somehow maybe I hope God will hear and see that every one that he takes, he takes a chunk of my soul with them.

I'm stuck at work right now and all I can think about is laying with Aspen ... I pray for at least the clot to disolve....if not the tumor. I know that I am grasping thin air with my desperate plea to God....but I feel like I'm going to lose it if I lose one more person or furbaby that I love.

i pray for you and aspen. what a hard time you are going thru. i lost my girls two months and seven day apart from each other. the pain even after a year it still hurts. kitten in my avatar was 18 when she passed. she knew it was time and let me know. poohbear who was 13 had to be put to sleep as she had a tumor on her spleen that burst. she literally had no life in her by the time i got her to the emergency vets, but i know in my head i did the right thing for both. i just wish i could explain it to my heart . i think its special for you and aspen to spend christmas together. i will light a candle for you and aspen wishing you peace and healing..
take care
michelle's kitty

My prayers are with you and Aspen this Christmas. A candle will be lit for you both. Please enjoy each other.

This is Aspen ... taken today.

I read on somone's post that they fed their ill pet baby food. Thank you to whoever it was.(I cant find the post) I got some beef and Veal baby food and she ate.

Again thank you.

Please continue to pray that her clot disolves.

I am praying for each and every one of you from the deepest part of my heart and soul.

Pepe and Aspen's dad.

thank you for sharing the picture of Aspen
what a beautiful girl
there are supposed to be christmas-miracles ?
i do wish so much, that there will be one for Aspen and you
Eva

Hugs, sending you and Aspen positive waves.

To Aspen's Dad, OMG thank you so much for taking the time to stop, and post to me amidst your own pain.
I had a cat named Ian, he was a Hymalian, he got sick and I feed him baby food through a needless syringe, please read the post that has his pic, he lived for a long time after that.
I'm so happy that my pics made you smile, you have no idea what that means to me.
I just found the special VCR thingy that allows you to put the tape in, to review what you recorded. Lets just say please stop by my thread next Fri.
once your baby eats it makes you feel so good, like you actually can control their destiny.
The only advice I can give is, if you don't feel what all the Dr's are saying to you, go with your gut feelings, again please read my thread about Ian, there's a pic of him to let you know your at the right post.
Your feelings about your baby can prolong their lives. The pic I have posted is Bue as a baby. My friend used to bring her cat Spencer down to play with Bue. We both adopted the kittens at the same time. I just viewed the video, and took pics today.

Have a good hoilday
Take Care

She is so beautiful! I'm so happy that she ate!

OMG she is beautiful! More pics, more pics!

Hi everybody....Aspen is eating and even hopping around using the litter box and drinking water and eating baby food. Your prayers are working. Please, I beg of you to continue praying.

Aspen's dad.

Thank you for keeping us updated during this trying time for you. The prayers are never stopping.

You will always have my prayers for Aspen. I am glad she is doing better.

Take care,
Ken Albin

Praying for you my friend. Bruce

Nice update, I consider this my Christmas eve upper! I continue with prayers and positive thoughts for more of the good news you brought, may Aspen delight us in getting all better.
Love to you who love so well

Hello everybody,

Well Aspen and I have spent so much time together. Thanks to all of your prayers she seems in good spirits....she cries for baby food and loves for me to massage her lame leg. I massage her alot to keep the blood flowing. I'm giving her extra doses of taurine, and and I'm crushing up B vitimins, and CoEnzyme Q10 disolving it in water and using a syringe to get it into her.(good for the heart and circulatory system) I'm trying to find out how to make dandilion extract to help protect her kidneys.

I'm like the rest of you. The vets gave up on her and said "it wouldn't be the wrong thing if you put her to sleep." But she's perking up and doesn't seem ready to go yet. If anybody know's of anything that will help level out her hyperthyroid please let me know.

Since the vet gave up on her I'm trying to treat her herbally. Any help would be appreciated and please continue to pray for her.

Pepe and Aspen's dad.

Aspen made it through christmas and even recovered the use of her foot and leg after she threw the clot from her heart. She regained her appet*ite and even gained a little weight. I've given her anything she wanted. We have spent every second together since that dark day in December when the vet gave up hope.

I asked everybody to pray for her, and you did. We had a wonderful holiday season together. She was doing so well, that I thought she might recover completely. I even began to doubt that she had cancer.

A couple of days ago, I noticed that she didn't want any food, not even the baby food that loved . So I began using a syringe to squirt small bits of the baby food into her mouth. Tonight, her breating is very hard....

Even though I have known since mid December that she was very sick, I have tried so hard to help her. I studied herbs and holistics and have given her herbal and vitimin supplements ... I have tried so hard to help her to maybe overcome this. I have slept about 3-4 hours a night just to be with her as much as possible.
Now the only thing she wants is for me to rub her belly (odd for a cat, but she's always loved it). I tell her what a beautiful girl she is and she purrs. If I get up to walk away she follows me with her eyes. I know she is so weak, but I can see the love in her eyes. I know she has been fighting to stay with me, but I think her little body is shutting down.

I'm afraid tonight will be her last night. I am at work 11P to 7A, and a friend is staying with her. I know it's odd for a guy to be this emotional, but I love her with all my heart.

I lost Pepe last year, and she hasn't been the same since. Pepe was seven when the next door neighbor's cat gave birth to Aspen. She was the runt and her tiny little paws were about the size of a pinky nail. I have been in her life since birth and so was Pepe.

I guess I have to take her tomorrow if she doesn't go tonight. I did that with Pepe when he got so bad. It is the loneliest feeling in the world when that wholesome, unconditional love leaves their tiny little body.

With the risk of sounding crazy...On the day of Pepe's death, we had a storm. The clouds were very dark with the exception of a hole from which there came a rainbow that lasted about 10 minutes. It has comforted me to think that perhaps it WAS a sign, but probably just coincidence.

However, I pray in Jesus' name that there is a place in heaven where we all will be reunited again.

I love my "Aspy Girl" with all of my heart and I feel like its being ripped in two right now.

Pepe and Aspen's dad
Adam

Hi Adam,Im am so sorry for what you are going thru right now my heart goes out to you .IT IS NOT odd for a male to have such feelings and emotions it shows how much of a lovely heart you must have and how you love your babies my thoughts and prayers are with Aspen and you right now .
take care
Warren Freddies loving dad

How coincidental that your name is Adam........In the beginning God's intention was for all of His creatures to live side by side in glorious harmony. Yes Adam there is indeed a place in His kingdom where we will all reunite and oh what a wondrous day it will be.

God gives us signs in many ways and it may very well be that the storm is a sign for you. Have faith that He will provide the comfort you so desperately need because Jesus loves you so much that He will help you through this difficult time just as He has helped you nurse and nurture your precious Aspen.

Your words of expression you used to describe your love and care of Aspen were heard clearly. She will be content to have you rub her belly if that is what is left for you to do for her.

May the Lord bless you and keep you, may His light shine upon you, and give you peace.

Dear Pepe and Aspen's dad, I do believe that the rainbow you saw was a sign meant for you to know that life goes on, in another form. With this whole lot of love you were able to give your babies, I am sure that Pepe got the priviledge of sending this your way. I don't think they can influence the outcomes of our lives on earth here but I do believe that they can and will send subltle signs to ease things when things are at their very worse. What a whole lot of love we get back when we see these little signs.
Keep open to the idea that they will stay by you no matter what. Hugs during this very hard time, courage and may you always be 'held' by all the love you have shared.

Aspen was laying on my bed when I got home this morning, just as she always is, only this time the life has left her suffering little body. I layed beside her and rubbed her one last time and began to cry and haven't stopped.

When I left for work last night I knew I probably wouldn't hear her purr or lay on her back to have her belly rubbed, again.

I just wish I had been able to be with her when she went.

The person sitting with her said she died about 5:15AM. I don't know what to do right now because she has been my obsession for quite some time.

She is with Pepe now and I hope to be with them again.

This is the anniversary of my father's death and the birthday of my late godfather. I somehow knew that Feb 6 would be the day.

I miss Aspen and Pepe. I think the worst pain is knowing that they were the only unconditional love I have ever known. We went through so many trying times in our lives and were always there for each other. They gave me a reason so many times to get out of bed.

Aspen just turned 18 and Pepe was 23. I truely cannot believe how those years have passed. It seems like yesterday that I brought each of them home. I guess the time until we are together again will be quick as well.

My heart breaks continually and again for my children.

Pepe and Aspen's dad
Adam

I'm sorry, Adam. It is all I can do to contain my emotions here at work. I know the despair you are feeling right now. the darkness and hopelessness is overwhelming...but you'll get through this....and you will see your babies again. For now let all of your emotions out no matter how painful. It's just not fair! I hate death...but I guess it part of the big package. It just always seems to come too soon...and sometimes prematurely.

Take care
John