This makes the second holiday I will spend without my Eileen. I wrapped gifts the other day and kept remembering how she used to love to play with the ribbon and bows. And how I always had to put the finished packages where she wouldn't reach them or she would unwrap them. Now I can just leave them anywhere. I wish so much she was here.

Magdalene

Hi Magdalene,

My heart breaks for you...This is the second Christmas for me without my Pepe. I'm going through a hard time with Aspen...I decorated the tree and put out stockings a couple of days ago just for her.

It is still so easy for me to remember how he felt to hold....Now I lay with Aspen every minute that I can....I just want to spend as much time as I can with her.

I hope you are not alone. It is so painful for me to think of you alone missing Eileen. Please visit here often.

Eileen is so beautiful.

Aspen and Pepe's dad.