Oh my Moose. One year ago today we lost you. I’m not sure how we lived through this year, my dear, without you. You came to give us love, in many ways you were love.

I miss how you smelled, how you looked, how you purred and yelled. I just want to hold you and kiss you and smell your tummy. I have cried a river, an ocean for you.

I was looking at the pictures of you, you were so small when you came to live with us! Only 1 ½ pounds. A tiny comical boy with that teeny, tiny moustache and eyes just a little crossed. Your food dish was bigger than you. You were sick even then and I was so afraid you’d never be a year old. We made a miracle, we knew it, every year you lived.

Last year I felt so robbed that you only had 10 years on the earth. Now I think I begin to understand how very lucky we were to have 10 whole years of your love.

Thank you for sending Majik our way. He makes us laugh every day. He is so cute and has so much energy! He isn’t you. Autumn misses you so much too. We need our Moose.

Thank you for all the years you spent with us, for holding on so long in a body that just wasn’t well. I know you knew how much your Daddy needed you.

We remember you and love you so much. We still don’t quite know how to be without you. I’m sure we will be together again sometime, I can’t wait. You are in our hearts forever. Love is forever.


Like the sun through the trees you came to love me.
Like a leaf on a breeze you blew away.

Through autumn's golden gown we used to kick our way,
You always loved this time of year.
Those fallen leaves lie undisturbed now
'Cause you're not here.
'Cause you're not here.
'Cause you're not here.


Wish I was kissing that tummy.



Love Mommy

moose's mom , that was so touching!! he sure was a handsome boy.
wishing you peace and sending love your way
michelle's kitty

Aw that was so sweet, and it made me tear up. Such a pretty boy

Sending you warm thoughts from Atl GA, Liv

Dear Lori,

I can't believe it's been a year. My heart goes out to you, I know your heart belongs to Moose. He was your baby and always will be. I know this is a very sad anniversary for you, and I am thinking of you. You gave Moose 10 wonderful years full of love and happiness.

Thanks for sharing your beautiful tribute to him, and the gorgeous pictures.

Love,

Kim

Dear Lori, Hugs during this really difficult time, I am sure the memories of those last days still stab at your heart and always will. You say your Moose was Love and I am sure it was but you Lori, you Moose Mom were the Love machine. How you were wonderful to your little Moose, I remember your telling us how frail his health was, yet he received your loving care for a decade What a wonderful, beautiful mom he was blessed to know and know that he sleeps in your heart until you both wake up to another world. Bless you Moose Mom, bless your huge heart that has and continues making room for this love and bless the angels that sing from within you.

Thank you all so much.

It's been a tough year but things are slowly getting better. It's funny that I still miss cleaning up after him, he vomited so often. I don't cry every day now. Yesterday was bad but we are learning to live in our new reality, without him.

We were so stupid, going along like we would have him forever. Even his last day we didn't know he was leaving. I didn't know the last time I fed him it would be the LAST time. He went so fast, one hour here the next gone, it was and still is such a shock.

Majik, our new kitten, is a challenge of a different sort. On the feral side we are taking what we learned of love and patience from Moose and letting him find his way to us and human/kitty love. He kissed my cheek yesterday for the first time! Maybe he was just licking the tears but I see it as a huge step for him. He came to us such a tiny scared baby, so afraid of hands.

We miss you Moose, and love you so much.

Love

I feel your pain, so sad we are all hitting the one anniversary around the same time. IT makes it seem so final at the one year anniversary......

I'll be thinking of you with love and support, and some prayers for Moose.......

Love, Amy

Sorry I couldn't respond yesterday (with my own anniversary so tortuous), but I'd like to add my condolences now.

It was a beautiful and touching message to your boy and I'm sure he knows how beloved he still is. I'm glad for you that you and your family are learning how to cope with these difficult and special days, and that your new little tyke gave you such a precious blessing to help you through it all......or was it prompted by Moose, himself, coming to say "Thanks, Mom, for keeping me close in your heart, as always. LOVE you, too!"

Liv

I don't know if I ever said how sorry I am you lost Smokey. Such a hard way to lose a furbaby. Smokey is so handsome, I'm just so very sorry you lost him. They take a part of our heart with them, don't they?

Love

Thanks guys, it helps to know others out there feel the same. My husband took the day off and we watched the few videos we have of Moose and looked at ALL the pictures we have of him. We laughed and cried. It was both hard to do and priceless to "see" him again. It made the "wanting to touch" him almost unbearable.

It's almost impossible to believe it's been so long since I held him, cleaned his cute face, smelled him. I just miss my big, big boy so much.

I know he sent Majik to us.

Love

Lori,

I'm so sorry I wasn't here for you Tuesday. My computer was down the first of the week. With my own "anniversary" coming up in December, I'm already dreading that day. I can imagine how difficult it was for you, missing your darling Moose.

Like you with Majick, I try to treasure each moment with Riley and not get mad at him for making messes, etc., because you never know which moment will be the last.

You are so lucky to have those videos of him to watch. Even though it hurts to watch them, and makes you miss him so much. I have only pictures of Alley, nothing that shows her moving, talking, alive.

Even though you can't see him, Moose is still with you, and he always will be.

hugs

Paula

Hi Moose Mom,
Moose was such a wonderful boy. I can really feel your pain.

Take care
John B

I'm so sorry. Your words to Moose are beautiful. I understand where you are right now. The 1 year anniversary is so difficult. x

Thank you all

It has been hard. I know everyone here understands and that does make things a bit better. It's been a real process letting go, even a little. I know he is still here with us, in our hearts. I know we will see him again. The wanting and wishing don't stop, but the love it still here.

Paula I'm so sorry you don't have any video of Alley. We only have two short ones of Moose, but omg how precious they are now. To "hear" him again. To see him move. My house is trashed a lot of the time from Majik and I just laugh to see it. He still gets poop caught in his fur and it gets everywhere, so what? He came and asked to be loved this morning, he doesn't often. He wanted his tummy rubbed on the bed and I was laying by him doing it. His little face was upside down looking at me, and I got a tiny lick, it made all his mess worth it.

How I wish we hadn't lost Moustache, but how lucky we were to have had him and his love for a decade. I wouldn't have missed one second of it.

Treasure what you have, every minute you have it, you never know when it just won't be there anymore.

Love

We don't have any videos of Misty either. We ended up buying one for our daughter and now have included Magic in a few videos, too. I regret not taking any videos, but I guess ahving never been through such a painful loss, I never really expected Misty to die (I was in denial) and never realized how important a video could be......

As a result, we've do%%ented everything our daughter has done, and Magic too! So, in some ways it taught me a valuable lesson.......

I am glad we ahve 2 more Halloween parties for our daughter this week, as this time of year was the last week Misty was really himself last year...the last month he spent on his blanket sleeping......

Glad you had some videos of Moose, I guess with losing Butch you knew that having videos would be a great comfort when you experienced another loss....

Thoughts with you again today.......Amy

Amy

Butch taught me to take lots of pictures, Moose taught me the value of video. I had Butch 22 years and have so few pictures of him, I really don't know why. We took hundreds of pictures of Moose. At the time I thought we were way overboard, now I know it wasn't enough.

The two videos we have of him we borrowed someone’s video camera. Last month we bought one of our own, finally. NOW we know the value of the video and we are getting tons of it for Autumn and Majik. We learn slowly I guess.

Death does teach us valuable lessons. It may sound stupid but I'm a much better person for having loved and lost my boys.

Yesterday and today I've been having an emotional breakdown. It's funny I kinda thought I was past that, but I guess you can't schedule them.

Thinking of you and Misty

Love

Sorry you've been having an emotional time lately, wish I could help!!! I guess the change of seasons makes things worse, too......I know it does for us.....

Hang in there and thanks for the well wishes......

Amy

Lori, it has been a while. I have been thinking of you of late. My year draws ever closer and after reading your post I cannot stay away from this place any longer. You were of great comfort and knowledge when I came to this place. I was compelled to come to this thread when I saw your year was here. You said:



I thought you were a wonderful person before, but I know what you mean. I have learned much also from the death of my babies. But the year is near and something painful has begun to stir within me. I will speak of it in another thread. My heart goes out to you my freind. Please take care...

John

Thank you, I think you are a very special person too. It seems so unfair that we have had to learn to live without our special friends. That a year can go by without them in it.

I can remember that I didn't want to do Thanksgiving last year, and that we did something and made it through, but not what. I remember that Christmas was a misery, but not the details. Grief and depression have taken my memories. Maybe that's a good thing.

I'll write more in your post.

Love

Hello Mooses Mom, I just want you to know you are in my thoughts.
I'm not sure it gets easier, if its only been 3 mths, or a year, or 10 yrs. I miss Twubby, and Bue.
Hang in there, ok?

Bue's Mommy

Thanks for your thoughts. I know you miss your kids too.

Love