on sept 3rd it wil be one year since i had to put my poohbear down. she was such a wonderful loving kitty of 13 yrs. a tortie ball of fluff .

my dearest
poohbear,
you came into my life shortly after i moved into my own apartment . a little brown and yellowish tortie ball of fluff. the prettiest yellow eyes i ever did see. so full of life and love. the loudest purr i ever heard. you were the only kitty that i knew who didnt mind her nose being touched, the softest nose, the way you wrinkled it up when i said your name made my heart melt. as i sit here tears streaming down my face..i cant express how much i miss you..you were such a part of me, my life, my breath, every beat of my heart.
i cant help recall when the day came to put you to sleep. i wish i had known that you were ill, you hid it so well from me and from daddy. the way you sat in my arms when the time came to say goodbye,you looked right at me..more like right into my soul..and let me know it was ok, but the guilt i feel will last a lifetime. i didnt want you to go. you went so peacefully..for that i am thankful...i kissed your head, your belly and each one of your paws.. what i wouldnt do to kiss those paws again..to kiss that nose..to hear that purr...i love you so much and i miss you and i think about you everyday..not a day goes by that i dont think about you.
thank you for never really leaving me. the signs you give me and the flashes of your tail that i see in the house every now and again..
i just want you to know i love you and you were the bestest cat in the whole world.
mommy and daddy love you
xoxox you will remain forever in my heart..

(edited to correct typo's hard to type when crying your heart out)

Dear Michelles kitty, I shed a few tears reading what you just wrote and I feel for you as that unforgettable Sept. 3 comes around the corner, that first anniversary must be very hard to go through, hugs to you and I am so happy that Poohbear gives you a be happy nudge every now and then. Take care and wishing you many messages of hope during this difficult time.

Michelles kitty, I give to you my deepest sympathy on your approaching 1yr anniversary. Your words speak in volumn of the love that you have for Poobear. I'm sure that Poobear had a happy wonderful life because of that love. I know how devastating it is to remember that sad day, to keep replaying it over and over in your head. I also do that and it's such a painful memory . I didn't want to be there when it came time to say good bye. But I knew that I couldn't let Max die alone. It was the most important unselfish act that I ever had to do in my life. Most important I will forever welcome the pain that comes with that memory because it means that my baby felt comforted and loved when it came time to say good bye. Thou the guilt and pain will forever remain with us, It's worth it knowing that our furrybabies died surrounded with love. I hope that you can take some comfort in knowing that Poobear left peacefully because you were there with her. You were a great mommy to Poobear don't ever forget that. Take care k9pal

Michelle,
A whole year already. It went by too fast, didn't it? I know how much you miss your baby and I hope the passage of time has helped in some small way, along with so many people praying for you on this forum. Please know your baby is still with you, watching over you and missing you as much as you miss him.
Please take care and know we're all here for you!
Lisa

one year today and i made it thru. funny thing is i had seen a flash of her tail today while doing laundry. its always while doing laundry or near the laundry basket. i hadnt made the connection but then it dawned on me she used to hop in the basket with the warm clothes from the dryer. it all made sense. it was like she was sending a comfort message to me.. and somehow i felt at peace all day..but i made it thru. i felt she was with me all day long...boy i miss her so much..and i have to relive this all over again on nov 10 for my dear sweet kitten..i dont know how i'll make thru for that one...

The solace of knowing that they are still with you in some way, anyway, is a comfort to a lot of people. For me, I just can't believe that such a strong bond that we develop with our beloved babies just goes away when their physical body leaves. I often feel as though my other cats see departed cats - it's sort of eerie, but comforting at the same time, because the ones who are looking aren't scared at all, just sort of intrigued. Even if I'm in front of what they see, the other cats will look right through me - now, that is an odd feeling. But it doesn't scare any of us, and as I say, it is a comfort. You'll make it through. Come here and share with us, we know what it's like. You'll heal, and be a more empathetic person for it, thanks to your kitten. Take care -- Barb

Poohbear and Kitten's Mom

I just want you to know that I understand where you are and I'm thinking of you and your Poohbear. I don't know how you will make it through Kitten's time either, but I know you will. Two so close is just so damn hard.

Thinking of you
Love

Michelle,

I think your sweet Poohbear did send you a sign yesterday. Alley's 1 yr anniversary is coming up in a few months and I'm dreading it alread. I know how much you miss your baby.

Thinking of you and poohbear


Hugs