i am just a complete utter mess lately. i try not to cry. and i do. sept is coming up so fast and it will be a year that pooh-bear has left us. all the guilt has come back. the sadness and the pain, i thought i'd be ok. guess im not.. i want to crawl under a rock and stay there never to emerge again. if i feel this way now..how am i going to feel when the date actually comes?.
my older dog is slowing down and has problems with her hip and leg. i watch her and think how can i make the choice for when the time comes. my heart doesnt want to go thru the pain again. although i dont think it has ever recovered from pooh-bear i think i just muttle thru day to day. this just stinks. i hate the fact that i feel this way.. thanks for letting me vent i just needed to tell someone.. and get it out sigh..

Dear Michelles kitty, I can only sympathize especially because I too dread the 'one year' anniversaries coming up oct 12 and Nov. 2, sort of afraid to lose it during that period, I briefly thought about going away to keep my mind off this intense time but decided this is no time to be a tourist or a guest anywhere
else than right here where they spent their lives Try to be very easy on yourself and plan a lot of free time for then. It's so so hard sometimes, we miss them so all the time but there are incredible peaks, all we can do is hold on and talk to one another. We'll be there for you. Hugs.

Michelle's Kitty, I'm so sorry you are having a difficult time. I must say I'm a bit discouraged to read that a year later, it is still so hard! I am going on a month losing my cat Mama and I'm definitely still a mess. I was hoping I'd be better soon but I'm starting to figure out that the pain is going to last quite some time.

It is great to be able to come here for support. I hope you can find some comfort as the 1 year anniverary approaches.

Michelle's Kitty, I'm so sorry your feeling down. It stinks that the joy and happiness has been taken away from us and replaced with emotional pain and suffering. Sometimes I ask myself is all this pain worth it? But then I remember all the years of joy that my furbaby gave me and I wouldn't trade it for the world. Keep strong and take care K9pal

Michelle's Kitty
I am so sorry that you are still feeling this way--and I understand because of the situation with my Missy who just passed away this past Monday---

We are a multi-cat household and we have been thru this many times--and will go thru it many more times--with the exception of Missy--all the others were sick and it was the humane thing to do--but I never forget any of them and when I think about them--I get that lump and knot-

I came across this the other day and it has helped me to somewhat deal with this recent situation--

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Dear Michelle's kitty,
I know so much how you feel - for me it's just 11 days away from the one year. I read the diary I kept last year - this time last year Furry was here & "she's happy" was something I wrote. I suppose we should take comfort in the fact that, unlike us, I hope they could enjoy each day without the fear or knowledge of death. What do you plan to do on the day? I can't think what will make it a day that I can survive?
Judith

So sorry for your pain. Although I am doing better thse days, I dread the one year mark myself--the week after Thanksgiving. Christmas will be okay I think because we'll be focus on Santa for our daughter, but Thanksgiving is going to hurt big time.

We've made palns to go out of town for Thanksgiving for this reason. You may want to do the same--maybe a trip where you can stay with a friend or at a Red Roof Inn that accepts your other pet. Although it won't make the pain go away, it may ease it some which a change in environment.

I'll be thinking of you and keep us posted how your other dog is doing......

Hugs, Misty's Mama