I saw on the news how alot of people are getting married today due to the #'s 777 . The number 7 considered a lucky # because of the relation to the bible, and winning that jackpot at *******s. The number 7 to me represents the death of my furbaby. Today marks the second month I've been without him. May 7th 2007 I will never forget that god forsaken day. I miss him so much, I can't stand not having him with me. He was the one joy that I had in my life. Now he's gone and I will never have the privilege of his companionship and love again. It's just not fair! One month he was healthy, Then the next month he developes a slight limp, then boom! Out of nowhere cancer eats away his hip, forms tumors, and blinds him. I thought he was healthy how could I not know. How long had the cancer been forming. How long was he in pain before he actually yelped to me that he was. I'm so angry that I found out when it was to late and I could do nothing for him but put him out of his misery. I'm so sorry Max that I didn't know and I will never forgive myself. You were so loving and sweet. I will forever miss and love you.

You know K9pal, I also will never forgive myself for not realizing how sick my cat was either but I know that my cats both forgive me for whatever mistakes I may have made in caring for them, as much as I would have readily forgiven them for any of their mistakes had they been my caregivers instead. What we did was not perfect, but our love was.
It's very hard, only 2 months since your Max is gone, I am becoming an expert in grieving because it has been 6 months more for me. I can not say it gets easier but I can say you get better at coping with the loss. Hugs. It's so hard and we miss them so so much, forever.

I am so very sorry. I'm sure my saying that you did everything you could and were a great companion to your beloved little one offers little comfort but I'm sure that what I say is true.

We cannot control things that we are unaware of and bear no responsibility for them.

You did not knowingly ignore a health problem, you trusted your instincts and thought things were o.k. It was too late when you found out. Cancer is brutal, ugly and cruel and often acts with lightening speed.

I hope that your pain eases for you.

p.s. i never liked 7's either!

K9pal, you did do all you could. I know how you feel though. I'm sorry you are feeling down today. I am too. I miss my baby a lot today and it amplifies feelings I've tried to stuff away.

Take care
John B

P.S. BTW...it is my birthday today, so I'm not sure whether I can disagree or confirm your thoughts on the number 7. These days I tend to agree.

John B May I wish you a very happy birthday and since you were born on the seventh
it's gotta be a great number too, you've made it so for me! Hugs through the blues we share. Some days can really be painful, hope you're re surfacing somehow. Be easy on yourself, do something you enjoy, treat yourself, you deserve it!

Thank you Toonie, Zookeeper, and John B, For your advise and support. Sometimes it helps just to know people understand and know exactly how you feel. I think it's very helpful to just release all the pain instead of keeping it couped up. Thanks for listening. John B, Happy Birthday ! Maybe the # 7 isn't so bad after all. I hope you had a great B-day.

Thanks, K9pal, You know I was just trying to throw a little humor in there. You have every right to hate that number. I'm not so find of February 1st either.