Well folks, I was a frequent visitor to this site 3 years ago as my 15 year old cat, Kudi had passed away here in Phoenix. It was a devestating time for me and my wife and I still hold my discussions with members here very special because those talks helped us through a very dark time in our lives. Kudi was everything to me and I'm still not completely over his passing.

I'm sad to report that Kudi's mom, Moguwai, passed away peacefully at home yesterday at the age of 20 years old - yes, 20 years old. We had her over half our lives. She was a very special girl.

Moguwai began having the usual "old cat" problems around 2 years ago. She developed a tumor under her right shoulder which eventually caused the amputation of her right leg. We int*itially thought that procedure would be too tramatic for a cat that age, but in typical fashion, she overcame the disability and continued to live a very active life. Our vet requested that she be giving Sub-Q fluids to keep her hydrated, so we learned how to do and 3 times a week, she learned to love "fluid time".

About 2 months ago during a routine examination and x-ray, our Vet found those same tumors were back, only this time there was tumors forming in her lungs. At this point, our Vet said there was nothing they could do for. He gave her anywhere from 1-2 months left. We took her home and she seemed to be doing very well up until 2 days ago.

Yesterday morning, my wife had just finished feeding her and placed her in her special bed we made for her between our couch and love seat in the living room. Usually Moguwai goes directly to sleep without making a sound. Right when my wife sat down, Moguwai climbed out from behind the couch and laid down next to her. My wife thought nothing of it since Moguwai was purring and she always purred very loud. Not 2 minutes later, my wife noticed that the purring had stopped, she looked down and Moguwai had peacefully died without making a sound. I came out from the bedroom and my wife was sitting there quietly crying with Moguwai in her arms - it was the saddest thing I have ever ever seen.

We kept Moguwai at home for the next 30 minutes loving, kissing and saying our goodbyes to her - it hurt so much. We then took her to our Vet who has been taking care of her all these years and there wasn't a dry eye in the entire hospital - it was such a touching tribute to such a special little girl.

We will forever miss Moguwai. She traveled the world with us, moved several times and had two beautiful sons who were just a sweet as she was. I only hope now that Moguwai is back together with her sons and they are playing like they used to.

Thanks for listening. Here's a picture of Moguwai I took only 4 days before she passed away.

We love you little girl and we'll see you again someday.

Tony in Phoenix.

Hi Tony...not a dry eye here either. My heart goes out to you and yours. You knew where to come. I was moved by your story so I couldn't post right away. I know the pain you are feeling very well. I have lost two of my own in the last 7 months. It is one of the saddest times we are forced to commit to in our life. You are what I refer to as one of the chosen "gaurdians". You care for that which cannot care for itself. You give freely your love and feelings to a creature that was a "gift" to you in a sense. Now as the creature is reclaimed by That from which it was created, you are left in what feels like your darkest hour. I feel so terribly sad for you.

We all hope that we can move on to the next plane of existance as easily as Moguwai did. It is a blessing for the departed but leaves us, the living, so terribly empty and wanting. I hope that you do indeed find comfort in the knowledge that Moguwai did in fact leave in the most dignified and preferable of methods.

I am hearing that you seem to think that Moguwai knew her time had come. I seem to also hear that it was OK (purring) and perfectly normal to do so. May my God grant me the knowledge, intuition, and dignity that you furbaby demonstrated in her final moments. Nobody can EVER tell me or make me believe that humans are the smartest creatures on earth, and if people want evidence of that, why Moguwai just demonstrated it!

it,s really hard to deal with there loss,she obviosly new it was her time and got up to be with your wife.they say animals have a six sense.i suppose the only small mercy is that she did go peacefully at home with dignity and did have a exceptionally long life.at least you didn,t have to see her go in a horrific way as i did my two girls within nine weeks of each other .she went peacefully,something we all wish for but very really happerns.twenty years is a very long time and you will find it very hard to adjust,but we all find an inner strength from somewhere.i can,t be the death of any animal,but unfortunately they do live short lives and we all have to deal with there loss at some time in our life,but at least we have had them in our life.i hope you can get through it.it never really goes away,we just cope with it.

Hi Tony,
I'm so sorry for your loss. You story of Moguwai was definately a tear jerker. What a beautiful kitty she is! Such a good old girl she was. I don't know that I can go on as my eyes are starting to fill up, something about her reminds me of my Sadie Mae, but here goes. I believe with all of my heart that Moguwai's spirit is indeed in a better place. I'm sorry for the journy of grief that you have to go through now, but I also sense that if you had to go through it for anyone it would be for your precious Moguwai. I love that name by the way. I don't know what it means but it sounds very dignified.

Hang in there, Tony. We are all here for you.

John B

Tony, I can barely see to type I am crying so hard! What a lovely tribute to your beautiful girl! She had a wonderful life with you. I am feeling your sorrow. I am grieving for my sweet dog Murphy who lived 15 years before cancer took him 6 days ago. I thought (and hoped) he might pass at home, he was so ill, but in the end he needed assistance to relieve his suffering. My thoughts are with you and your family.

Laney

Thank you everyone for your kind words. It sure is tough being home and not seeing or hearing Moguwai, but I know she's in a great place now, so I take great comfort in knowing that.

Thanks again and best wishes to everyone.

Tony

Tony, I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you I feel the pain you must be suffering and I hope that you can find the support that you need on this site. Take care and keep posting.

What a beautiful girl! Moguwai was obviously very much loved. Goodness, 20 yrs old....how awesome, she was one tough little cookie!

What a great wonderful time you have had with Moguwai but how hard it must be to
be without her, after the 20 years you have known. My heart goes to you Tony and your wife, it will be very hard for you but I hope that Moguwai and Kudi can somehow see you through this, that their love goes on and continues to be returned to you.
Take care and be good to each other, you were blessed to have given and received the love of such beautiful creatures.

Tony, you wrote this when Kudi passed and it was so beautiful it thought it worth repeating

I am sitting here bawling as I read about your beautiful baby. I pray that when Babe goes she can die peacefully like yours. I'm so petrified that I will have to help her and make the decision. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know this is so hard for you.

Thank you everyone for your kind words - they are very comforting. Hope all is well with everyone.

Toney in Pheonix,

What a beautuful cat Moguwai was. She was a beautiful girl. She looked so very tired like she is saying it is time for me to leave. I have a picture taken of my Raggs the day he died and he was so sick and it is hard for me to look at. 20yrs is such a long life for a cat but not near as long as we would like. My thoughts are with you . My loss of Raggs will be a year July 5th. The pain is better but I still miss him so much.
Joanne (Raggs MOm)