The other morning,while laying in bed slowly coming to.. I was about 60% awake,but eyes were closed.. I heard this male voice tell me "Ellie will lead the way". I heard it in my mind,not ears.. but it felt like all the other thoughts that one suffers at these stages of mourning,but it was clear.
If you can imagine, on some movies,tv or radio, they will edit together a whole mess of sounds..people talking, traffic, radios.. you know.. gives you a mixed up or confusion feeling. But then, they edit in just a sentence,with everyhing else muted. That's how this felt. Once it was siad, it was back to normal programming.

I was wondering it means, when it's -my- turn, Ellie will show me to the light?

Will it mean, when we go for another dog, she will lead me to one she's "prepared for me earlier"? Perhaps, she'll lead me out of this sadness?

Or was I just imagining things? Like when for example yesterday, typing on here,I called her name three times. I then felt after waiting for a sign and turning back to type, a cool breeze touch my right elbow just underneath? I moved my arm a little outwards to find the source,but couldn't find it. Moved it back again and I could still feel it there just for a moment longer.

I've wandered about the house, calling out my Dad's name, my wife's last dog's,our last cat's,my childhood dog's... I just siad out loud, you might all like to pop by.. have a real party going on.. Well,it made me smile..as I'm sure it would them. It might sound flippant,but I wasn't kidding.

doggy daddy,
sure, they give us signs.. i too have seen both pooh bear and kitten in my house as if they never left me. and you know what else? i talk to them both. i'd like to think they can hear me. when i turn the can opener i swear i hear kitten come trotting in to see what i'm opening and i can feel her.. then i say i know your there.. and i would share what i'm opening if only you could have it..then the feeling goes..sad when that happens. i beleive ellie is there with you every step of your day and night. the breeze you felt, i think it was her. some signs are really noticeable and some are slight..but they happen. she may lead you to your next love ..maybe someone that she picked for you..you'll know it when the time is right for you. keep talking to her.. in my heart i know she can hear you...
much love
michelle
p.s.
am i right to guess you are from down under?

I like to think that she'll lead me to a new pooch too..one she's prepared earlier.
I'll just have to let the tide steer me along me thinks.
We (my wife and Mr Brown,our remaining 4 legger) went to one of the shelters today..just a test . One of the young girls who volunteers there took us over to see some dogs in the compounds... she was trying to help, but as she was new, took us to the unsocialable dogs. Mr Brown is a Chihuahua X.. and these were all BIGGER. Poor little guy wet himself. So I took him back to the car.. and that's when the rifle club nextdoor (alarming for all sorts of reasons) started up.
"That went well." I siad to the Mrs when she got back.
Obviously I should be listening to what I'm told in my sleep then!!

and yep, I'm an Aussie. Brisbane, Queensland.

We've just spent a few hours scouring the web for a dog similar to Ellie. She was a Kelpie X,but can't figure out what else. The only one so far is Doberman. But not all the features match up.

It's now 21 past midnight..so adios for now. I'll give you an update if anything occurs tonight. We washed Ellie's bedding today and I cleared it of her things..

not sure if this will show up or not, but this is a pix of my pup tee, she is a doberman x. best little pup she is.
poor mr.brown must have been so scared. but you will find one thats right. he/she will probably pick you instead of you picking him/her. it always happens that way for sure. brisbane.. wow!! not to far from the aussie zoo i take it? poohbear passed away on the 3rd and steve irwin on the 4th..two losses ..when we saw the memorial here in the u.s. my whole family was just a sobbing mess..my dtr was really upset that he passed..shes 10 and was just starting to really get into his shows here..but now she's looking forward to seeing bindi's show. i hope that tee's pix shows up so you can see how much she looks like ellie...
luv
michelle

yay!! it showed!!
i was reading your post again and realised you had cleaned ellies things..i did the same about two months after the kitties passed. it took me two months to finally let go of the litter box(it was clean) when i did dismantle it i sobbed over it threw myself on top of it..if anyone would have seen me they wouldhave thought i completley lost it.(warranting a trip to the funny farm). i did keep the kitty house that pooh and kitten slept in up and it still is up smells like them.. havent the heart to take it down yet...someday maybe...
luv'
michelle

Dear Doggy Daddy and Doggy Mommy,
I am wishing you peace and support in your journey, we are going to pick up a new puppy on Tuesday, I have complete mixed feelings, but mostly good, it will be right when you are ready, I tried not to look for the exact one like my boy coloring etc, and this one will be a golden but different, and I think that will be a good thing for us, although the heart aches, its good to know that a new baby needs you now and you must be there for them now...I understand, we've been without Hrudey boy since Christmas, so its tearing us up from missing animal love...anyway, best wishes to you both, I understand those feelings. Tory, Hrudey and Frank's Momma,

when we recently we had to pack up his things... some toys, his bowls, collars, leashes, and his last collar is in a box with some fur and its smells exactly like him. I can't always open it for long or I lose it, but I always still want it around me...anyway off now to puppy proof, seems like so long since we were puppy proofing the house again... Take Care!! Love to see a picture of Ella, I wish I had those experiences, I don't feel it so much anymore, but I know he's here with us, its the only place for him...

I thought I saw something like a black tail in a mirror this morning. I've decided that what ever little signs are going happen,they're going to be quick and little.
My wife thought she heard Ellie's tail thumping on the floor as she would if we stirred, she'd give a little wag against the floor or the bed.
She always slept under our bed on my side. On hot nights she's wander under the window.. so we always had to wash our curtains.

All the best with the Puppy Proofing, My Buddy! They always find something you missed!



Hug 'em & kiss 'em. Lots & lots.

Michelle, the markings are the same. I've heard that these are the natural ones, because they are the parts they use to communicate to other dogs. We've just bred them out in most breeds.
She's about twice the size of a pure Kelpie.. But had big feet etc.. either Lab or Doby...

Here's a good pic of Ellie-Mae. (I've got a few here...)