At about 10.15am this morning Lucy joined Denis in the sky.

I have her on my lap, blood coming from her nose, she has been hit by a car. I heard the car sound it's horn twice, went outside and found her dead.

Another beautiful cat is lost.

I want to scream, shout, swear. I can't believe this has happened.

I can't type any more than that at the moment.

E.M., I am so sorry!! My heart goes out to you and I can only imagine the grief you are experiencing right now!!!!!

I have to get to work right now and I'll write more when I get home. For now I just want to at least reassure you that you'll be together with Lucy again! and that she's fine and in no emotional or physical pain!

Try to hang in there. Do you have people nearby who can support you through this? I'm glad you found this site, and we'll be here for you.

I'll write more in a few hours.

Love and prayers and empathy,
Kathy

E.M

Oh no. Oh honey I am so sorry for you. Poor little Lucy. I think you are very brave and strong to have posted this much so soon. I'm so sorry you lost your Lucy. So soon after Denis too, it must be so hard. Scream, shout, break something or more than one something, tear your clothes, scratch your arms till they bleed, do whatever helps you.

I hope you can take some comfort from thinking of Lucy and Denis together.

She is Lucy in the Sky, with diamonds now.....

Thinking of you and Lucy

I am truly sorry for your loss. Words cannot express the remorse I feel for you at this moment. My heart & thoughts are with you.

Oh you poor dear E.M. what a horrible thing for you to have found Lucy in this way.
I've always left my own cats free to go where they pleased, it seemed to me that their lives were so much more complete by giving them this freedom eventhough I always feared that this kind of thing would happen to one of them yet they lived 13 years without being picked up by a coyote or hit by a car. You and Lucy were not as lucky and I am so so sorry for you E.M. but that is not always the case. Have no regrets, freedom counts for many more years in their life's adventure.
But it is so very sad, I know what a caring loving person you are and what an impact this will have on you. Please know that Denis will be giving Lucy all the love that he learned from you.
This is what you had said to Denis, I believe you now will find two bright stars together when you look at the sky. Make a wish, Denis will try and make your and Lucy's wishes come true. Hold on to hope E.M., remember the beauty of what you have known and know that more will come to you. I know that you will be helped through this by Denis and Lucy and they will make the pain so much less, and the magic so much more for you and all that you are. You are our own bright star for our dark days here on LS.
Please take care of yourself, we need your shine. Meanwhile let us put our hearts next to yours and sigh that we are with you, heart and soul.

Thank you all.

I'm not sure how I managed to post so early this morning, for some reason my feelings were just BLANK, it was as what had happened hadn't even reached my brain and registered the impact of everything. I think I am still in shock. I couldn't even ring my partner as he works on the rigs.

We live on a quite country lane that sees about a handful of cars a day and some stupid, ignorant, idiot took my girls life because they chose to drive too fast (around a blind bend aswell).

In anger I posted a note and pinned it to the telegraph pole that said 'A sarcastic thank you to whoever drove too fast along here this morning and killed my cat Lucy. Perhaps in future you will chose to slow down so we do not have to lose another life. RIP Lucy.

Lucy was originally a feral cat that we homed after finding her in the orchard so we could not deny her the outside world from where she grew up.

I am now dreading every thought of tonight, tomorrow etc as my partner is not back for another 11 days so this is something I am going to have to go through by myself.

I am going to have to go now as evrything is getting a bit wet, and I need to spend some time with Lucy. She would have been 3 in a couple of months.

I'm going to miss you girl.

I think I should try and explain this a bit better otherwise you may think that I didn't care for Lucy and thats why I could post so quickly but this really really isn't the case and I don't want anyone to think I was minimising her death so soon.

I needed to reach out to someone, to anything, no one was here for me, I just needed support quickly, before the pain started to hit big time, if you know what I mean.

I loved Lucy to bits and am heartbroken, in 4 months I have gone from 3 cats to 1. As the hours go by it is getting harder and harder, the reality is hitting home, of what I have to do next, and then all the pain of not seeing her in her usual places, and only one cat to feed from now on.

I'm not sure what to do with myself or how I am going to cope, it is all making me feel quite sick actually. I don't think it helps to know grief so well because you know what to expect and what is coming.

Oh Deb, I am so so sorry about Lucy. I can't imagine how hard this must be for you, so soon after losing Denis. I have lost two cats in my life, to being struck by a car like that, and it is an awful thing to deal with. I don't understand why people can't be more careful.

Know that I am thinking of you, and I'm sure Denis will take good care of Lucy.

Lucy and Denis are together. You'll all be reunited when it's your time to pass from this body.

The grief is what's so hard, and there's no "cure" -- but you've come to the right place for support. I'm sorry that your partner is so far away right now.

I'm glad you have your other kitty there.

SEnding prayers to you and Lucy (your little angel),
Kathy

You don't have to explain anything to anybody. You do what you have to and write what you need to and we will all be here waiting for you if you need us. My thoughts & prayers are with you.

I am so sorry you lost Lucy in such a tragic way.
How can someone run a beautiful cat down and just drive on ? I sincerely hope there is a day of reckoning for these despicable people.
My thoughts are with you.

Cleo1

Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds

Lucy was a very beautiful cat, what a lovely picture.
Thanks for sharing.

Cleo1

To be born so beautiful, to be cared for and loved right from the start, to
be wholly part of a happy family and to be surrounded by beauty, to never know illness...Lucy's life may have been short in years but the quality of life she has known went way beyond the count. Still, I know how difficult your days must be and send you
my heartfelt wishes that you will surmount this hard time and look beyond, for Lucy was truly happy and wants you to be well and on with your plans. Take care dear E.M.

E.M

Oh Lucy was so, so beautiful! I'm so sorry she doesn't grace the Earth anymore. She looks so happy in the picture, outside where she loved to be.

Honey, like I said I thought you were brave and strong to be able to post, I NEVER thought you didn't love your Lucy lots and lots. Now I understand that you HAD to reach out to someone. I'm still amazed at how strong you are, I know you don't really feel that, but you are. I'm so sorry you have to go this alone for 11 days.

You must feel like you have lost your family. I wish I had better words.

Love

To my dearest Lucy,

Today my dear I lose the battle to keep you and must return your body, I can't fight this denial any longer, and I now have to let you go. The last couple of days have been so surreal, it's like you haven't left us yet because I can still see you, hold you, touch you, kiss you and cry on you, making you all wet. Today will change that.

Today all I will have left, is you encapsulated in photos and the sweetest of memories left in my heart, and they are not enough. You join my other babies that have left me with just photos and memories.

I will not be able to look at you, and the mearest smile from me would send you noisily purring away for ages.

I will not be able to quitely open the treat cupboard to find you come running and jump on top of the freezer awaiting your baby chicken treats that you adored so much.

I will not be able to see your sister play stalk you and pounce on you in suprise, much to your annoyance.

I will not be able to tickle those curly bits of fur on your tummy that you loved me rubbing so much.

I will not be able to seek you out in the house, wondering where you are sleeping only to find you in the most uncomfortable spot you could ever imagine like when you sandwiched yourself between the two cupboards, lying on top of the hairdryer.

I will not be able to let you in to give you some dinner only for you to request to immediately go back outside again because the outside world was your world and was just so exciting.

I will not be able to see you come home with a mouse which you would give to Emily because you didn't want it.

I will not be able to see you turn your nose up at any that tasted of fish or was fish because you were the only cat I have ever known that didn't like fish, it was as if you used to say 'if I was meant to like fish they would be running around in the fields ready for me to catch'.

I will not be calling you home every night along with Emily's name, sometimes calling for over an hour, waiting up for you to come in. I will not be sending your Daddy out in the pouring rain looking for you only to have you sneek in the back door whilst he is still out searching for you, getting soaking wet.

I will not walk through the house trying to move, with you entwirling yourself around my feet, happily purring away, and us not getting any where.

I will not be able to shut you, by mistake, in the otherside of the house because you had sneeked up to lie on the spare bed.

I will not be able to tell you off on the odd occasion that I wasn't up in time to let you out to go to the toilet, because to have to walk in the litter tray was beneath you and you didn't like to get your feet dirty.

I will not be able to detangle your beautiful long fur in the winter when the slightest disturbance to your fur would send it into a miriad of tiny knots.

I will not be able to sit you on my lap and brush your fur only to hear you grumble everytime we hit a knot.

I will not be able to look at that impossibly bushiest tail I have ever seen in my life and wondered where you got that from.

I will not be able to watch and laugh at you with that inbuilt toy that you had, and the way it would keep you amused for hours - that tail.

I will not be able to watch you as you used to play death defying games on top of the upstairs bannister when you dangled your tail over the side and tryed to catch it without falling off and landing down stairs.

I will not be able to watch you climb up the rose arch or pergola and play the same game of catching the dangling tail at great height, you were such a thrill seeker.

I will not be able to watch as you climbed the highest tree whilst Mummy stood at the bottom looking on in horror as you got too high, and the branches got smaller and smaller to take your weight.

I will not be able to look at you and think how adorably cute you looked a few days earlier when Ruby put you in her dolly's car seat, and how you loved laying in there so much, you even let her carry you around whilst you were still in it. I wanted your Daddy to see this for himself when he got back but all we have now is one photo of you laying contentedly in it.

You see Lucy there is a whole lot of things I am going to miss, and your Daddy too. The birds still get up each morning and sing their beautiful songs, but they aren't for me because in my dark world that I am living in right now there is no joy, there is no beauty, that was all taken away when you left me. It is a dark and empty place that I find myself in once again. There will one day be a chink of light that will pierce and penetrate through the darkness but that day will be along time coming and it will be an uphill struggle to get to that time and place without you.

I remember the day when your Daddy found you in the hedge when you was only 6 months old, and the day I found your sister a week later. We thought you would be with us forever and we would grow old together but we have been robbed of all those years together.

Farewell my dear, precious Lucy, I say goodbye, you were the sweetest, happiest cat anyone could have had the pleasure of sharing their life with.

May the memories of you live on for eternity.

Oh..my heart is breaking for you right now. I was in shock reading your post. Please don't feel the need to explain why you posted so soon - you went through a horribly traumatic event and you need the support of others right now. I'm glad you reached out.

I honestly can't imagine what you must be feeling..all I can say is that I am here - we are all here for you - so please don't feel alone in this. Lucy's loss makes me angry - people are ignorant and thoughtless - and it must be so painful for you.

Lucy is beautiful... I am sending love to her.

I'm so sorry this tragedy happened at all, let alone so soon after your other losses. Please keep reaching out and we will be here..

Oh, E.M., I'm so sorry about what happened to Lucy. I love the picture you posted, she was such a beautiful kitty. And don't worry about posting too soon, you do what you want to. No one will judge you -- indeed, there's nothing to judge. I can see from what you write, and how beautifully you express your feelings for her, how much you loved her.

You're in my thoughts and prayers, E.M.

-- Michelle

In no particular order -

Toonie, Moose Mom, Alleys Mama, Xrayspex, Mo & Maisie's Mom, Little Girl's Mommy, Cleo 1 and Lucy1 Josie2,

I don't have many words that I can find right now, but just a big heartfelt thanks to you all, it means a great deal to me to read you replies, your kind words and support you have sent. You are all truely wonderful, kind people.

Today I have to muster the strength to put on a smile, it is my daughters 6th birthday, when in my heart all I really want to do is find a big hole and crawl into it!

Today will be one big wash out but I will try my best, for her sake.

Lucy was one big ball of love, her life was filled with love and happiness, even though it was cut so short.

I am still filled with a lot of anger, and I have to somehow get past this. It is one big tragedy.

Im so so sorry that Lucy has been taken too early from you, but Im sure she will be happy at the Bridge and watching you and willing you to enjoy your daughters 6th birthday, she will be sending extra purrs and licks to help celebrate with you all xx
Rest and play well at the Bridge Lucy, and think of you mummy who is missing you terribly xx

I am so, so sorry for you loss. What a beautiful girl Lucy was.

Magdalene

Dear EM,
I remember your stories about Denis, what a terrible shock and horror Lucy is a beautiful girl, I don't have words that can help, just know we are all thinking of you right now, and sending lots of love and prayers...keep strong, that is a beautiful picture.
Best Wishes, Tory, Hrudey's and Frank's Momma

Hi EM,
I really do feel for you. It's been about 5 days since you lost your Lucy and I know the loss still feels so fresh. Lucy is fine now, but you will be a mess for quite awhile. I feel like our tears and all of the emotions that keep coming are fine tributes to the love we have for our departed babies...but of course if our cats were around to see how we were acting they would think we were quite undignified .

How is your remaining kitty doing? Does she miss Lucy? I'm sure she does. Continue to share how you are doing with all of your caring friends here. It really does help.

John B

I am tentatively posting 'Ode to Lucy' for I am no poet, however all I can say is it comes straight from the heart, and I guess that is all that matters right now.



ODE TO LUCY


My name is Lucy, a cat of three,

of which I will no longer be.

By a car I was hit early morning,

at daybreak, the sun was dawning.

Of my ending she suffers much,

for never again to hold or touch.

For I am gone, you will never see,

only sweet memories remain of me.

Forever in your heart and mind,

together again one day we will find.

Do not weep for me today,

for sleeping peacefully, here I lay.

Another body, a new life I return,

the greatest wish of which I yearn.

Until this day which slowly come,

watch me in Heaven, I am having fun.


With Love, my little Lucy Girl,

Mum

A lovely poem that brings tears to my eyes, so touching and sincere.
Lucy had and continues to receive your wonderful love, she must be very grateful
for this short but completely wonderful life with you. Take care dear E.M.
you are a beautiful soul.

Toonie,

Sorry it's been so long, I wanted to post a 'thank you' here as well for adding the lyrics but haven't been physically able to so, as you know.

What I did learn was, although we may feel like giving up on everything, when everything is taken away from you, including your mobility and you are forced to do nothing except wait for you body to heal, not only does it suck, you realise how much of the small things in life that we take for granted, such as our health - being able to walk, to sit, to bend, to cook, to drive, to clean, the list goes on.

So I guess what I am saying is as much as it hurts on the inside, be thankful it's not hurting on the outside too!

John B,

Thanks for asking about my little Emily, another post I wanted to reply to!

She is doing real good, there has been a change in her but one for the better it seems. Emily has always been a nervous cat and would spend much of her time running away from me during the day and would only come to me in the evenings when she would sit on my lap for a cuddle. I think she must have suffered some sort of trauma or possible rejection before we found her when she was about 10-15 weeks old. She is going to Molly, our dog for comfort (which she ignores!) but also during the day, seeks me out too. Most of the time she hangs out with me in the orchard, meowing, asking for lots of strokes and cuddles. Perhaps this is because she has lost her father figure, Denis and her playmate, Lucy, and now looks to me as a replacement. I have always been protective of Emily because of her nature but it looks like we might be making big, positive steps with her.

Emily and Lucy were like chalk and cheese, with Lucy I have never had such a happy cat, you would only have to look at her and she would start to purr inscessantly, she was very independent and grown up for her age, but when she came in for tea she would wrap herself around your legs that it was impossible to get anywhere, even to feed her I miss her dearly and always will.

Anyway must go, thanks for all your kind words everyone, it's a long and winding road, but one that we must all travel, I guess....

Sorry Toonie, just read that second paragraph again and it sounded like I was addressing it to you it was actually meant to be a general thought and not directed at anyone in particular! And I did actually forget to thank you, if you read it again I just said I wanted to thank you because I couldn't then didn't actually do it now that I can! A bit of a 'dim' moment me thinks.

So for the record a big 'Thank you' Toonie, you have a very generous heart as everyone here can verify!

Will now go and cut my hands off to stop myself from typing and offending anyone else!

No wonder animals love you E.M. I couldn't help but laugh at your last post. You have demonstrated more thought and compasion in one jumbled post than most do in a lifetime. God Bless You!

E.M. No offense there! I know what you're talking about, we too often take so many things for granted;we should count our blessings and accept that the rain must fall in our lives as in everybody's life. Happy to see you up and about, no hand cutting now!

Two anniversaries in one week, a 5 month one for my dear boy Denis on Monday and now 1 month today for our wonderful little Lucy.

What can I say? It hardly seems possible that Lucy has been gone for a whole month, she seems very much still in the house with all the memories of her and all her things still in the same place, the bits of fur still lying on her ###### chair. Yet sometimes it feels like both her and Denis have been gone for absolutely forever, every minute turned into an hour.

It's also so hard trying not to feel guilty because she leaves behind her sister Emily, it has felt like part of a 'non identical twin' has been ripped away and just one half of that pair is left.

I feel the guilt when I give Emily cuddles or when I go to the treat cupboard because Lucy would always be the first one there. I felt guilty when I bought Emily a pretty pink diamante collar because I couldn't buy the silver one for Lucy, perhaps I should have bought it anyway. They have always been a pair, they came as a pair (well within one week of each other), their bowls matched, the placemats matched, everything was the same just like with a twin.

And now Emily is going solo.

My last remaining cat.

How long do I get to keep her? I wish I could answer that question.

Monday, monday....Thinking of you today, hope that Denis can send you comfort and hope, let us know how you are doing,hugs.