I picked them up on Friday. I can't describe what i am feeling right now. I imagined that I would feel better, having her back here with me where she belongs. But it hurts so, so much right now. I thought I was doing OK but now I'm not so sure.

Dear Kimm,
The pain is the price we pay for loving them so. It's over 8 months now since Furry passed away, but there isn't a day goes by that I don't long for her to be here, especially with these sunny days that she would have loved. All I can say is that would you rather have never loved her? as that's the only way to avoid the hurt you feel now.
Thinking of you, Judith

Sorry that you are feeling so sad. It will get better, I can assure you that it will.
Somehow, this grieving is a sort of connection to our loved ones, I know because it's almost 6 months since my precious cat has gone and I still grieve although I find some days very light and others still rather heavy. Give it time, that's all you can do.

I completely understand...I thought I would feel better, or that it would offer some sort of relief, but it just made it more final to me. An urn filled with ashes can't ever replace the lively, loving little being that filled the house with such a big presence. The grieving never stops - you just have moments that are better than others.. I am thinking of you today..

I know it is so hard, it took us a few weeks to open them....I will definitely be thinking of you. IT does get better than it feels right now, if that gives you some hope. I am so sorry for your loss of Peaches, she sure was lucky to have you. Will be thinking of you.....Misty's Mama

Dear Kimm,
I just read your post about picking up your baby's ashes. I know exactly how you feel. When we picked up Nikki's ashes it nearly broke my heart. Even now as I write these words they seem so sureal. I think she is going to pop her head around the corner with that big dopey grin on her face. I miss her so much. Please know that everyone here knows the pain you are feeling. Take care and come back often to help you through your grief.
God Bless you.
Ramona

I didn't know what to expect.....never having gone thru this before, not with me making "the" decision in the first place & also deciding to have Peaches cremated. I thought I would feel better having her here with me, afterwards. I still think for right now, that is what I need.

I have been trying to be strong these last 2 weeks without her but I don't know when this hurt will end. One thing that keeps me going is that I (believe it or not) actually enjoy my job. So during the day I am distracted by what I know needs to be done. BUT WHEN i COME HOME......

Peaches used to run down the stairs to greet me when I walked thru the door. My dog (who is awesome, I don't want to take any wind out of her sails because she is a true gem)....the 2 of them would wait patiently until we shed our coats & set the mail on the table so that we could focus our attention on them. Now my sweet furr-butt Peaches is far away & I miss her beyond belief. I think Zusha misses her too.

Right now her ashes are in a zippy bag inside of a pretty black velvet bag with a beautiful inscription.....I have an urn picked out for her but have not yet ordered it.

Thanks to all of you for your emotional support. You are all a godsend. I am sorry that you are all going thru this awful pain as I am.

kimm (Peaches mommy)

It's so hard not to see them when and where you expect them. So sad every time. I'm so sorry things are hard for you right now. At a month things got a bit better for me, don't know why.

For me, getting the ashes back was a good thing. My baby was home, safe with me. My hubby and I went together to get them and I held the box close to my heart all the way home. I can put it in his favorite places, like in the window in the sun or in the bedroom when we sleep. When I am really lonely and sad for him I still hold him close to my heart.

On the other hand I hate that I have to say 'good morning' every day to a box, not a warm furry.

Love