Hello everyone,
It's been 12 days since Hani, my beautiful little girl passed away at the age of 13. She was diagnosed with a heart condition 15 months ago, but had been doing well through medication and treatment until a week before when she noticeably got weaker. Completely devastated and in overwhelming grief and pain, I desperately needed consolation and solace, and "Lightning Strike" was one of the few shelters that I could take myself under.
Of this tragedy, I was informed a day later by my younger sister in Seoul, Korea, who has been the main caretaker to Hani for all these years. I left Hani and my family in September 1999 for the United States, and have not been able to visit them once during the last 7.5 years. Reasons were plenty for both why I came here and why I could not visit them, but it is unncessary to go into details here. When and ever since I left Korea, the one that I missed the most was Hani, the beautiful little Maltese girl, who I loved so much. I loved my other family -- my mom, brother and sisters -- but unlike with them I was not able to really communicate with Hani and I was so saddened when I thought about how my little Hani would be wondering what happened to her "big brother" Jay. According to my mom, Hani sat at the door waiting for me to come home, for a good couple of weeks. Through all these 7.5 years, Hani has been a kind of a token of my promise and hope of seeing my family again. I thought to myself that I had to just go see her before it's too late. But 7.5 years was too long a time for a 5.5 year old dog, and now Hani is no longer in Seoul but in heaven.
While coping with my grief and pain, I found one of the hardest part of it the feelings of guilt and regret. The thought I somehow failed to keep my promise with Hani tormented me so badly. I have my own life here with a loving partner and another wondeful puppy named Bruno. Even though I'm sure that I did not love and miss Hani any less than I loved Bruno, it still hurt me so much that I was not able to see her again and maybe more profoundly that I had to leave her. Troubling throughts, one after another, came inside me and bothered me. I tried so hard to remind myself that Hani, even without me there, was surrounded by so many other family members who loved her as much as I did, had a wonderful happy life of 13 years, and left this earth as an angel for heaven. And, I believe it is true. She WAS a very happy girl who lived a full life of love and happiness, and she must have already understood why I wasn't able to come and see her and forgiven me.
No moment awake passed by without me keenly conscious of the dreadful fact that Hani is no longer with us. I was not able to go to sleep without a few drinks. I could not really eat, talk with people who do not know about what I was going through, and found everything else meaningless. I cried and cried at home from work. I prayed and prayed that God would give me strength to get through this period and also that Hani's new life in heaven would be a blessed one. I read two books: "Grieving the Death of a Pet" by Betty J. Carmack, and "Goodbye Friend" by Gary Kowalski. Reading "Grieving the Death of a Pet" helped me a lot. It's full of such comforting and healing words!
More than 10 days later, now, I am still (of course) in the midst of my grieving, but with a little more hope for healing and peace. I am praying that I will be able to remember my little girl Hani with more smile than tears. I will still cry, but with tears from love and thanks rather than of pain and sorrow.
Please kindly keep Hani and me in your prayer and thoughts, friends. It will mean a lot to both of us. Thank you!
Full Version: Remembering Hani, My Beautiful Little Girl
You and your precious girl, Hani 
are in my thoughts and in my prayers.
I truly believe that everything you shared with us is 100% true. Your beloved girl, Hani will ALWAYS be with you. She will forever be in your heart!
Please come here to Lightning-Strike as often as you would like. There are many wonderful & caring people here. You are never alone.
Peace & Love to you and yours,
Denise
are in my thoughts and in my prayers.QUOTE
I tried so hard to remind myself that Hani, even without me there, was surrounded by so many other family members who loved her as much as I did, had a wonderful happy life of 13 years, and left this earth as an angel for heaven. And, I believe it is true. She WAS a very happy girl who lived a full life of love and happiness, and she must have already understood why I wasn't able to come and see her and forgiven me.
I truly believe that everything you shared with us is 100% true. Your beloved girl, Hani
will ALWAYS be with you. She will forever be in your heart!Please come here to Lightning-Strike as often as you would like. There are many wonderful & caring people here. You are never alone.
Peace & Love to you and yours,
Denise
What a beautiful dog! I am so sorry that she is gone and that you did not get to say good-bye. Although you could not be with her, you can take comfort in the fact that she was surrounded by loving family members, and did have a wonderful and happy life.
I understand how you feel since I still feel bad that I didn't get to say good-bye to Debbie, the dog of my childhood who died years ago while I was away at college. Unlike Hani, Debbie died alone at the vet's office because my parents were trying a hopeless attempt to save her.
It is wonderful that you have Bruno. Of course, no dog can take Hani's place, but it is great that you have room in your heart for both of them.
Come to this site often. It helps.
Daisy's Mommy
I understand how you feel since I still feel bad that I didn't get to say good-bye to Debbie, the dog of my childhood who died years ago while I was away at college. Unlike Hani, Debbie died alone at the vet's office because my parents were trying a hopeless attempt to save her.
It is wonderful that you have Bruno. Of course, no dog can take Hani's place, but it is great that you have room in your heart for both of them.
Come to this site often. It helps.
Daisy's Mommy
Oh your Hani was so beautiful! I'm so sorry you lost her. It is so hard to lose them. It's hard to eat or sleep for a while after they have gone. It's good to hear you are doing better.
I'm sure Hani loves you, she has forgiven you everything. From where she is she knows things we don't. Take comfort in your Bruno.
Keeping you and Hani in my thoughs
I'm sure Hani loves you, she has forgiven you everything. From where she is she knows things we don't. Take comfort in your Bruno.
Keeping you and Hani in my thoughs
Thank you Muffins, Daisy's Mommy and Moose Mom for your kind and comforting words!
Paying a little tribute to Hani by sharing our story with you friends really soothes my wounded heart a lot. Knowing that there are so many warm-hearted people who understand how I hurt for my beloved Hani and care about it will help me a great deal all through my grieving journey.
Last night was probably the first night that I could sleep with a hint of peace and serenity in my mind. I felt myself starting to get more and more certain that the essence of Hani will always be with us and her leaving this earthly life is part of the continuum of life that no one may avoid. It felt like everything would be going okay pretty soon. But the moment I woke up this morning, I knew there's a long way to go ahead. That I will panic and be sad still very often, if not as acutely or constantly as before. And I know I will be staying here with you a long time.
Another thing is, I find it rather difficult to talk about the greif and pain from the loss of Hani with my family in Seoul. I am afraid that they might think it's my own burden that I should take care of, having been away from Hani for all these years -- like they were the ones who stayed with Hani and cared for her, and they should also be consoling me now?, kind of like that. I wrote about how I was trying to cope with my grief and all that on our family blog, and I am getting less and less responses to those. They witnessed the gradual weakening of Hani for the last year or so and had plenty of time to prepare for her departure, while I, away from Hani and them, was too afraid to even acknowledge the things to come, and probably they might be having an even more difficult time than me, because they should feel the absence of Hani more physically. I understand that and I love my family a lot, but still it hurts as well that talking about it with each other may not seem to be a good idea to some of them. So it all feels very complicated.
Anyway, why would that matter? What matters is I love my Hani and I miss her so much!
Paying a little tribute to Hani by sharing our story with you friends really soothes my wounded heart a lot. Knowing that there are so many warm-hearted people who understand how I hurt for my beloved Hani and care about it will help me a great deal all through my grieving journey.
Last night was probably the first night that I could sleep with a hint of peace and serenity in my mind. I felt myself starting to get more and more certain that the essence of Hani will always be with us and her leaving this earthly life is part of the continuum of life that no one may avoid. It felt like everything would be going okay pretty soon. But the moment I woke up this morning, I knew there's a long way to go ahead. That I will panic and be sad still very often, if not as acutely or constantly as before. And I know I will be staying here with you a long time.
Another thing is, I find it rather difficult to talk about the greif and pain from the loss of Hani with my family in Seoul. I am afraid that they might think it's my own burden that I should take care of, having been away from Hani for all these years -- like they were the ones who stayed with Hani and cared for her, and they should also be consoling me now?, kind of like that. I wrote about how I was trying to cope with my grief and all that on our family blog, and I am getting less and less responses to those. They witnessed the gradual weakening of Hani for the last year or so and had plenty of time to prepare for her departure, while I, away from Hani and them, was too afraid to even acknowledge the things to come, and probably they might be having an even more difficult time than me, because they should feel the absence of Hani more physically. I understand that and I love my family a lot, but still it hurts as well that talking about it with each other may not seem to be a good idea to some of them. So it all feels very complicated.
Anyway, why would that matter? What matters is I love my Hani and I miss her so much!
Hani&Bruno
It can be hard to talk to anyone about losing a much loved pet. I think that is why this site is so wonderful. It gives you a place to let out some feelings that you just can't seem to anywhere else.
Your feelings are complicated, I think there is a bit of guilt there because you never got back to see her. Guilt is a normal part of grief. The bottom line is that you loved her and lost her. I hope finding this site will help you sort things out.
Two weeks isn't much time. It takes a while to get used to a world without our loved ones in it.
Love
It can be hard to talk to anyone about losing a much loved pet. I think that is why this site is so wonderful. It gives you a place to let out some feelings that you just can't seem to anywhere else.
Your feelings are complicated, I think there is a bit of guilt there because you never got back to see her. Guilt is a normal part of grief. The bottom line is that you loved her and lost her. I hope finding this site will help you sort things out.
Two weeks isn't much time. It takes a while to get used to a world without our loved ones in it.
Love
Thank you Moose Mom! You're right. Guilt has been one of the scariest emotions that I've been coping with...
Last night my mom called and we talked about a lot of nice sweet things about Hani, how happy and well loved she always was and also how she responded to all that love in her own special way. She also told me how beautiful she looked when she drew her last breath. It was peaceful and tranquil, she says, and we all have to be very grateful for that as well as for all the wonderful and happy moments Hani shared with us. She says our family there are recovering from grief mainly through talking with each other about all the happy memories with Hani as the best puppy our family has ever had, rather than trying to ignore it. When I confessed to her that I had been bothered by all these complicated feelings, she said everyone was very worried about me grieving intensely and praying for my healing. This was probably the fourth phone conversation with my mom since Hani left us, and the most comforting one.
This morning between 8 and 9 marked exactly 2 weeks of Hani's departure. On my way to work, this acknowledgement pained me so much that I almost threw up and wanted to find a place to hide and cry. I know it feels better after a good crying, but being at work does not make it easy. It will be another difficult day. I still cannot chat with my colleagues or even sit together with any of them for lunch. It might sound funny, but it just feels too "gross" still. Reassuring myself that she had a wonderful happy life of 13 years and now she is an angel in heaven and in our hearts does help but not all the time. Reading some of the most heartbreaking stories here about the sudden horribly violent last moments of their furbabies, I know I have to be thankful but it still hurts. Some suggest doing things that I find "fun," but I cannot seem to find anything fun or even slightly interesting. How do most of us spend our time in and to cope with grief?
Last night my mom called and we talked about a lot of nice sweet things about Hani, how happy and well loved she always was and also how she responded to all that love in her own special way. She also told me how beautiful she looked when she drew her last breath. It was peaceful and tranquil, she says, and we all have to be very grateful for that as well as for all the wonderful and happy moments Hani shared with us. She says our family there are recovering from grief mainly through talking with each other about all the happy memories with Hani as the best puppy our family has ever had, rather than trying to ignore it. When I confessed to her that I had been bothered by all these complicated feelings, she said everyone was very worried about me grieving intensely and praying for my healing. This was probably the fourth phone conversation with my mom since Hani left us, and the most comforting one.
This morning between 8 and 9 marked exactly 2 weeks of Hani's departure. On my way to work, this acknowledgement pained me so much that I almost threw up and wanted to find a place to hide and cry. I know it feels better after a good crying, but being at work does not make it easy. It will be another difficult day. I still cannot chat with my colleagues or even sit together with any of them for lunch. It might sound funny, but it just feels too "gross" still. Reassuring myself that she had a wonderful happy life of 13 years and now she is an angel in heaven and in our hearts does help but not all the time. Reading some of the most heartbreaking stories here about the sudden horribly violent last moments of their furbabies, I know I have to be thankful but it still hurts. Some suggest doing things that I find "fun," but I cannot seem to find anything fun or even slightly interesting. How do most of us spend our time in and to cope with grief?
I'm so sorry you lost your beautiful Hani. I too, was separated from my Alley for the last year of her life, only being able to see her once in that time. She was going to come live with me here soon, but she died in December. It has been so hard, not being able to be there with her at the end and wondering if she felt abandoned or blamed me for leaving her.
Sometimes life takes us away from the ones we love, and sometimes they can't wait for us. Hani knows how much you loved her and she will be waiting for you at the rainbow bridge someday. She may not have seen you for a while, but they never forget love.
Sometimes life takes us away from the ones we love, and sometimes they can't wait for us. Hani knows how much you loved her and she will be waiting for you at the rainbow bridge someday. She may not have seen you for a while, but they never forget love.
Hani&Bruno,
I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. Please don't let the guilt of her being in Korea without you consume you. You left her in loving hands which is much more than many people do. Moving to a new country is difficult enough. Traveling oversees with a dog can be extremely difficult. And it sounds like there were other cir%%stances involved on top of it. You should not for one moment dwell on any of that to make yourself feel worse. You gave her the absolute best! She was taken care of by her loving auntie. All dogs should be so lucky!
I'm glad you found us. This is a good place to put down your feelings and know you're not alone. I wish there were magic words to make you feel better, but there aren't. All I can tell you is that it hurts, and it's going to hurt, and you'll cry and get angry and feel guilty and be depressed and cry some more and remember her and maybe laugh a little and eventually you'll start feeling a little better. As for me, I wanted the exact date and time when all these would happen, but there's no calendar either.
My heart goes out to you. Take care of yourself.
Peace&Love
V
I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. Please don't let the guilt of her being in Korea without you consume you. You left her in loving hands which is much more than many people do. Moving to a new country is difficult enough. Traveling oversees with a dog can be extremely difficult. And it sounds like there were other cir%%stances involved on top of it. You should not for one moment dwell on any of that to make yourself feel worse. You gave her the absolute best! She was taken care of by her loving auntie. All dogs should be so lucky!
I'm glad you found us. This is a good place to put down your feelings and know you're not alone. I wish there were magic words to make you feel better, but there aren't. All I can tell you is that it hurts, and it's going to hurt, and you'll cry and get angry and feel guilty and be depressed and cry some more and remember her and maybe laugh a little and eventually you'll start feeling a little better. As for me, I wanted the exact date and time when all these would happen, but there's no calendar either.
My heart goes out to you. Take care of yourself.
Peace&Love
V
Hani & Bruno
Well for me "fun" was not a word I could use for a while. What I did was whatever seemed to make things eaiser for me. It took a while before I could eat, I just felt like throwing up all the time. I tried to find things that did make me feel like I could eat them, and to drink a lot of water. When I was thinking of the bad things and getting really sad, I'd gently try to think of good memories. If I needed to cry but it wasn't a good time I'd tell myself "just wait" as soon as you are home and can, you can cry as much as you need.
Give it time, it can take a while. Months or more. Just be gentle with yourself. As for the guilt, you did the best you could. No one, not even you, can ask more than that. Just remember, Hani loved you, she would not want you to be so sad. She wants you to find the joy in living again.
Love
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Some suggest doing things that I find "fun," but I cannot seem to find anything fun or even slightly interesting. How do most of us spend our time in and to cope with grief?
Well for me "fun" was not a word I could use for a while. What I did was whatever seemed to make things eaiser for me. It took a while before I could eat, I just felt like throwing up all the time. I tried to find things that did make me feel like I could eat them, and to drink a lot of water. When I was thinking of the bad things and getting really sad, I'd gently try to think of good memories. If I needed to cry but it wasn't a good time I'd tell myself "just wait" as soon as you are home and can, you can cry as much as you need.
Give it time, it can take a while. Months or more. Just be gentle with yourself. As for the guilt, you did the best you could. No one, not even you, can ask more than that. Just remember, Hani loved you, she would not want you to be so sad. She wants you to find the joy in living again.
Love
AlleysMama
vizsla-angel
Moose Mom
Thank you all for your comforting words (especially "vizsla-angel" -- I know how difficult time you are going through right now...)!
It's confusing what's happening in my mind. When the feeling of guilt attacks me, I try to tell myself "With or without me there, Hani was loved by so many family members all through her happy life of 13 years. She passed away without too much struggle and now she's an angel in heaven," sort of implying Hani probably forgot me during the last 7.5 years. But at the same time I seem to want to believe that Hani never forgot me and we will be in each others' hearts forever. I guess the correct answer should be that Hani never forgot me but she also did not have to miss me terribly because she was loved plenty enough. She was not only "my" Hani but "all my family's," and she will always be alive in me and my family's hearts!
Moose Mom
Yes, that's exactly what I feel every morning. I didn't know how to express it so I just put it as "panic attack," but this is the perfect expression. To me, Hani has always been the symbol of the only thing I care about from what I have left in Korea -- my family. While away from it, Hani represented "the thing" for me to come home to "sometime soon." Now without her physically there, although I love my other family members very much, I'm afraid my coming home will be a very saddening, bittersweet at best, one.
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Hani knows how much you loved her and she will be waiting for you at the rainbow bridge someday.
vizsla-angel
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Please don't let the guilt of her being in Korea without you consume you. You should not for one moment dwell on any of that to make yourself feel worse. You gave her the absolute best! She was taken care of by her loving auntie. All dogs should be so lucky!
Moose Mom
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Give it time, it can take a while. Months or more. Just be gentle with yourself. As for the guilt, you did the best you could. No one, not even you, can ask more than that. Just remember, Hani loved you, she would not want you to be so sad. She wants you to find the joy in living again.
Thank you all for your comforting words (especially "vizsla-angel" -- I know how difficult time you are going through right now...)!
It's confusing what's happening in my mind. When the feeling of guilt attacks me, I try to tell myself "With or without me there, Hani was loved by so many family members all through her happy life of 13 years. She passed away without too much struggle and now she's an angel in heaven," sort of implying Hani probably forgot me during the last 7.5 years. But at the same time I seem to want to believe that Hani never forgot me and we will be in each others' hearts forever. I guess the correct answer should be that Hani never forgot me but she also did not have to miss me terribly because she was loved plenty enough. She was not only "my" Hani but "all my family's," and she will always be alive in me and my family's hearts!
Moose Mom
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What I remember is waking up every morning for quite a while and thinking "Moose is dead", like a hammer blow to my heart.
Yes, that's exactly what I feel every morning. I didn't know how to express it so I just put it as "panic attack," but this is the perfect expression. To me, Hani has always been the symbol of the only thing I care about from what I have left in Korea -- my family. While away from it, Hani represented "the thing" for me to come home to "sometime soon." Now without her physically there, although I love my other family members very much, I'm afraid my coming home will be a very saddening, bittersweet at best, one.
One year has passed since Hani's passing...
My body knew, when March began, that this one year anniversary was really coming up, and it did. Yes, like everybody says, it's quite hard to believe. My beautiful Hani must be by now quite comfortable with the life in Heaven. When I think that, it makes me smile.
Two days ago, as I was very much getting into this mode of "remembrance" and "anniversary," I heard a 85 year old lady living across the hallway from where I live with Larry (my partner) and Bruno (my "another Maltese" boy) had just passed away. She was diagnosed with lung cancer only about a couple of months ago. All of that led me to think again about death, and thus, life as well.
Since Hani left us here in the earth for Heaven a year ago, my life externally probably has not changed much, but my life spritually has gone through a lot, a lot of changes, that is, I guess, and I think I owe Hani one more thing: She tremendously helped me get mature. I have been reading quite substantially (at least compared to before), starting with "grieving and surviving from loss of beloved animal friends" and moving on to "afterlife of animals," "animal rights," "vegetarianism," and "Buddism." I became semi-vegetarian (I still eat fish and seafood), I became much more "mindful" at all times, and I find myself trying to be gentle and compassionate to myself, my loved ones and others.
It's amazing that the passing of Hani, my precious girl, brought about this much change in me. And again, I thank her for that. Still, more than anything, I miss her so very dearly.
I love you Hani, and we will all be together in Heaven when the time comes. You know that, right? Be happy and patient there. And, see you soon!:-)
My body knew, when March began, that this one year anniversary was really coming up, and it did. Yes, like everybody says, it's quite hard to believe. My beautiful Hani must be by now quite comfortable with the life in Heaven. When I think that, it makes me smile.
Two days ago, as I was very much getting into this mode of "remembrance" and "anniversary," I heard a 85 year old lady living across the hallway from where I live with Larry (my partner) and Bruno (my "another Maltese" boy) had just passed away. She was diagnosed with lung cancer only about a couple of months ago. All of that led me to think again about death, and thus, life as well.
Since Hani left us here in the earth for Heaven a year ago, my life externally probably has not changed much, but my life spritually has gone through a lot, a lot of changes, that is, I guess, and I think I owe Hani one more thing: She tremendously helped me get mature. I have been reading quite substantially (at least compared to before), starting with "grieving and surviving from loss of beloved animal friends" and moving on to "afterlife of animals," "animal rights," "vegetarianism," and "Buddism." I became semi-vegetarian (I still eat fish and seafood), I became much more "mindful" at all times, and I find myself trying to be gentle and compassionate to myself, my loved ones and others.
It's amazing that the passing of Hani, my precious girl, brought about this much change in me. And again, I thank her for that. Still, more than anything, I miss her so very dearly.
I love you Hani, and we will all be together in Heaven when the time comes. You know that, right? Be happy and patient there. And, see you soon!:-)
She is beautiful and from your words it is so obvious you two were meant for each other and I am glad you found each other. I read where she was 13 years old and it is always nice to think someone had their special one for a number of good years.
But as we all know, we never have them long enough and the time we have them sometimes goes by oh so fast.
She will always be with you as she is a part of you. Her pictures must bring back some memories that make you smile for pictures are of happy, healthy times...the best of times.
The missing will always be there for they own a part of our hearts and will never ever be forgotten.
Take Care....
But as we all know, we never have them long enough and the time we have them sometimes goes by oh so fast.
She will always be with you as she is a part of you. Her pictures must bring back some memories that make you smile for pictures are of happy, healthy times...the best of times.
The missing will always be there for they own a part of our hearts and will never ever be forgotten.
Take Care....
The loving memories we keep in our heart forever is what our loved furangels leave for us when they pass and move onto heaven. When there is a death that hurts us so much it stimulates all kinds of changes in many people. It forces us to think about what is really important in life.
When my precious Goliath passed away suddenly in my arms I was absolutely shocked and devastated. The dark, empty, and lonely hole I crawled into after he left was the most horrible place I have ever been. The longer I stayed there, the more isolated I felt, and I realized that I had become a prisoner of the worst kind of dark spirit there could possibly be.
When I found this site in early January I was able to begin to heal. As I began my journey of healing, little by little I began to reawaken and open my mind and heart. Goliath made a difference in the quality and meaning in my life while he was here and after his death my life changed yet again. The latter is what changed me most as I realized the many lessons of love he taught me while he was here would carry on through his teachings for the rest of my life.
Today I am full of happiness and look forward to each and every day. It is what I do on this day with my life that will make my memories of tomorrow. The present is what I look at to make the very best of, because tomorrow has not arrived yet. It is said that if we have one foot into yesterday and the other in tomorrow, that we miss the opporunity of making today unique and meaningful.
As you remember your sweet Hani at this one year anniversary of her death may you savor in the beautiful memories you and she made together. The beauty of Hani is all around you and in you for the rest of your natural life and one day you and she will reunite in heaven.
When my precious Goliath passed away suddenly in my arms I was absolutely shocked and devastated. The dark, empty, and lonely hole I crawled into after he left was the most horrible place I have ever been. The longer I stayed there, the more isolated I felt, and I realized that I had become a prisoner of the worst kind of dark spirit there could possibly be.
When I found this site in early January I was able to begin to heal. As I began my journey of healing, little by little I began to reawaken and open my mind and heart. Goliath made a difference in the quality and meaning in my life while he was here and after his death my life changed yet again. The latter is what changed me most as I realized the many lessons of love he taught me while he was here would carry on through his teachings for the rest of my life.
Today I am full of happiness and look forward to each and every day. It is what I do on this day with my life that will make my memories of tomorrow. The present is what I look at to make the very best of, because tomorrow has not arrived yet. It is said that if we have one foot into yesterday and the other in tomorrow, that we miss the opporunity of making today unique and meaningful.
As you remember your sweet Hani at this one year anniversary of her death may you savor in the beautiful memories you and she made together. The beauty of Hani is all around you and in you for the rest of your natural life and one day you and she will reunite in heaven.
Hanni sure was cute.
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Since Hani left us here in the earth for Heaven a year ago, my life externally probably has not changed much, but my life spritually has gone through a lot, a lot of changes, that is, I guess, and I think I owe Hani one more thing: She tremendously helped me get mature. I have been reading quite substantially (at least compared to before), starting with "grieving and surviving from loss of beloved animal friends" and moving on to "afterlife of animals," "animal rights," "vegetarianism," and "Buddism." I became semi-vegetarian (I still eat fish and seafood), I became much more "mindful" at all times, and I find myself trying to be gentle and compassionate to myself, my loved ones and others.
It's amazing that the passing of Hani, my precious girl, brought about this much change in me.
It's amazing that the passing of Hani, my precious girl, brought about this much change in me.
How beautiful you are, to take Hani's death and turn it into something so positive. They are our angels and you have been blessed by your own angel Hani, what she was continues and goes on teaching you. The link between you and Hani was never broken, beyond her life she has been following you she has had a hand in this growing up that you have done. Take care and smile because you have a whole world of reasons to do so, so much inspiration to find, Hani is now your gentle spirit guide and for this we are all so grateful, the world out here needs so much of your gentle and compassionate kind. Hugs.
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