Its been 6 weeks now since my Gizzy left me. I was told it would get easier, but its so wrong. Its not easier, infact its harder. Everyday is a struggle. It is spring now, and Gizzy loved to soak up the early morning sun on the window ledge. Each morning I pull back the curtains and half expect to see him sat there with his big smile. He would pur, and rub his face all over mine. Its so not fair. I cant see this ever getting better.....

Dearest God
Be good to him, my precious boy,
For all the joy he gave me treat him well.
Let him run and play and climb Heaven’s highest tree;
Give him all the love and trust that he gave me.

Guide him gently, take him through
So he may know eternal life and peace with you.

The bond we share will never die;
Our souls as one will never part.

O hear my prayer, dear Lord
And know it’s true
That I may mend the anguish
of my breaking heart.

It has been almost 4 months since I lost Alley and no it doesn't get easier, and you never stop missing them, but it does change. I think about her every day, but I don't sit here crying all day like I did at one month, or two. Six weeks isn't a long time and now you are coming to the realization that Gizzy is truly gone and it does get harder before it gets better.

Never forget though, Gizzy is still with you. It did help me a little to have a session with an animal communicator. Have you considered talking to one?

Gizzy's Mommy

Six weeks isn't long. Like Alley's mama said, you are "now you are coming to the realization that Gizzy is truly gone". Acceptance is one of the hardest things we do, we all tend to resist that. It isn't fair, I agree.

My Moose passed in the Fall, and I'm having trouble with the spring too. How much he loved it. It's so hard to be out in the yard and see his face everywhere, but it's not really him.

It's almost 6 months for me and things are different, maybe better. I don't cry everyday anymore. I still miss him so much.

Love

So sorry for the loss of Gizzy, I remember 6 weeks being pretty tough also....I'll be thinking of you today.....

Misty's Mama

It does get better. It just takes so long and happens so gradually that you just don't notice it happening... Then something reminds you and it feels like you're back at square one. But you're really not. It's just a long process.

When Copper died I wanted the exact date when I would feel "normal" again. Even before all this happened with Penny, I found myself still missing him. It wasn't as often as it was at first and it didn't hurt as bad. Now I'm a bigger mess than ever - but that's another story.

I completely understand what you're saying about expecting to see Gizzy by the window. The last 9 years of my life involved Copper's habits, and the past year has involved Penny's too. I'm used to them doing things at certain times and when I realize they're not there, all those terrible feelings come right back up again.

I've been through this more times than I can count. All I can say for sure is that it will get better.

Blue moon, it's been 9 weeks for me and I still miss my cat Sadie so much. I'm thinking back 3 weeks ago and it was very hard. You are normal. It is hard. I like your poem. Take comfort in the fact that Gizzy is doing much better than you are right now with God ...I know that helps me.