Cleaning the house today and my daughter is sleeping. Just missing Misty or "the boy" as we called him.....

The house is just so empty without him.doing the daily chores without him running up to the dishwasher, or him lying on the back porch or marking the shed. It feels better than the first two months, but the emptiness is just there, I wish he could have been here through it all........

I glued another picture on his coffin nad bought flowers for his memorial stone out back. IT is such a slow process.....I can't bear to put that memorial book together yet.....

Our vet called last night to see how we were doing after over 3 months. IT shows how much the woman cares. I told her of my goals of trying to work through this in a year from now, then possibly work towards another cat......

Thanks everyone for listening once more. I keep thinking of Tiffany who just lost Rajah so recently, I remember how terrible those first three weeks were. Ed McManon could have told me I won a million dollars, and I would have not cared....

I am wish everyone here and thanks for letting me ramble. The emptiness is killing me and I need some uplifting thoughts today....

Amy

Amy

I do know how you feel. It has been over 3 months since I lost my Alley too and even though I don't spend all day crying now, in some ways it seems much harder, so much more "final". I worry that I will start to forget things about her, forget her little meow or the glow she would get in her eyes when she was "stalking" something.

You will know when the time is right to bring another furry baby into your life.

"I don't spend all day crying now, in some ways it seems much harder, so much for "final". "

You hit the nail on the head. The finality of it all and the change of intensity of feelings is a hard step for me. I think my DH and have stopped the he'll be back after this or that routine, and it's hard to except that finality of his death.......

At least my depression stage has passed, with the weather nicer it's easier to get out of the house and do things I would have done without him. But the emptiness when the house is quiet is still there....

I hate that time moves on and they are not here. I miss them so much.

Cleo 1

I understand exactly how you feel. The less I cry and more I "live as usual", the more upset I get that I'm forgetting him ...and then the grief hits out of nowhere and I break down. It happens about once every three or four days, when the sadness becomes unbearable and his loss is so real again. He died 8 weeks ago today. The emptiness is palpable, and I can't fill it. I am thinking of you and Misty.

Amy

I'm sorry you are feeling so empty. I understand. Sometimes I think it's so strange that something with a body so small can leave such an empty place in your heart and home. While the body is small, the personality and the soul were huge.

I think that their little bodies get so full up with love, that their soul expands so big that the little body just can't hold it anymore. Their souls have to expand and full the universe with love.

We just want to have it all to ourselves still....


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