Today I stumbled into a folder on the computer with Missy (Abigail) as the Star of the two clips I had found. I was there beside her holding her up for the camera. These are the last 2 clips of me and Miss together before she died. They are...unbearable...to watch....but watch them I did. I was compelled to and cried & cried as frames progressed and I would reach for the screen in an effort to achieve physical contact with something I loved so very much! Watching the interaction between me & my Miss crushed me to the very core. I am completely devastaed by this vision. I wish I could go to sleep....and not wake up.....

John

You are much braver than I. To watch video of Missy just two days after she passed, OMG. I know how much it hurts. Try to get through the days, or the hours or the minutes.

A lot of us here know about the 'wishing you could just go to sleep and not wake up". My heart goes out to you, my heart is breaking for you and your Missy. I just want you to know I'm thinking of you and your family.

Love

John

I know that right now it only makes the pain more unbearable, but someday, you will look back and be so glad that you have those video clips. I treasre my pictures of Alley and would give anything to have a video of her. Someday you will be able to watch them and smile, remembering her with love instead of heartache.

Just know that we are here for you.

Both of you have been a constant shoulder for me in this forum. I want to thank you both for your condolences

John

You are very welcome for anything I have said, I only hope it helped some. I was just watching the Videos of Missy, she is so beautiful. They made me cry today for some reason, I'm so sorry you lost her. I just want you to know I'm thinking of your family and Piper today.

John I am really sorry, it will get better meanwhile try to do what feels best, cry if you want to, let it all come out, don't bottle it up. I don't have any videos of my pets but
I think I would want to touch my dears too. So hard. We're with you John, take it easy my friend.

John,

This past Christmas my mom decided to get my husband & me a DVD camera. I have no idea what made her think we needed or even wanted one. She gave me the gift voucher & told me to take it back if I didn't want it (we kept it). Around the end of January, on a whim, my husband decided to take some shots of Peaches when she was feeling good. We have a 20 minute chow-marathon on video from this day, as well as her taking off running from my dog while she was barking at the neighbor kids. I never imagined this would be the last (& first) time she would be videoed. We have the disc put safely away but have not yet been able to watch it.

Thank you for sharing these beautiful shots with us. You & I lucked out, I think, to have gotten these shots of our furbabies. Your babies were so sweet & so, so loved. It hurts so much to lose them, I know. I have found this place to be such a huge comfort to me. I am glad you are here.

Take care,

Kim

John,

My heart continues to go out to you. You're feeling the worst of the grief so KEENLY. I have you in my prayers, and hope that the crushing pain subsides for you soon, so that you can breath again.

Much love,

Jenn (Chaos' Mom)