A week tomorrow since my baby Katie left on her journey and took Gizzy with her. I feel so separated from everyone and everything. We have a beautiful Siberian Husky (Dixie) that wants to get into bed with me and wants me to love her. I do love her, but I can't seem to make my heart love her like I do the others. I miss Katie so much. I just want my life back with my babies. When I pull into the driveway, I automatically look in the front window to see if Gizzy is sitting there waiting for me. I come into the house and expect Katie to be lying there waiting for her hug and kiss. I just feel empty. I am supposed to go pick Katie up from the vet tomorrow, and I don't know if I can stand knowing that all she is now is a few ashes contained within that small box. She was larger than life, and Gizzy was on me constantly at night. Now I no longer feel that soft hair rubbing against my face. I can no longer bury my face into Katie's sleek black coat. I am miserable, and I don't know how to help myself feel better. Gizzy's mom is pregnant again with her last litter, and I don't even want to be around when they are born. I'm really trying to love the others as much as I do them, but it's just not happening. The silence here is deafening. I know I am jumping from one subject to another, but I am just saying what is in my heart.


Katie & Gizzy
ALWAYS LOVED, NEVER FORGOTTEN

Hang in there Danslady, it is a rough storm you're going through. This pain
will ease somewhat, and I am happy that you have a Husky who wants to make you feel better. Accept it ,let him absorb your tears. He will understand and be grateful that you keep the love going. Take care of yourself too. Katie and Gizzy will help you from above.

You will never love Dixie like the others, but love her as best as you can. When you stroke her, think of it as honoring Katie.

These first few days are a nightmare...don't expect too much from yourself. Just keep breathing in and out, and know that your Katie loves you.

I was thinking of you this weekend and hoping you were doing okay. I remember how hard those first few weeks were.......

Everything you described sounds like what we went through. The constant looking for them does go away.....for us a weekend trip out of town helped.....somewhere where Katie and Gizzy would not have gone with you.......

I'm thinking of you and we're al lhere to lend a listening ear......

Msity's Mama

You cannot force love or will it to happen. All you can do is "act as if," Give your living pets all the affection that you can, pet them often, and remember that it is not their fault that they are not Katie and Gizzy.

Also, remember that you are not betraying Katie and Gizzy if in time you start to feel love again for another pet. They would want it that way, because they know that our capacity to love is not limited, and your love for your present pets does not take away from you love for them.


Best wishes,

Daisy's Mommy