I'm really sorry, it's really long. I'm just writing out what is in my head. Probably it won't make sense because I can't even think straight.

Lost my room rabbit, the one who made me laugh, confused me, was there is the early hours when no one else was, was everything a pet could be and more. She was my friend, a special friend.

Moon, my beautiful Moon, died yesterday.

Why? The cat gave her fleas, and we treated the fleas and she had a bad reaction to the medication.

Nothing terminal, just something that made her uncomfortable, and for that she lost her life.

In the past 15 months, she is the 5 rabbit of mine to die (the first one was groomed by the cat and went into shock, got a cold and died, the 2nd went in labour, the 3rd of old age [he was nearly 12 so he had a fab long life], the 4th from kidney problems).

In the past 6 weeks I have gone from having 9 healthy, happy rabbits, to 6 healthy happy rabbits. But for how much longer? How long 'til the next one goes.

Moon, you were always there, you made me laugh, made me cry, taught me a lot, gave me a friend. You have given me so many memories, some make me laugh, some make me cry.

The last contact you gave me was to lick me. You knew you were dying, I held you fleetingly, and you licked all over my arm. I will forever remember that. You showed me how much you loved me, and now I know the love I gave you was not one way love.

I know you had an amazing life, you loved life, you were happy, never alone, and as free as you could be.

My beautiful curly whirly girly, you will forever be in my heart.

Fly free with your daddy, fly free with your friends, fly free for eternity

I love you darling.

Moon's mommy

I'm so sorry you lost your baby, Moon. It must be so hard to lose 5 so close together, my heart goes out to you.

When we have so many little ones we have so much love, that is the upside, the downside is we have so many to lose. It's just so hard.

Try to just enjoy the bunnies you have and not worry about losing them. Enjoy each day you have with your precious little ones. Watch their happy dance and love them.

Fly free and be happy Moon.

Thinking of you and your Moon

I'm so sorry about your precious Moon. I also have other animals, and while they are a comfort, they aren't the one who is gone, who your heart aches for.

Thank you for giving your girl such a good life. I'll be thinking of you and your Moon.

I'm so sorry. You've been through too much loss. What a sweet, sweet girl to show you how much she loved you..

Thanks guys

I wanted to come back here before but I'm busy trying to blank her out and pretend none of it is real.

Thank you all for your kind words.

Moon's mommy


While I know this seems like the best thing you can do, sometimes the ONLY thing you can do and stay sane, it's really not a good thing. Pushing your emotions down like that and holding them away from you only leads to depression. As bad as it feels it really is better to feel your emotions and work through them. You will have to do it sometime and it's better to do it now then go through a long depression and then do it.

I know this because I've been through it. Ten years ago I lost two cats within 5 weeks of each other. I shut down and pretended it didn't happen. Years of depression later I finally started to feel my emotions from that time. 5 months ago I lost another kitty. This time I let myself feel my emotions. It really sucks but I'm doing better, lots of sadness but no depression. Of course there was depression, but it only lasted a couple of months, not years. I know how hard it is, I really do and I feel so sorry you have to go through this.

Wishing you the very best in this dark time

You are right, and I know you are, however, I already have severe depression and many other mental health problems. I know that if I was to actually feel, then right now I would be dead. This is the only way I can keep myself alive, thus keeping her memory alive (and the memories of all the others I have lost recently alive).

I totally understand what you are saying, your words are very wise, and I am glad that you are now feeling better in yourself, yet so sorry for your losses.

I can hardly remember anything frm the past few days, and the things I remember least is what I write. I don't know what I wrote in this post, and can't bear to read it. I have contacted pet bereavement support people, and keep getting e-mails from them, in response to something I sent, yet having no idea what I sent.

I can't think straight, or do anything. I am existing on auto-pilot.

Thank you so much for the comment and the advice, I know you are right, but I have no other way to deal with it right now.

I really want to help and support people on this site, I feel bad that I can't think of any words for people. But I thank you all for words you have written to me.

I am so sorry for your loss.
Its not easy to offer help to others when you are hurting so much. I guess I fall into that trap as well, I havent helped as much as I should. I have read all the new posts, but cant always find the strength to reply.
You will, when you have found a way to deal with your feelings (if you ever do) Some days are better for me than others. Everyone on here understands. We have all been through it, and thats what makes this board so good, we all understand the feelings.
Ruth xx

I think before we help others we have to get through the worst of it ourselves. Please don't feel bad about getting help here and not helping. When you can, you will. First get yourselves to a better place.

Sometimes auto-pilot is a good thing, it helps us get through our days at least. I have had severe depression and other mental problems too Moon's mommy. If you can feel it do, but if you really can't then do what you have to. You will get to a better place at some point. It sounds like you do need some professional help too, I hope you are getting it honey. Pet bereavement support people can help too, try to reach out to anyone who could help you now.

Love