last night i had a dream about kitten, the fourth of this month marked it being 4 months since her passing.

i went to bed,

the last couple of nights i havent been sleeping well for no reason really just couldnt sleep. i hate when that happens cause when it does i would ususally have the girls to entertain me until i fell alseep, thus is no more ,so nights when i cant sleep are touture.
anyway i finally fell alseep. at around 11:30 pm. only to wake crying and sobbing and afraid to get out of bed to go to the bathroom(which i finally did and i'll explain why)

kitten came to me in a dream. she was so happy and soft and just like her old self..we were in the master bathroom off of my bedroom. which is where her food dishes and box were. we were bouncing around and she was purring.. i was so happy i was jumping up and down saying i am soooooooooo happy over and over again......and then it got ugly..i mean so darn right scary i am almost afraid to sleep tonight..... i bent down in the dream to pick kitten up and cuddle her to smell her sweet fur again..lo and behold she started to growl, you know the sound cats make when another cat is in their territory? deep rooted growl and then she started to bite me everywhere over and over again...i awoke to sobbing my heart out . i needed to use the bathroom..but was afraid to get up and go because kitten would always follow me in there...the dream was so real and i was so afraid.


i dont know what to make of the dream at all. she was always a loving and generous cat with her affections with me..i keep thinking it was her way of letting me know she wasnt happy with being put down becasue she was so sick. i took it as if she was really mad at me. pissed off actually . why did this dream turn out like that? why? i am so afraid to go to sleep tonight, but in a way i want to so i can tell her how much i loved her and how much i miss her.

i dont know if the dream was in my sub conscious (sp?) or not? i was talking to a nurse i work with and she had voiced her mind about creamation and all and how she wasnt a cat person etc.. and she was quite firm about her feelings which is fine but i dont think she knew how much my girls meant to me and why i did have them creamated...sorry so long...just had to get this all out i havent been right all day...

Hi Michelle.I'm sorry you had such a bad dream.I don't know what to make of it.Maybe your just feeling depressed and you had that dream because your really sad.Dreams are strange really.No one knows exactly what they mean but I really feel like you shouldn't read so much in to it.When you go to bed tonight try not to focus on it or even think about it if you can manage that.I firmly believe that it was NOT either one of your girls because they aren't made at you or upset with you in any way.Why would they be? They only thing you ever did for them was love them unconditionally.They couldn't possibly be upset with you for putting them to sleep.They really understand why you did what you did.Please stop feeling guilty about they way they passed away.It's not helping your recovery in any way.They would want you to be happy! I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers and I wish you a good and sweet night's sleep tonight.Sincerely,Renee (Sox's mom)

I think it is a dream out of guilt. You feel guilty for not being able to save her and feel that she is mad at you. It definately wasn't a visit from kitten because she would never do that to you. When you go to bed try to just think about the good things about kitten and not the bad things.

When my "Simba I" got sick he started getting lumps all over him under his skin. Now that I have "Simba II" I have had a couple dreams where I would pick him up and start petting him and then feel the same lumps in him and start crying pretty hard. This is because I fear losing "Simba II" the same way.

Oh honey, I'm so sorry. Please, please don't take the dream seriously. Kitten would be horrified to know you are hurting so.

Sometimes dreams are nothing more than big fat unresolved fears. That is all...I promise.

What an awful dream. I would have felt the same way. Our brains can be cruel to us. Kitten loves you and would want nothing more than for you to sleep soundly and peacefully. She's not mad at you. I truly hope tonight is better for you..

I agree with the others that it was not a visit from your kitten. We can be so hard on ourselves mentally that we just beat ourselves up when a loved one dies. Give yourself forgiveness in that you did all you could do. Keep telling yourself that the love and good memories remain and that is what you can take around with you every day and cherish.

I too had an absolutely horrific dream about my Denis, too horrific to even mention any details, its was bad, bad, bad. I never wanted to sleep ever again and felt all the good memories had been completely trashed by this horrendous dream.

What it told me though was despite the fact that I though I was healing, subconsciously I hadn't yet healed, the grief hadn't reconcilled itself yet and that was why this ugly dream had sufaced, I believe it was a way of telling me that on the surface things were ok but deep down there was still a lot of 'badness' that I had to deal with yet and my subconscious part of me hadn't yet indeed recovered.

I'm sorry you had to experience this awful dream, it was not your kitten. Do not feel guilt and be afraid, this dream has risen to the surface and is now 'out' so I do believe this won't happen again.

Your Kitten loved you very and would never wish you any harm EVER. As DusktoDawn said sometimes our dreams are big fat unresolved fears or issues.

I do hope you were OK last night, my heart goes out to you. Please, please remember dreams are what they say they are and not reality, try and ignore it, for this type of dream has no place in your memory of kitten.

E.M

thank you all for your kind words, i did sleep last night and had no dreams at all. my husband asked what was wrong last night before going to bed and i told him. he said the exact same things too.. like i still feel guilty about them both being sick and having to put them down to end their suffering,and that maybe on the outside i look and seem fine but i am still reeling from all of it. and then he siad if it happens again to wake him so he can help. again thank you for helping me thru this and listening to me.
i know kitten loved me as i loved her with every ounce of my being.. it just sort of freaked me out and i didnt expect to have a dream like that one...hopefully the next time i do dream of heri hope its a happy one...

I agree with everyone who said that this dream is a projection of your internal guilt, not a visit from your beloved Kitty. You feel guilty so you project those feelings into Kitty and dream that she is angry at you.

I too was afraid that my furbaby did not understand why I had to let her go at the end. Did she think I killed her? Did she think I didn't want her anymore. She was having a seizure at the end stages of her disease when she was euthanized in my arms. I told her I loved her again and again as she left, but did she believe this?

After much thought, I know that she did, because as you did with your Kitty, I gave Daisy love and affection every day of her life. It is almost silly to think that the final moments of a life mean more than the entire life.

So, forgive yourself for not being able to save Kitty. Some things are beyond are power and in the end we are all helpless before the "Grim Ripper."

Daisy's Mommy

I hope those yucky dreams have went away. My son Sawyer woke me up last week and said he had a dream about Rajah, and it was a bad one. Rajah was talking to him in a really weird, gargled, scary voice. I told him the same things everyone here is telling you, that it was his mind, not a true visit from Rajah. For the next three nights he says Rajah comes into his bed and sleeps. Maybe so, I hope so. Just know that your Kitten knew you loved and cherished her! Last night was the first night I was able to sleep with the light off! Losing someone so special, just stinks, royally!

I hope the dreams have settled now.
I too keep having a dream, same one it seems, although not as upsetting.
I keep seeing my Gizzy in the garden, sat on the top of the shed. Strange as he was an indoor cat, there were times he escaped outside tho.
In my dream, I can see him, but I cant get close enough to touch. Each time I get closer he seems to get higher and higher out of my reach. He dosent seem bothered that I can reach him. He is more than content to just sit there. I call out come to mummy teddy bear, he just squints his eyes at me and curls up back to sleep again. It seems very strange to me. I dont dream this everynight, but I have had at least 5 of these dreams since 2 weeks after he left me. As with lots of you on here, I cant tell anyone, as they think I should be "over" gizzy now, it will be a month this coming monday. I just wonder what these dreams are telling me, I worry that he isnt settled and cant make that final journey, or is he settled and my garden is his final journey for his little soul? Is my subconcious looking for some kind of peace? I really dont know.
Ruth xx

yes the dreams have settled, wish my heart would. today i went to our new super walmart. and was looking for shampoo and somehow got lost(first time being in the new store) and ended up in the kitty isle. loads and loads of kitty stuff...
i quit breathing right then and there...my god i never knew that seeing kitty stuff could get me so upset.
then i approached another isle.. the easter isle...there was easter grass...i forgot we could never use the stuff in my dtrs basket because of the love affair my kitten had with the stuff... a major health hazzard for her...amazing to me a simple thing like easter grass could jog so many memories of my girls...i actually cashed out crying..poor woman at the register didnt know what to do...

sad day for me i guess...not doing to well hoping tomorrow will be better...

I have had one "visitation" dream in the past from Alley, but nothing since then. Last night I had such AWFUL nightmares about her. They were truly terrible and I woke up crying and am still shaking. In part of the dream, I was at my mom's where she is buried and I dreamed that she had been buried alive and had to dig herself out. Then a little while later, she kept coming into the house, etc. and everyone was acting like it was normal and I was screaming that she was dead and why couldn't they see it. There was more, but that was the main parts. Why would I have such horrible dreams about my baby. It was so frightening and awful.

I too have had dreams but please be careful of what kind of emphasis you put on them and DEFINITELY what you read in to them. Dreams can & will affect us emotionally. There is no doubt about it. But I for one do not & will not trust a vision that has been given life completely within my head. I may have to get by the "vision" of it once I am awake but unless it is a "faithfull reproduction" of something I have already experienced in my life... I will attach no weight to it and I will discard the thought as simply being "erroneous". Life is to hard to manage sometimes when it comes to factual information...in my opinion information you gather from unknown sources while in sleep is not to be trusted. It is demonstrated through "magic" in the form of illusion how easily a concious person can be manipulated into percieving "what really isn't". In sleep, with no external stimuli, reason seems to "go to the dogs" so to speak. Dreams that defy the laws of physics & timelines as we know them seem so easy to believe when we wake. I feel it important that in order to stay grounded that attention is placed on what we know in the real world and because there is not enough evidence, scientific or otherwise, the dream world should be avoided at all costs as input into any decsion making process that we use in the real world. The two were not meant to mix.

Please stay "grounded" to the memories of your Baby YOU KNOW to be true!
This dream may have been affected by something else during the sleep cycle that you were not aware of...
You know deep down inside this behavior from your Baby is not possible..
Search yourself and you will know this to be true..
Take care my friend