We picked up Nikki's ashes. My husband and I made an appointment at the vets where Nikki's ashes were to be picked up. I had so many questions as to why that large a tumor was not detected. Why the blood work that was done a month before she died did not show any cancer cells? Did we do the right thing? When we arrived at the vets we checked in and started to sit down and wait for the doctor. The receptionist called my name and when I turned around she handed me a little cedar box - at first it did not register what it was she was handing me - then like a lightning bolt it hit. i just broke down. I thought since I had the appointment to talk to a vet that we would receive the ashes in a more dignified way. You would think a little more compassion would be shown. As for all my questions, the vet said there was nothing that could have forseen the horrible outcome. It is hard to detect a tumor in the abdomen because the animals tense up when they are nervous and the vet cannot detect a tumor (so they say). And no cancer cells were found in the blood work. I still feel like they missed something.
Now our baby is home. I just wish she was still here with us. I miss her so much. Every where I look now I see German shepards. I hope she is happy and running around.
Thank you for all your support in these last few weeks.