I am home alone and it is terrible, awful! Usually I take my shower, blowdry my hair and then come downstairs to share my breakfast with Rajah. I don't think I'm ever going to be able to eat again in my house, you know. I spoiled him and always gave him part of my meals, just little bits, but to not see his face this morning is killing me. I am so afraid he's cold and lonely and just scared. Does it ever get any easier guys? I just want to die so I can be with him right now!!

Okay, I officially can't move! The pain is overwhelming! I want him back! I just want him back!

Tiffany, I know what you are going through... All the usual routines are now so very hard without them there. He's not afraid and cold... please don't think that. I know that's easy to say, I still feel the same thing, after three months, sometimes. You asked if it ever gets any easier. I remember asking the very same question, in a rhetorical kind of way, never really expecting an answer. Well, I can't say it gets "easy", ever, at least not in my 13 week experience, here. But the raw pain doesn't quite feel the sharpness you are feeling, now. I felt like dying, too, just to be with my Caesar. Now, I'm just starting to enjoy the beauties of Nature, again, and I never thought I would again, ever. So I guess that's a start. All I can say is take one day at a time. Stay away from anything hurtful, be it people or whatever. People at this time can be so cruel, I have found out. Right now, be gentle with yourself. Surround yourself with loving people, be it friends or family. Don't be alone too long, if you can manage it. And know that your precious Rajah is still with you in your heart. Please take care.

Amarna

"I spoiled him and always gave him part of my meals, just little bits, but to not see his face this morning is killing me."

Ditto for my husband and Misty and me. We bawled several nights in December around the Christmas tree,eating our dinners on laps since he loved the traytables. My husband would say "traytables" and he would jump up and run for his share. We felt exactly as you did......so alone and missing him so during the mealtimes and all...

Mornings were hard, too, since we had such a strong routine, until a few weeks ago at 2 and half months it was very painful to go downstairs in the morning and not see him on his treat mat waiting for his first can of the day.

My point is your feelings are normal, they do get better than you are feeling the first 2-3 weeks. Please hang in there......hugs and happy thoughts, Amy

Tiffany, I am so very sorry for your loss. I suffered the loss of my baby on September 6, 2006 and believe me it does get better with time! I still miss her terrible and I will always have a void in my heart for her. She was 5 lbs of heaven on earth. I know you feel the same about Rajah. You will have good days and bad days for a while then it will slowly get better with each day. My heart goes out to you because I have been there and it surely hurts like nothing I have ever felt before. I recently got another dog Bambi in honor of Lollie. It has really helped me a great deal, although I know she will never replace Lollie in my heart, but I have come to love her. I will pray for you in hopes that you will have peace. May God bless you!!