Last night was the worst night ever. After 14 years with my best friend, a Yorkie, named Rajah Pony, we had to put him to sleep. He was in my arms and went peacefully, but for the last 14 years whenever I was depressed or down he kissed me and stayed in bed with me for a day to hide from the world and escape. Now I've lost that and I don't know how to handle this HORRIFIC day. I can't hide with my best friend and he'll never kiss me again! I just want to die so I can be with him again!

Please someone help or answer me. I don't know how to have a bad day without my Rajah and I feel like I'm losing my mind.

Tiffany, I'm going through exactly the same thing you are, after 16 very special years with my Caesar. We also had to send him on his journey, he was in my arms as he crossed over, and he always came to me when I needed him, with his kisses and love. I had to say goodbye to him, however, exactly three months ago, today. (December 8, 2006.) I know what you are feeilng, the day after. Take each day as it comes. Take each minute and hour at a time. Talk about him to all who knew and loved him as you did. Don't be alone. Be gentle with yourself. You will get through this. And you will live. Rajah Pony wants you to live well, and then when it's time, you will be with him, again. But for now, honor him, his memory, live the life he would want you to live. You can be proud you were his, and he was yours.

Thanks!

Dear ((((((Tiffany))))))

I am very sorry to hear about your precious little guy, Rajah Pony . Fourteen years "seems like" a long time -- but, it really isn't.

You have come to the right place, (though I'm sad you had to find Lightning-Strike at all). There are LOTS of people here who understand exactly what you are going through, and they are very compassionate, loving people.

Some have just recently lost their very best friend/son or daughter, like you, and some are months and years into their journey......

In my heart, I do know that your beloved little guy, Rajah Pony wants YOU to be happy -- He doesn't want you to be sad. He is no longer in pain, and he is very happy up at Rainbow's Bridge with all of our kids who have gone before him.

I will say a prayer to my sweet girl, Ernie-Bird , that she meet Rajah Pony up at the Bridge and "show him the ropes" up at the Bridge. Rajah Pony will ALWAYS be with you -- right now, he resides in your heart.
And, you have many memories that you have made over the years - and, those memories are yours & yours alone, to keep!!
No one can take them away from you!

Having to say "good-bye" to my sweet girl's earthly body (February 7, 2004), was without question, the hardest thing that I have EVER gone through -- but, with time "it" truly does get better....
I know in my heart that she is always with me.

We all share a very strong bond, a very DEEP LOVE, with our kids -- and, I know that a love and a bond like that do not die...
Nothing in this world can break that bond and that love!!

But, it is a journey -- and, you have found us here at Lightning-Strike, and we are all here to help you get through this.

Much peace, love & comfort to you at this very difficult time.

Denise

Tiffany

I'm so sorry you had to say goodbye to your sweet Rajah. It is so hard to know that you will never get to see their sweet face or pet their soft fur again. Rajah will always be with you though, and someday, you will see him again.

You gave him a wonderful and loving life though, and you also made the final loving decision for him, to not let him suffer in the end. All you can do is take each day as it comes and try to remember the happy times with him, rather than his final moments.

I would love to see a picture of him if you feel like sharing.

Tiffany

Your Rajah Pony was so handsome, I'm so sorry you lost him. We love them so much it's just agony to lose them. I well remember how it was for me. Can't sleep, can't eat, don't feel like you can breathe and just want to follow.

Honey it does get better, just not fast. It's so hard when what would make you feel better is what is making you so sad. Hold on to all the joy and love he gave you for so long.

Thinking of you and Rajah

I am so sorry for your tremendous loss. The first three weeks are terrible, so make sure to check in whenever you can. Everyone here has helped me, and I was in your same shoes November 27, 2006.

It's so hard the first few days when they aren't there......I could totally understand your post. And the companionship in times of sadness is unmatchable, and here you are without that friendship for the first time, and no comfort. All I can say is use the people HERE. Everyone here seems to be in different stages of the grief process and can offer encouragement. OThers can't take away the pain, but they can offer some companionship that you are without Rajah for the first time.

I am so sorry you are having to endure the first few days....please know I am sending many hugs your way.....Amy

Tiffany,
so sorry for you loss of your beautiful yorkie Rajah Poney. It is natural for you to feel this way. When I lost Raggs my bichon 7mos ago I felt the same way just dead inside. It felt like I could not live on without him but time really does help and I do still long for him and his healthy little body but after nearly 16yrs he was worn out . You will get better.
Joanne (Raggs mom)

Thank you all for your kind words. I haven't been able to tear myself away from the computer all day just for the support. I posted about talking to an animal communicator today and she said that Rajah was bouncing, he was so excited to be talking to me and most importantly he told me he was ready to go and I don't know... It helped momentarily. I wish I could just keep talking to him though. I miss his smile and his kisses, but after talking with him I get the impression that he is smiling tons now and that hasn't been the case for a couple of weeks. So the nights are hard and I'm dreading tonight, but...

On, Tiffinay, I am so sorry that you are going through this. Thank you for posting a picture of you Rajah Pony....I could just take that little bundle of fur in my arms and not let go.

I'm glad yoiu spoke with an animal communicator...it was a blessing for me knowing that my Jakey is happy and at pease. At least when I am hurting I know that I am hurting for me, not for him.

You get through it one moment at a time, one breath at a time, even though it doesn't always feel like you want to suck in air any longer. Let us support you, and before too long you will be able to take confort in the good life and times you had with Rajah.

I will be thinking of you.

Tiffany, I'm so sorry. I went through this myself six weeks ago yesterday with my boy. Everyone has provided such wonderful words of advice and encouragement..all you can really do right now is breathe and get through each minute. My thoughts and prayers are with you..