Thank you so much for your support yesterday as I sent my sweet Gable over the Rainbow Bridge. I've been going back and reading a lot of the posts, and it makes me feel better that others are feeling the same way I do right now. I did not expect the gut-wrenching grief that came with it, nor the sleeplessness. I packed a bag and ran away last night to stay in a hotel because I kept looking for him in his favorite places. It seemed to help a lot to get away from all the reminders of him.
And I had the strongest desire to go after him, to leave my body somehow and go look for his little soul. (I know it sounds crazy. But if it weren't for my husband and daughter, I'm not sure I wouldn't have actually tried to follow him. I'm over that now, so please don't take that as me being a danger to myself.) But I keep thinking---I've been his caretaker for 14 years--who's going to take care of him now? It breaks my heart to think about it. My husband told me that's ridiculous, but I keep thinking about it. Like most of you, I just wish I had some confirmation that he's in a good place right now. If I could just see him......
This is a wonderful board. I'm sorry that I haven't responded to other's posts right now. I just don't have the energy.
Thanks for listening.
Rhonda
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Hi Rhonda,
I believe that Gable is in a realm now where he has no physical or emotional needs and knows only complete bliss (he is pure spirit
), and he has no sense of time or space. So it will seem to him like no time before you join him---even though in our earthly sense of time it will be measured in our years.
Write any time!
Kathy
I believe that Gable is in a realm now where he has no physical or emotional needs and knows only complete bliss (he is pure spirit
), and he has no sense of time or space. So it will seem to him like no time before you join him---even though in our earthly sense of time it will be measured in our years. Write any time!
Kathy
Hi Rhonda,
You are not alone in your response. When the news came that my Luba was dead I wanted to be dead to. There have been moments like that over the past 11 days. I think a lot of people experience that as part of grief.
Your Gable is at peace now. You were a wonderful mommy.
Take care of yourself and if you figure out what to do about the sleeplessness let me know because I'm completely exhausted, but still not sleeping!
You are not alone in your response. When the news came that my Luba was dead I wanted to be dead to. There have been moments like that over the past 11 days. I think a lot of people experience that as part of grief.
Your Gable is at peace now. You were a wonderful mommy.
Take care of yourself and if you figure out what to do about the sleeplessness let me know because I'm completely exhausted, but still not sleeping!
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