Born: March 10,1989
Died: February 17,2007

Our beloved Cuddles passed away a little over a week ago and I still feel like I have died too. My heart is so empty without her. Every part of this house is her. Everywhere I look I see her. I hear a noise and I think Cuddles what are you doing, I see the places that she use to sleep in and I imagine that she is right there. She was so full of life and acted like a kitten. I miss her soooo much she was a big part of my life and I will never forget. She was my Baby and I wish so much she was here but, I would bring her back for nothing if she had to come back and suffer the way she did. She died in my arms and she was not alone. I told her it was okay to go sleep that I knew she tired and that I loved her so very much. It's not getting better I miss her so much and I don't know what to do with myself. Cuddles I love you so very much and I will see you again,I Love You Baby!

I'm so sorry you lost your dear Cuddles. I know how hard it is to have to let them go. It has been over two months since I lost my Alley and I miss her every day, every hour. I'm glad that you were able to be with Cuddles at the end, that her last moments were being held and loved in your arms.

I know there is nothing that will take away that pain. It never goes away, but it will get easier to bear in time. It helps me to be able to come here and talk about my girl, and share memories of her. Everyone here is going through the same loss, and truly understands how you feel.

We would love to see a picture of Cuddles and to hear more about her, when you feel up to talking about her.

Paula

[B]Thanks so Much AlleysMama. I was crushed when Cuddles died she suffered so much she had a Tumor in her Stomache. I couldn't and wouldn't leave my baby. My life isn't the same without her! I cry and cry and I don't know what to do with myself. She was there for 18 yrs and now she's not! I tried to save her but, I failed! There isn't a minute I don't think of her... I don't know what to do! Thanks for caring... Jeanne

Jeanne

Your Cuddles was so beautiful! That is a wonderful picture of her. I only had Alley in my life for nine years, but when she left, so did a piece of my soul. Things will never be the same without her. I will have another cat, I can't imagine my life without one. It will never be as special as my little girl though.

I know the pain you are feeling, the emptiness, the anger, the sorrow. I feel it every day of my life. All I can tell you, is to just do what feels right to you. If you want to cry, then cry. Cuddles deserves some tears. If you want to scream and break something, then do that. You can't try to hold it inside, it will come out when you least expect it.

One thing I have learned in the last two months though, is that death is not final. Cuddles is still with you, and if you look for signs, you will find them. Sometimes when the grief is too strong, they can't get through, but in time, you will feel her there with you.

I am here for you, whenever you want to talk about her.

Jeanne

Oh your Cuddles was so beautiful. I'm so sorry you lost her. You didn't try and save her and fail honey. She was 18 and sick, it was just her time. You did your very best and you were with her at the end. I know it's hard.

It's so hard when they are older, it's like you don't have a memory without them in it. I lost a kitty who was 22 a long time ago. Four months ago we lost our Moustache kitty, it's still hard. It takes time for it to feel even a little better.

When we lose someone close to us, our reality changes, things never 'go back to normal' we just learn to live in the new reality, without them. It seems so unreal, like maybe we never really had them. Like it was a beautiful dream, or that this is a nightmare we can't wake up from. Our stablity is just gone. Give yourself time, it's hard but you can do it.

Everyone here knows how you feel, we have been there. I have found the most gentle, beautiful, understanding people here.

Thinking of you and your Cuddles