Today is Nissa's 6th month anniversary. I just keep looking at pictures of her on my computer, and still can't accept that she's not here. I've been panicking lately, wondering how I'll ever keep surviving in a world that doesn't include her, my girl, the Light of My Life, my darling, little Pee-Pop. Every day w/o her is just another dreaded day, full of sorrow and (only) memories, but no new life with my girl. My mind just can't come to terms with this. It's not life; it's just deadened existence.

I seemed to be guided (by Debbie's earlier post today, and something in someone else's), back towards the Spiritualist Church that I attended, the last time I got some bigger signs from my girl. So I'm going again tonight, to a special event by them, with 15 minute, inexpensive readings. I pray to God that my Sweet Nis' will be with me and that I'll be lucky enough to hear from her, someway, somehow, today.

Galski, I miss you so badly I can hardly stand it! How it's been this long already, I can't comprehend. I just want my little girl back, to have and to hold, to kiss and to love, to play with and snooze and snuggle, to talk to all throughout the day, to be yelled at by and called to, to be just like we were. I want ALL of you back, with me, where you really belong...my gal, the only girl for me, I love you so, so much! How can I possibly live without you?!Please be with me.....PLEASE, Niski-Pie!

I'm so sorry. I know how much you're hurting. I hope you hear from her tonight. I really wish we knew for sure that they stayed with us...they feel so far away. I don't mean this to be an alarming statement, but I wish there was an option to go with them. Doesn't quite seem fair to be separated from what has become part of you... I am thinking of you...

FK's mom

What a sad day for you. The 6 month anniversary seems like such a sorrowful "milestone". Every day without them seems like they are just farther and farther away. And knowing that there will be no more "new" experiences is just more than we can bear sometimes.

I truly hope you are able to connect with her tonight. I know how much you desperately need that contact, those signs from her. I am sure she is with you today, knowing how sad you are, watching over you, her and Sabin. I truly wish they could be there for you, in body, instead of just in spirt.

I will light a candle for your girl tonight.

I am so sorry about Missa's anniversary. I can totally relate. IT sounds like you guys were soooooo close. I am very very sure that she knew how much she was loved by you. I know it feels like a piece of you is gone.......and anniversaries don't help with that.

Nothing anyone can say can make the pain go away, but at least you have a support system here to get you through this day. If only we could bring them back, how nice that would be!

You've been so helpful to myself and others here, I wish there was something I could do to take the pain of the loss away today. I don't have anything in too inspirational, except for you are not alone and I think everyone here acknowledges your feelings and is sending happy thoughts your way......

Hugs, Misty's Mama

Nissa's Mommy

I know how hard today is for you. In fact how hard every day is now. I'm so sorry honey. I'm thinking of you.

I agree with Mo&Maisie'sMom, I really think there should be an 'option to go with them'. It's just too hard to live in the world without them sometimes.

Thinking of you

Hi F.K

I've got my fingers and toes crossed that your very BEAUTIFUL Nissa had a clear path in which to reach you last night.

I'm waiting with baited breath now to hear if she made it through and managed to contact you.

I know it can be quite busy up there with many people trying to have their say but I hope she managed to get to the front of the queue!

Looking forward to hear your positive news today!

Debbie