8 weeks ago today you left us my dear Denis, the world hasn't stopped and I haven't stopped missing you.

Today I planted more bulbs and flowers on your resting place, soon it will be full of vibrant flowers, full of life..... The wind chime hanging from the tree sounds beautiful, gently playing in the soft breeze.

So thank you for being here then and thank you for being here now.

Soon you will be able to speak more clearly with the 'professional help' I've enlisted.....I'll be waiting!

I'll be looking for that bright star tonight.... for me you will always be my brightest star.

Love just doesn't finish here in this life. Love is ETERNAL.

............

Thank you to all the people here who shared their kind words with me and helped me in those early days, you all have such warm hearts.

Your words have helped heal my broken heart. Well not all of it, there will always be a little piece of my heart that will refuse to be mended! But thank you from the bottom of mine anyway!

E.M

Dear E.M.,
Your message to Denis is so beautiful. Like you I have spring flowers growing on Furry's grave, a windchime & a dreamcatcher. But I don't seem to have your strength. It was a lovely sunny & mild day here today & all I could think of was how much I hate it because she isn't here to enjoy it. Do you think I will ever be able to be thankful for the years we had together & not destroyed by losing her too soon?
Judith

Dear Judith,

Yes of course I do, I believe everyone has the capacity to love once more, I do believe everyone will eventually start to see the beautiful things in life once more.

I know deep down you ARE thankful for the years you had together otherwise I don't think you would be here. Your hurt and pain are running parallel with these feelings but they are still there.

Am I strong? It's only because I believe that they ARE still here, each and every day, they STILL exist, (just not in their same life form) and from that I get my strength. It just depends if you believe in this or not.

We are no longer able to communicate in the ways that we have been able to do before, but we can still communicate, and if we can't then that's when we can look to professional communicators. If your loved ones aren't still existing on another level then where does all this evidence come from that does indeed suggest an afterlife. If I didn't believe this then I think I would have crumbled ages ago.

There will always be pain but I try to look at death in a different perspective, I truely belive that our time on earth is only a tiny part of the bigger picture and that we do indeed spend more time 'away' from earth than we do here. Our time here on earth is quite harsh compared to where they are, in a place full of such love, so I try not to be sad for them, in fact don't you think we are the one with the raw deal living in this place full of anguish, hatred, greed, pain and hurt etc. It's a tough old world with lots of hard lessons to learn before we can quit and move onto the next level. And when we do, wow what a reunion we will have before us!

It took me a long while to accept euthanasia without the feelings of guilt, the Greek meaning is 'Good Death'. A contradiction you would think but not really, a good death has got to mean one free of pain, or the ending of pain.

I lost my Marshall two years ago at the age of 8mths, it hurt tremendously because he was still a young and innocent baby in my eyes and didn't deserve to go so soon, but I know now that he IS in a better place. He is not here with me but what I do know is where he is at, there is no suffering, and to know that he will never suffer any more is one small thing I can actually be thankful for. Where they are now no one or nothing can ever hurt them again.

Try and enjoy those warm sunny days because when you sit in your garden Furry may just be sitting there right next to you enjoying it too!

And believe me you will heal, little by little, day by day, you might not recognise it just yet. And yes you do have my strength, and that you will also find little by little, day by day.

Take care Judith.

E.M

Dear Debbie,

I'm so sorry today is a sad anniversary for you. Judith is right though...what a lovely message to your Denis that was! You are so spiritually strong a woman, being able to plant bulbs for your boy, in his honour, so soon after his transition and find some peace in your heart about it all.

Similarly to Judith, I can't even think about the garden....Nissa's garden, w/o crying and feeling sick to my stomach, full of panic and dread about spring. Thankfully, we still have lots of snow here yet, so I've still got more time.... It took me 3 summers after Sabin's crossing to plant a memorial section beside his grave.....and the stubborn, black irises I planted in his honour have STILL never bloomed!! The white ones, named "Immortality" did.....once....2 yrs. ago, but never the black ones. ***sigh***

I truly appreciated your words to Judith, because even though we seem to believe the same things, I still need to hear, as much as possible, such reassurance from others who think the same way, in order to keep going and have hope. Each day it is so hard to keep believing when one can't see, touch, hear or interact with our beloveds as we're used to doing. I KNOW it's a new form of a continued relationship, but it's always so very difficult to get used to, and settle for. Most times, it seems the only way I could truly be at total peace about it all, is if I could actually be so in-tune with the spiritual world that I could see, hear and feel my kids (or any of one of those) DAILY, at least once/day, even if they're in spirit. This is my biggest and most important life's goal now. In fact, I believe that if I can attain such a level of enlightenment, I'd never have any need to ever come back here again for MORE lessons.....what lesson could ever top THAT?

So you've found a communicator! Excellent! I hope very much that it goes well for you, and for Denis. I'd be very interested in hearing all about it after, if you like this person's work! I know I've always been as excited before a communication as if it was a first date, so I hope this is helping to buoy you up today.

Be well,
Me

E.M.

Love is eternal. Oh the anniversaries are so darn hard. I hear the love in each line of your tribute. Denis was a very special guy. I'm sorry you lost your Marshall too.


I too believe this. This is the tough place, the learning place. Where they are they know more and are happy. We are the ones left missing them and hurting.

I'm glad you found an animal communicator. I hope you and Denis get lots out of it.

I can't think of Denis without thinking of him 'bringing home the bacon'. That always makes me smile.

Judith


One other thing I believe is that if someone goes, it's not too soon. It feels like it to us, but if they went, it truly was their time.

Ten years ago I lost my best friend and kitty cat, Butch. I came very close to being destroyed by it. At the year anniversary I came way to close to following him. It was a long road for me, but I did find beauty in the world again, and joy. So much love is out there if we open ourselves to it. Sadly one of the loves I found has left this earth again, and it hurts, again. I just think we have to be greatful for the love and joy they gave so much of to us. It hurts but when you really think of it, the joy is huge, the love is much and the sadness is small. I know it doesn't feel like it now, someday it will.

Love

I will never be able to think about Denis without picturing him cooking bacon for all the other kittes across the bridge! What a character he is. I know how hard these anniversaries are but it seems like they are always creeping up on me.

I love that you planted flowers on his grave. I will hopefully be able to do that for Alley when I go home in May. I'll have to find out what can be planted at that time of year. I know nothing about flowers or gardening. Like you, I think of her every time I look up at the stars, which unfortunately isn't easy here in the city.

I miss her so much and I don't think the pain of losing her will ever go away, but as much as it hurts, it was wroth it, to have those years with her that I did have. To feel her warm little body curled up next to me and hearing her soft purr. I wouldn't trade those times for anything.

Thanks Guys!

I'm not going to see the Rev. till next Saturday but I am full of hope. I just hope Denis manages to get through because I think there may be a few others with things to say, as well and messages to pass on.

This seemed the most special thing that I could do for Denis to get the ball rolling, and give him the chance to be heard by someone who can hear him more clearly. I have just got to wait now!

Obviously I'll let you all know what happens.....and if she mentions bacon, well I'll just die!!!!!!

Debbie

I'm so sorry about Denis but I agree with you about the afterlife..that they feel no pain and that this earthly life is a fraction of our existence. And, I believe, the toughest one we'll have. I also believe that love is eternal. A friend sent me a book about afterlife experiments to help me through Mo's death, and it is an account of scientific research done on Mediums that proves beyond any doubt that they are hearing from loved ones - human or furry. I think he'll send you love and put your mind at ease.

Mo and Maisie's Mom

Would you be talking about 'The Afterlife Experiments by Gary E. Schwartz, Ph.D' by any chance?

If so, what an absolutely fantastic book, a must read for anyone, especially for those in doubt or need some scientific proof or just plain old confirmation.

I can't recommend this book enough, how can you doubt anything ever again after reading this book. As they say the 'proof is in the pudding' and this book contains enough evidence for me!

E.M

p.s published by Atria Books, if anyone wants to know.