I had to have my 3 yr old colt euthanized on Feb 15th. It was a very hard decision to make. It was discovered he had neurological problems and would be unsafe for riding or even breeding. I was very attached to this colt. He had surgery as a yearling for a stifle injury and I had to hand walk him for 6 weeks. He was such a beautiful and well bred colt.
I have 3 others up at the training centre right now. I went up yesterday to check on them. First time I have been there since the loss. I just broke down when I didn't see him in his turn out pen. I havent been able to eat and I am having trouble sleeping.
This is the first time I have dealt with a loss like this. My husband is not very supportive as he doesn't understand...he isn't a horse person.
I feel ill. I guess I thought I could at least join other people that could understand.

I am so sorry for you. I understand. I lost my beloved 11 year old American Bulldog, Mo, on January 25th 2007. I have never felt pain like this in my life, and I'm barely eating or sleeping, either. I can completely relate to how painful it is to return when you've been away - following Mo's death I had to have surgery and recovered at my family's house for 3 weeks. When I came back to my apartment three days ago to all of his toys, his spot on the couch, and the tremendous void that is left, the grief hit so hard I couldn't believe it. I was in shock when he died, then on painkillers for so long the grief hadn't really begun yet. I know how you feel about people not understanding - I am single and trying to handle this alone .. I really am so sorry..

I'm really sorry for the loss of your beloved horse.You came to the right place when you found this site.We all understand the pain you are feeling and we know how hard it is to go on without the pet we loved so much.I can't really tell you it will get better any time soon but in time it will get easier to handle.You'll just learn how to live without him in your life.You'll be able to think of him and all the memories you had together with smiles instead of tears.Just give yourself some more time,it's only been a few days.When you feel up to it tell us a little bit about your horse and maybe share a photo if you have one.We care and we understand how your feeling.My thoughts and prayers are with you tonight.Sincerely,Renee (Sox's mom)

You have come to the right place, everyone has been wonderful to us here and it feels better to be able to talk about the loss when sometimes people around you don't understand that this is not just an animal but a dear friend that was close to your heart. There will be some rough days and weeks ahead and it will take time-
our thoughts are with you.

Mackenzie

I'm so sorry you lost your colt. It's so hard to lose one we love so much. I think the ones we have to take special care of are harder to lose, I guess we have thought and worried so much about them. What was his name? I'd also love to see a picture if you have one.

Thinking of you

I would love to see a picture of your beautiful boy also. Losing someone you love is never easy. It does help me to come here though, and talk about it. Everyone here understands how it feels and we are all dealing withe grief from our own losses.

Oh my goodness-my heart goes out to you. Any animal loss is heartbreaking and you spent so much extra time with this colt. When we lose animals those who do not have the same connection to them do not understand the depth of our grieve. The thrill of the connection we make with something so beautiful and pure as an animal is something that some people cannot even begin to understand. Be gentle with yourself and cry as much as you need..... those tears will help with the healing process.
Bless you-Lisa

I want to thank everyone for their kind words and support.
It means alot.
Today has been one week.

I hope he forgives me and is in a better place

What a beautiful boy. Horses are such old souls...you look into their eyes and you feel as though you can go down into forever.

I am so sorry, Mackenzie. I am sure he understands and is having a great time in the Summerland.