It has been 3 weeks since I lost my beautiful german shepard, Nikki. I miss her sparkling eyes, the way her ears used to shake (and she had some hugh ears) when she wagged her tail. When I came home from work, there she was sitting in the front window with her ears shaking. I think I hear her walking around the house or plopping down on the floor (she was a large boned gal so when she plopped, she PLOPPED) The vet called and said that her ashes are ready for pick-up. I don't know if I can go through with this. I will be bringing my baby home in a box - how can that be. A month ago she was chasing snow balls and making a mess with her big paws. I miss that mess. I miss her smell, and all her cute habits that used to drive me crazy. Humans are so strange - why are the things that bothered you when you still had these wonderful angels on earth the things you miss the most when they are gone. People are getting tired of me crying all the time for my Nikki - everytime I bring up the subject they change they change the subject. I dream of Nikki running and playing in a beautiful field. I hope and pray that she is happy and that the Lord in his goodness will look upon her with gentle eyes and protect her. Thank you for this site. It has been a blessing to put down on paper some of my troubled thoughts.

Ramona,I'm so terribly sorry for your loss.I wish I had some words to make you feel better but I don't.I only know that it helps me to come to this site and write down my feelings whenever I need to.The people I have met here are amazing........kind,understanding,wonderful,wonderful,people.We all know the pain your going thur and I wish I could tell you when it will get better.I hope that by knowing someone else is thinking of you and sending healing thoughts your way that it helps you if only a little bit.Try to be easy on yourself and don't worry about it when people around you try to change the subject when you bring it up.They just don't know what to say to you or how to deal with it,that's all.Most people really do care they just don't know how to show it.You'll be in my thoughts and prayers tonight and I hope you'll come back often to share your thoughts with us.We care so you take care of yourself.Sincerely,Renee (Sox's mom)

Ramona

I'm so sorry you lost your Nikki. It's so hard and we miss them so much. Every little thing that reminds us of them makes us cry. Please feel free to come here and say whatever you need/want to. I'd love to see a picture of Nikki, if you have one.

We lost our beautiful little cat, Moustache, four months ago. For me, getting the ashes back was a good thing. My baby was home, safe with me. My hubby and I went together to get them and I held the box close to my heart all the way home. I can put it in his favorite places, like in the window in the sun or in the bedroom when we sleep. When I am really lonely and sad for him I still hold him close to my heart. I hope it works the same for you.

Thinking of you and Nikki

I'm so sorry, Ramona. Nikki sounds beautiful. Don't let people make you feel uncomfortable for mourning her passing. If it were a child, they wouldn't be uncomfortable with your emotions. You loved her as much as a child, so you should be feeling the loss. We won't change the subject..she deserves to be honored.