What happened:
Ted (my boyfriend) and I were getting up to drive to Niagara Falls to get some YSR parts for some pit bikes. We get off the couch from watching some anime and we hug. The dogs are between us and then all of the sudden start fighting.
For 2 seconds I think we were both stunned. And then we both race over to them (they have now moved about 5 feet from us) and we’re yelling for them to separate. It doesn’t work. (it normally does) And they continue, I get on top of Bruno and I’m pulling him away and Ted picks up Jelly and starts pulling her away.. Bruno isn’t letting go. I yell at Ted to stop because Bruno is going to rip Jelly’s neck open at this part and he puts her down and I grab Bruno’s mouth to rip it open and then get Ted to pull Jelly away from him. At this time Jelly takes my hand thinking its Bruno (Ted says Bruno goes after my hand, but I swear it was Jelly) and starts shaking it and piercing it over and over again with her teeth. I start screaming as my blood is honestly starting to pour. I don’t remember how the dogs separate after that, I believe Bruno lets go of Jelly after I start screaming in pain and Ted yells at me to take Jelly upstairs. I’m crawling up the stairs, cause by now I’ve lost a lot of blood.. its over the hall, its over the stairs, its over the walls… so I have Jelly in my one hand and I’m dragging her up with me. I get upstairs and collapse on the side of the couch and my blood is puddling up on a cushion. Ted gets upstairs, says “Oh ###” and he grabs me and wraps something around my hand and drags me upstairs to the bathroom. In which he doesn’t allow me to look at my hand and he puts something over my face and starts cleaning it.
I beg him to stop as I bawl my eyes out and ask him to check on the dogs instead. He wraps my hands up in towels and tells me not to look and checks on Jelly. She’s fine, just scrapes he says… Bruno is fine too he says… I suffered the most damage.
The guys get home to Ted cleaning up blood and me holding my hands in towels and Josh speeds us to the hospital. We get to the hospital and they clean it up. My hand is looking like a softball and is dripping blood everywhere we go. Everyone who sees me pass by them I hear them whisper, “OMG, see her hand?”
They ask what kind of dog, and I say a big one. I’ll just leave “pit bull” outta this all.
I knew the moment Ted was cleaning my hand in the bathroom I’d be putting Bruno down. I made the decision and I was sticking to it. At the hospital my cries could probably be heard in every ward. We weren’t there long. They don’t stich dog bites because of infections and it always having to drain. It’s gazed up and I’m not allowed to peak. I see the doctor about it tomorrow in which he’ll take everything off.
We get home and I check on Jelly, she'll need stiches again. Ted walks to get some pain killers for her... and I cuddle up on the couch with Bruno knowing its our last night together.
Ted, Bruno and I watched movies until about midnight in which he wants to go to bed, and I agree. I pop the presciption pain killers and hope for sleep. I barely sleep. I wake up all night long to hold Bruno and tell him I love him. At 4, I go through photos with him and I tell him my favorite memories that I have of him and I. I snap a polaroid of him and I hold him and cry. I read him my favorite books, and his head is on my lap and I'm petting him.
Time flies by too fast. It's 7:30... ted wakes up and makes me sit on his lap and he holds me like a child and just lets me sob and doesn't allow me to move so I can get away. He just squeezes tighter and tighter.
We pack up Bruno in the car and drive to McDonalds in which I order him some sausage and egg mcmuffins as his last meal. We then drive to a look out and feed them to him. I call my vet and ask to bring him in to be put down, all is "looking good" and they ask if he's bitten anyone in the last 15 days, and I say me... they tell me he has to be quarentined for 10 days and then put down. I say thanks... and book an appointment for jelly then call another vet
We leave out that he bit me. We drop jelly off to get stiched up and she shakes the whole time shes near Bruno. Not the goodbye I wanted them to have...
Our appointment is at 10:20. We get to the vets early, and we sit on the car with Bruno and I'm crying and telling him all the benefits of heaven as opposed to earth and Teds not looking at me... just fumbling stuff..
I look at him and tell him it's okay to be weak and his eyes start crying. We hug and I get back to talking to Bruno and ted says, "I can't listen to anymore of this (its making him upset)" and he settles everything at the vets, the bill, the arrangements, etc.
We finally say everything we can, and we wait outside for the vet to take Bruno to put in the IV and everything. They tell us they'll meet us in room 2.
It seems like hours... I'm crying and having trouble not having extreme panic attacks and ted asks me to sit in the car. I refuse.
He holds me so tight and cries with me.
I hear bruno breathing happy and walking up the stairs. He enters room 2. And we dash in.
He looks so ###ing happy. I wish he didn't look so happy. He didn't know. He seriously didn't. He just thought he was having so much fun with new people.
We have a few last moments with him and call the vets back in.
We need to put him on the table and its a stuggle, bruno is trying to get off. Ted keeps holding him tight and I go to his head. He stops moving. He knows something is up
We ask him to sit and he does. I continue holding his head and looking into his eyes. The doctor places the needle in the iv and I watch Brunos eyes loose their sparkle of life.
He dies.
Ted sets his body down slowly and I fall to the ground to be closer to his face. I keep kissing him and screaming "Oh god please forgive me, I'm so sorry, I love you." And ted pulls me away and tries to get me up and hug me... and I scream "I JUST WANT TO KISS HIM" and I go back and keep squeezing his face and kissing him. He feels the same, just not alive.
Ted finally pulls me off and leads me out the room and goes back to say goodbye himself. A little old lady in the waiting room runs over and asks me whats wrong... and i say, "I just had to put my dog down" and she starts bawling and hugs me.
And shes so soft and so warm and so kind
Ted pulls me away from her too and takes me outside and we bawl together and can't stop hugging.
He drives the car to get Jelly, cause at this point we need her. He goes into that vet and asks me to wait in the car cause I'm a mess.
I can't wait... I see a little bulldog puppy get brought in and I want my dog.
I go inside and Jelly takes a few seconds to come out and she sees me and jumps right onto my lap. She knew I was sad. Jelly always knows and starts licking my face.