I put my boy down 4 months ago and I am still devastated, I have been in tears for 2 days. We made the decision because he was aggressive and unstable, he was trying to kill my other dog, the pound had already tried to take him away after my girlfriend got bit and ended up in the e.r. One minute he would be loving up on us and the next he would lose it and have his fangs bared. He was born in the wild and I think he was just wired differently. Still, I don't think I will ever be able to forgive myself, I killed my Jake.

I've had a lot of dogs, but I've never loved on like this dog. He was crazy, but he had such a bright big spirit. I miss him more than I can stand.

What gets to me is wondering how he is, if he is alone, if he is okay. I have actually thought that I can't wait to die so I can know my dog is okay.

This is getting worse instead of better. Maybe because of the guilt. I don't know what to do.

Thanks for listening.

Dawn

Dawn

I'm so sorry about Jakey. i know how hard these little anniversaries are to get though. I don't know what happened to him. Sometimes these things just happen and there never really is a reason. i know you feel guilty and that you miss him, but you truly did the right thing. He must have been suffering in some way that you just weren't aware of and it changed his behavior. He is free and happy now and will always live in your heart.

i,m sure he had no intentions of aggresion,all dogs no matter how placid have in built aggresion buried inside them.there was some reason that brought it forward,but it wouldn,t of been in his doing.the brain is a complex thing that we sometimes cannot control.he nows you loved him. i,m sure he,s running happy now without a care in the world,calm and relaxed.i was bitten by a dog once for no reason at all.deep down in there brain they feel fritened for some reason and just can,t help it,so don,t beat yourself up.i,m sure he,s the most peaceful dog you would ever want to meet now.

Dawn,I'm sorry your going thur such a rough time right now.It wasn't your fault that your dog was behaving the way he was, you tried your best but you did the right thing.You wouldn't have wanted your dog to end up attacking someone and maybe hurting them badly.He probably was just wired differently than most dogs.Stop beating yourself up over the decision you made because it can't be changed now.He'll wait for you at the rainbow bridge and then you'll be able to see him again.I wish there was something more I could say to help you to feel better but I can say it gets better in time.Sincerely,Renee (Sox's mom)

Thank you so much for your thoughts, everyone. It helps having other people tell me I did all I could. I wish there was a way to know that he is okay. It is pretty unbearable thinking that he might be lost or alone. I want my boy to be happy. I am actually going to speak with a psychic tomorrow. If anyone is interested, I'll tell you how it goes.

let me now if the psychic works out,i,ve been looking for one myself.i really need to no if my girls are together.the trouble is finding one that is on the level and not bogus.i live in the united kingdom.colin fry on tv often mentions people on the otherside and seeing there dog beside them.depends where you live,you may not of heard of him.the problem is finding somebody genuine.ihope it works out for you,if it doesn,t,find somebody different